Notes: As I have been writing the second chapter I decided to go over the first one, I just corrected some errors I noticed xD

Blake and Jim the barman are the only characters I own, the rest belongs to Cassandra Clare.

Enjoy ;)

Alexander found himself standing in a dark alleyway. He didn't know how he got there but he also didn't care, after leaving Maureen and when the anger for Camille had faded, he felt like he needed to escape so he ran as fast as he could without even noticing where he was going, for him he had no place to go to where he could be comfortable and truly himself anymore.

"It's over. I don't want to see you Alec or any of your friends. I'm tired of being their pet warlock".

-No, It can't be over, I opened myself up to you, I let my feelings for you get stronger trusting that you would never hurt me but now… now.-

"I´II be out all day. Come and get your things out of the apartment."

-How can I go there and just except what happened and leave when you said those things! I would have preferred that you hated me than telling me what you did and then giving me that one final kiss that will haunt me forever.

"Aku cinta kamu, I love you but it doesn't change anything"

That's where Magnus is wrong, it changes everything, and the love that Alec feels for him literally changed his world in a way he just can't go back, to think of the time before Alec met Magnus and how empty he felt all the time, how incomplete. He was living but yet he wasn't, he was playing a role of a perfect elder brother when he was far from it and now he couldn´t even go back to that.

Alec heard a voice, a voice that pulled him out of his thoughts and for the first time he noticed a man standing a few feet away, he had black eyes and pail skin. Alec knew instinctually that he was a vampire.

"What do we have here?" the vampire said in an amused voice, Alec just stood there without answering, after a second the vampire continued "What is a shadow hunter doing here all alone, are you asking to get killed?"

Did he want to die? No, but at the same time he didn't care much if he did in that moment.

-Would it upset Magnus if barely hours after he broke up with me I was found dead with all my blood drained out of me? Would he mourn? Would he come to my funeral?-

Alec wasn't a very confident person but he knew Magnus would do all those things and in some way that made him happy, he does care but just not enough to stay with him after what happened, not enough to fix the pieces in there rocky relationship.

After another long silence the vampire asked "Hey, are you alright?" while walking towards him. "My boyfriend just broke up with me" Alec said then mentally slapped himself for doing so, why would he tell anyone something personal like that!

The vampire was now right in front of him, "Boyfriend, huh? I don't normally go for guys but you are pretty cute" he said. Usually a comment like that from anyone would make Alec blush but he still feels so out of it right now, like time stopped when Magnus left him, "I'm not interested in you anyway" Alec said offhandedly.

"You're straightforward but I guessI would be too if someone I liked left me" mocked the vampire. "Are you trying to rub it in? And who said I liked anyone…you vampire, who are you anyway? " Alec said furiously.

Alec leaned forward "Do you want to go out with me? He asked. "See, that's what I mean, Straightforward" said Magnus. "Why do you want to go out with me?"

"I just do," Alec replied. "And I thought you liked me, so you'd say yes, and I could try — I mean, we could try …"

Before he knew it the vampire hand was touching his cheek "I´m Blake and it's obvious from your eyes, been crying have we?" He said with a twisted smile. -sadist

With having Blake so close Alec noticed for the first time his appearance, bright red hair like flames that went to bottom of his neck and his soulless black eyes looking into his, the man appeared to be in his twenties but since he was a vampire that didn't mean much. "I got to go" Alec said fiercely as he yanked Blake´s hand away, turned around and started to run but then suddenly stopped when Blake shouted something; his name "Alexander!"

He heard footsteps behind him and knew the vampire was just inches away again but before he had time to defend himself Blake pushed him against a wall face first, it was rough like sandpaper against his skin and blood was dripping from a cut in his forehead caused by the impact.

Blake leaned in close and whispered in his ear "I know you Alexander, I know all about you and that warlock" he spat "He isn´t good enough for you but when Camille betrayed you to him Iwas so angry at her for trying to cause you pain. So when Maureen asked me to kill Camille for her I couldn't say no" Blake said as he let out an evil laugh recalling the memories of killing the vampire.

Alec was shocked, how does he know who he is? Why would he kill Camille and then let Maureen take over when he could be the head of the New York vampire clan? And why is this happening now?! "I don't understand" Alec said quietly in a strained voice, "I don't understand" he repeated a bit louder, "Why is my life fall of shit, what did I do to disserve all this" he shouted while crying his eyes out, letting all of his pain show on his features. Blake took his weight off the boy and turned him around to see a face that looked truly broken.

Alec looked into Blake´s black eyes, there was something wrong about them that he couldn't point out but right now he didn't care either, all he wanted to do was escape, not just from Blake or the alleyway even, he just wanted to escape life and wake up to realize everything was just a bad dream, Magnus was with him and he didn't have a weird vampire problem.

In the moments where Blake seemed to be in his own thoughts Alec took advantage of it by kicking him in the nether regions, he let out a yelp and his grip on Alec loosened enough for him to get away. As he turned another corner and finally got to a street he recognized it started to rain heavily so Alec took cover in the first building he saw; an empty pub. He walked over to the counter to where the barman was, a man in his thirties with blonde hair and stubble. "I need to see your ID" he said, Alec paused a second "I don't have it with me but if you won't serve me then you will miss out" he said as he slapped 100 dollars down.

A few hours later Alec´s money was gone and he was even more out of it than before, when he looked around the room he realized that now it was quite busy filled with men having drinking sprees, Alec was also one of those men but the difference between him and them is that he was sitting at the bar alone.

He suddenly felt really tired and leant his head against the counter, his eyes closed and the next time they opened was because someone was poking him, it was the barman that somewhere along the line learnt was Jim. "It´s midnight so we´re closing now, you got to go man" he said in a pushy voice. "o- okay, but I feel like, I feel like, I'm go- going too puke" he said in a weak voice as Jim started rushing him out of the door just in time so he could do exactly that on the sidewalk "I feel like shit" hegroaned. "You look like it" Jim commented, "thanks" Alec replied and then started walking back towards the institute.

He strolled into the institute as drunk as hell and nobody even noticed. - Well why would they when there most likely all asleep-When he got to his room he was so exhausted he practically just collapsed onto his bed still wearing his clothes and shoes as he let himself fall into the darkness.

I really don´t know what direction I'm going in or what the story is going to be like, I just sit and write whatever enters my head in that moment-is that normal? -

Plus this is the first story I have ever tried to write :O so please feel fee to come up with ideas of what should happen next :) Thanks for reading !