"I choose you." Spencer stated with complete sincerity, the conviction in his voice warming JJ's heart. "I will always choose you."
JJ sat on her sofa, those words racing around in her head mocking her. Unfortunately, she didn't choose him. She got out when things got tough for her – for both of them and then she met Will. He quickly swept her off her feet, his Southern charm and easy-going attitude attracting her to him just when she needed it. She'd never regret Henry but she did regret being with Will.
Spence, soon after Will and JJ's first date, had got himself clean and apologised, asked if he could take her out but she was already with Will at that point. How much she regretted it now. He'd accepted it graciously, told her he understood and didn't blame her for moving on but the heartbroken look in his eyes broke her too. Still, she persevered and then unexpectedly got pregnant – something that permanently made Will a fixture in her life. It was ironic really as she was contemplating breaking up with him before she fell pregnant so she'd assumed it was a sign that they should stay together. Telling Spence about her pregnancy had been the hardest thing JJ had ever had to do.
If Jennifer had to choose one thing; her biggest regret it would be leaving Spencer. Leaving him because of his Dilaudid problem, leaving because he'd said some harsh things to her in an effort to push her away. He was hurting, she knew this, and yet she still left when he told her he no longer wanted her. That he didn't love her. She was so stupid then, she knew why he was saying those things but she left anyway.
He was always true to his word though – he's always been there for her, and she has no doubt that if she chose to be with her best friend, chose to give him another chance, give them another chance, that he'd do it. It's only now; three years later that she's decided to break things off with Will. It's been nothing but arguments between them lately and there's no longer contentment there, no longer room to settle like there was before. Still she'd decided not to run straight into Spencer's arms. She wouldn't go from one man to another so soon regardless of how much she loved Spence. And she really did love him. Instead she'd tell him that they'd broken up and maybe eventually they could reclaim what they'd once had. He was already so good with Henry – both Henry and Spencer adored each other and her son was always asking when he'd next get to spend time with his stepfather.
One day, hopefully, she'd marry Spencer and have his children. She'd pictured it so many times, dreamt about it even. It was the one thing she wanted and never thought she could have. Not until now.
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Sorry a bit random but it was in my head so thought I'd get it out …