A/N: SPOILERS!! Season 5 Simplest Explanation. I am still in shock of Kutner's suicide. (even though I knew it was going to happen) Just a little one-shot(: Read and Review if you please(:
They sat in silence. The pine scent of the car overtaking them. Both were still in shock of the news they had gotten today. They had barely known Kutner but they knew him well enough to miss him. They kept their eyes on the road straight ahead. Chase had known this had affected Cameron, any death did, but this one particularly more. This was a death she could've stopped, but she didn't. Chase reached over and took her hand, but they still both kept their eyes on the road in front of them. They sat like that the rest of the short drive to Chases place. They walked up the front steps in silence. Chase opened the door and let Cameron in. She threw her stuff down and walked over to the couch. Chase walked into the kitchen and made some of Cameron's favorite tea. When finished, he brought her out her cup and sat down next to her. Chase didn't say anything. Neither did she. Chase looked over at her after a while and noticed the tears streaming down her face. He moved closer to her and wrapped an arm around her shoulders. She leaned into him and just let it all come out. Chase pulled her closer letting her know he was there. He kisser the top of her head and let her cry.
"I should've known. I could've stopped him," she sobbed.
"Shhh, Cameron, nobody saw it coming. It is what it is. We have to accept it and move on," Chase comforted.
"It's just... I don't know. This is terrible," she said. "He was so funny and caring and everybody loved him."
"Hey, we're gonna get through it, together. Okay?" he said while looking into her eyes, red from crying. She nodded and snuggled closer to him, if that was even possible. They stayed like that for what seemed like hours. "Cam? You ready to go to bed? We have to get up early tomorrow." She nodded but stayed in the same proximity to him as she was before. He picked her up bridal style and carried her down the hardwood floor to his bedroom. He gently set her down on her side of the bed and walked over to his side of the bed. They got under the covers and Cameron snuggled close to Chase again as he wrapped an arm around her. The lay in silence for a while.
Cameron breaks the silence by saying, "Chase if you were thinking about suicide you would tell me right?"
"Gosh Cameron. Yes I would," he replied.
"Good because I don't think I can deal with another death."
"And I know that, that is why I would tell you. Besides, how could I be suicidal with I have you?" Chase responds with a smile.
Cameron chuckles and says, "Thank you. I really needed to know." She was facing him now and looking deep into his baby blue eyes. He kissed her forehead and pulls her closer to his body. She snuggles into his chest and falls asleep. Chase was still awake looking at her peaceful sleeping face. "I love you," he whispers and drifts off to sleep as well. As it turns out, Cameron was still awake and smiles.
"I love you too," she says. All she needs now is the guts to say it to her face.