Inside this, outside that :)

BPOV

So, getting ready for my second year in high school California. I wonder what kind of surprises will happen this year. When I remember back to last year, I see how much I've changed. Well, inside I'm all the same, but outside my appearance has totally changed, and I always try to be "normal". Well, actually they're not really normal, they're all pretty much supernatural, because they always try to be "all the same" as everyone does. They all have pretty beautiful characters, but they hide behind the things which are "cool" and "totally fashion". I guess they don't see themselves good enough to be themselves. But, yeah, youth is not pretty easy, actually it's pretty the hardest time ever.

Anyways, I'm still that girl who thinks always higher and smarter than the other ones in her age. Earlier I've always blocked myself out of society and people in my old school in Forks, because I thought they were not worth to accompany them. I thought so high of myself, that I totally forgot, that they can be nice, kind and funny too. No matter if they don't think like you, you can still be friends with them. I mean friends usually have characteristic things you don't have, so that you can became a unit together, almost perfect :). In Forks I just had ONE friend. Someone who was like me, well actually she wasn't like me, we were really different but we thought about the same things. We often had misunderstandings, but they were never really bad, just little fights about random stuff and different opinions. Whatever... Since I'm in California I'm smart and have very much fun with the "normal" ones. Actually every friend of mine is "normal". But even when they try to act "normal", they're also very smart. A combination I used to love. And as if this would be enough I'm also the leader of the "cool" girls in my school, but I never treat the uncool ones bad, actually the opposite – I try to be always kind and caring with them. There are a lot of the "uncool" ones which I really like. Especially Angela. She's very easy to talk with. At first the girls in my clique had a problem with me talking to the "uncool" ones. But I said, that they were also humans as we all are and that we shouldn't treat them different then we would like to be treated. After this they shut up. Some of them (Alice and Rosalie) also made friends with them. Oh, Alice and Rosalie. My best friends since school start. I love them. They're the best friends you could ever get in California. Even, if they are not like I am, they always try to come with me to the deep ocean which we call live :).

My train of thought has been cut by my ring tone for Alice. Thinking of the little devil...

"Hello?"

"BELLA!" uh-oh. This doesn't sound good.

"yees?"

"Hun, are you ready?" phew, she's in good mood.

"Er, no?"

"WHAT? GET READY IMMEDIATELY! I'll be there within 5 minutes." Well, she was in good mood.

"For God's sake Alice. Relax! I won't need long, I promise. Is Rose also there?"

"Yes she is. Okay. Bye!"

Jeez, she really WAS in good mood. Why is she like that anyways? It's just the first day of school year. Well, she's used to exaggerate a bit...

STOP! Don't think anymore, or you won't get ready in time!

I quickly throw over a tight top with a mini skirt and old Vans. Casual and still sexy → I love it :). I let my hair fall in my natural curls. This was the first day and I didn't have any time for styling my hair.

I took my backpack, grabbed a strawberry and was in exactly 5 minutes outside, waiting for Alice. She also was very punctual, as usual. I hopped in the car and we drove to school.

The atmosphere was really tense, so I tried to say something, just to loosen up the tense feeling.

"Hi guys."

"Hi Bella", said Rosalie. I looked at Alice who remained silent. She really was pissed.

I threw a glance to Rose with a whats-with-her-look. She shrugged and turned to face the road. I immediately knew what would make her feel good again.

"Hey Alice. What do you think about my outfit?"

She glanced at me from top to bottom and beamed a smile. I won her back.

"Very good Belly. It's casual but still sexy. I'm proud of you."

I grinned. This always worked. She loved fashion. By the call of fashion I looked what they wore. Rosalie had short black hot-pants with a tight red top with beautiful long, blonde curls around her face. She really was a beauty. Every girl beside her seemed to be boring. But Alice also was really stunning. She wore a short, white tutu skirt with a grey top, she had short, black and straight hair. Different then me and Rosalie, Alice was little like a pixie. Oh, I remember I didn't give a reply to her compliment.

"Well you know Alice, I had a good teacher. Hm. I guess, even the best teacher ever." Her smile got wider and wider.

"Why thank you, Bella." I laughed. She was so easy to entertain.

But she really was the best fashion girl. When I came to California my mum rent a professional girl who would combine and buy my clothes, because I wasn't able to do that. I wasn't familiar with deciding what to wear. In Forks I would just wear something, no matter what. So this girl should shop for me, but she wasn't so good. Well, it was enough to take Alice's attention, but not as good as Alice was with it. After we became friends, I didn't need anymore my personal shopper, because I had Alice. She didn't just combined my clothes, but she also taught me how to combine them myself and showed me that I could have fun also with shopping and not just with reading books and thinking in intelligent ways. Thanks to her, for everything I have. The reason why I wanted to look good here in California was, because I wanted to try to be someone else, still myself but slightly changed. I wasn't satisfied with my "intellectual" life, because I didn't have enough fun. I grew up too fast. So in California I got back to be a teenager and now I'm very satisfied. The only thing that should be dealt with, was a boyfriend. I didn't have a boyfriend ever. And this should be according to Alice changed very soon. A boyfriend was the last thing on my list to be fulfilled. A boyfriend meant fun, and fun was very important. By the way Rose showed me how to make various variety of how I could style my hair.

Rose, Alice and I, we weren't just beautiful. We were also very kind and caring for problems of other. When someone in school would have a problem, he'd come to us. Alice and Rose were the leader from the Cheerleader, they also showed me a few moves, but I was just too clumsy for it, so I let it fall. And we all manage the benefit events, proms,...

"By the way," Alice said, "Did you know that there is this new guy in our grade?" It was a rhetorical question, 'cause she knew we didn't – we would have told her.

"I hear he's gorgeous, but I don't know, if it's right. Girls can be sometimes blind.", she continued. And she was right, some girls were really blind. Like Jessica a girl from our school, she was running after Mike since two years now, but still didn't see that he was making out with other girls and was running after us four. Another reason for me to wish for a boyfriend: the other boys would back off, I hope...