This is my first BeChloe story. It's a song fic based on the movie/musical "The Last Five Years". In the story I pictured Beca ironically as "Jamie" and Chloe ironically as "Cathy".
The song: "I Could Never Rescue You" (Jamie's part in Goodbye Until Tomorrow/ I Could Never Rescue you)
Warning: It's Not A Happy One!
Chloe's thoughts are in italics. Lyrics are in quotation marks. All mistakes are mine.
I do not own: Pitch Perfect or The Last Five Years.
(I mean I do own both movies, in DVD and mobile, but not like the rights y'know)
"I called Alice to help me pack my bags"
Chloe had seen the signs. She had felt the distance, not only the physical distance between them, but the emotional one. Beca was closed off but never with her. Chloe had always understood Beca. Beca was quiet, emotionally closed off, and she was a sarcastic asshole. And yet that didn't stop Chloe from pursuing her because Beca was worth it, and Chloe was also worth the shot. But she did see a change in her brunette partner. It was as if Beca truly did not want to be with Chloe. Correction: Beca clearly didn't even really want to be with Chloe. That was what hurt the most. Even after everything Chloe was still willing to work things out but Beca clearly said: "it's not about another shrink. It's not about another compromise." Was that everything their relationship was worth? No, Beca did not even have the decency to confront her to her face. She left a fucking note. 3 years of marriage, 5 years of a relationship, and it all ends with a fucking note.
"I went downtown to close the bank account."
Thank you, Beca, thought Chloe. At least you helped me there, didn't you? Asshole. Chloe wasn't the one with baggage, or emotional 'walls', she wasn't perfect that's for sure but not everything was her fault. If the marriage failed it definitely wasn't because a lack of trying, not from Chloe's end. She did try. She gave Beca space to succeed in her artistic career; she supported Beca when no one really knew who she was. "You never saw how far the crack had opened; you never knew I had run out of rope." Is she fucking kidding? I was running out of rope! Beca was asking too much of Chloe. All Chloe wanted was to be happy, spend time with Beca, fuck she wanted to spend eternity with Beca. Chloe didn't ask for more but for Beca to be by her side. Apparently Beca thought she was too much to handle. Were they ever in the same page? Did Beca ever really wanted them to be together?
"All you ever wanted"
"What was Beca thinking? Did Beca ever stop and ask what Chloe wanted? Chloe wanted Beca, she wanted to be her wife, she wanted Beca's children, and she wanted their love to last. But apparently their relationship revolved around Beca's career. It was always Beca. Not to say that Chloe wasn't ecstatic about Beca's success, how can she deny her lover her lifelong dream? She wasn't there to destroy it; Chloe was there to support Beca. Why couldn't Beca do the same for Chloe? "All I could do was love you hard and let you go." No Beca, if you truly loved me you would have listened to me, you would have fought harder.I was worth it, damn it!
"No matter how I tried"
Did you though? Because I remember you dying to meet your fans at every fucking party. Dying to be in that damn atmosphere where you are the center of attention. Where you are God's given gift to the world. How can anyone ever survive without you . Sadly, it hurts too much to think about you not being in my life. Damn it Beca, I fucking loved you. Correction: I fucking love you.
"You are not the only one who's hurting here."
How can Beca be so sure of Chloe's pain? Was Beca even really hurting, or is she saying that to make Chloe feel better? It doesn't matter because, there's only one person left alone in the apartment. One person left with a ring on her finger. "All I could do was love you. God, I loved you so." What the hell did Chloe ever do to make Beca fall out of love with her? Chloe would never know the answer.
"I didn't see a way we both could win"
Truthfully, neither did Chloe. It stung when Chloe couldn't get anywhere with her career. She never resented Beca. Sure she was slightly bitter, but her bitterness, never, in any way cloud Chloe's love for Beca. Chloe was in it for the long run, she was resilient, and a fighter through and through. She would have found a way, but living in the shadow of Beca's fame, clouded brightness in Chloe's ambition. I guess there really was no way, but you should have fought harder Beca.
"Goodbye"
God, it hurt. It wasn't supposed to end up like this. It wasn't supposed to end. Period. And yet it did.
Goodbye Beca.
Thanks for reading.
H