November 10th, 2014
Piper sat at the desk in her apartment and stared out the window. She had been out of prison for a month but it felt like years. She could still remember the last time she spoke with Alex. The look in those beautiful brown eyes as she told me she never wanted to speak to her again still haunt her. If only shed said what she wanted to say. That she was choosing Larry only for a sense of security, not becaue its what she wanted. What she had really wanted to do was take Alex's hand and tell her that she never wanted anyone as much as she wanted Alex. That she loved her and wanted to be with her forever. But she fucked it up.
Piper sighed and looked down at the blank piece of paper lying in front of her. Shed been trying to work up the courage to write her a letter for the past few days. You're being ridiculousPiper scolded to herself. The worst she can do is not reply.
Taking a deep breath, Piper began to write.
Alex,
How are you? "God that sounds so lame!." Piper ripped the piece of paper up and threw it into the trash. "This shouldnt be so difficult."
Alex,
Hey...I'm not really sure what to say. I hope you read this. If you don't, I understand. We didnt leave things on the best terms thats for sure. Saying I'm sorry doesnt make up for what happened, I know. It doesn't even come close. There's so much I want to say to you. I hope this isn't to late. I miss you. And I love you. Distance and seperation is only making that feeling stronger.
Truth is, I in no way wanted to pick Larry. I want you to know that. Every ounce of me wanted you. I wish I hadn't been so scared. The possibility of not knowing the future, hell of not knowing what the next day brings, terrified me. I fucked up. I fucked up royally. And I understand if you do not want to talk to me. You had every right to tell me you wanted to never see me again.
I'm sorry this letter is so short. There is so much I want to say but I'm having a hard time putting my feelings into words. I wish I could see you. I'd love to hear back from you. If you can. If you don't, you won't have to hear from me again. I will truly try to stay away this time. I just couldn't stay away until I tried one last time to tell you how I feel and how sorry I am
I love you,
Piper