One step forward..
I gaze into your eyes and all is right in the world.
We dance to the music of our own laughter, silly like children. It leaves me dizzy with my ears ringing.
Then we take two steps back, away from each other.
You look at me differently. You say very little and what you do say only pulls on my heart strings tighter making me gasp. I do not like feeling awkward. I cannot say things that I want and I feel all tongue-tied.
I like being around you. I like talking to you. Maybe at times I think how it would be so nice to spend a day with you. My heart leaps when I see your face. It is silly I know. I save these moments in a slideshow of memories inside me. I re-wind it and re-play and hit pause. I skip to the best parts then wish I could mute out all the bad ones, filled with doubt, with little comments that make me worry. I really wonder what you want from me? I wonder if it just a fleeting whim or if it is deep. I prefer deep. I need to know for my own preservation. I feel things now inside that I hope if you do not feel the same then I can manage to take two steps back and wave to you without breaking down.
I ask how it is I can like someone so much. I ask how I can do this two step since it always makes me go to the side or back. I do not want to go back and fearful of forward.
I will give you back everything that I have. I will give you back anything that you do not want me to keep.
Nothing belongs to me nor has it ever. I just wonder if there is anything that you would want me to keep forever.