Struggles of Love

Chapter 01

She sat in her room, staring out the small window, sighing as a happy couple walked by her house. That used to be her... 'Used to'. "I don't get it...He says he needs me, but then...It's like I don't exist." As soon as that familiar sadness started seeping in, she shook her head and glared. "Argh! Damn him! He doesn't want me; he wants something he can control! I will not be a doll that he can fix up and play with anytime he feels like it! Not this time...Not anymore..." She shouts, slamming her fist on the windowsill.

The phone rings. 'Is it him? It might be...' The phone rings again. She gulps, her heart pounding. A drop of sweat, rolls down her face. 'What if it is him? What if...' Again the phone rings, and she slowly walks over and lifts up the receiver. Acting casual, she lifts it up to her ear. "Hello?"

"Hey, hon heard what happened. How are you feelin'?" She sighed; relieved it was her good friend.

Her grip loosened on the phone and cord as she recognized the female voice emitting through to receiver. "Oh good. It's only Mai."

"Well, I'm sorry. Were you expecting someone else?" The tone asked a bit offensively but in the light sense of tone.

She smiled, quickly relaxing her nerves. "No. You know I didn't mean it like that...So, what did you want, Mai?" She asked sitting down on her bed, a wave of calmness and warmth filling her body as she chilled out.

"I want to know how you are doing. How about I come over? I know your mom is visiting a friend...It must feel lonesome there." Her voice was filled with understandable concern and worry. Her and Tea had gotten really close over the past months since Mai came to Domino City.

Tea smiled solemnly. "Thanks, Mai. But I don't want you bothering yourself with me. I'll be fine. Really." She replied with kind sincerity.

"Nonsense. I'm coming over. That's final." She stated in well, a direct unalterable statement.

Tea sighed and her face softened, "Ok. I know there isn't any point in trying to change your mind..."

"Exactly. So, I'll see you in ten. Bye."

"Bye." --Click! ---

'Maybe, it will be better to talk with Mai. She's the only one who's ever let me make my own decisions...No matter how bad they are.' She lied down on her bed, staring up at the ceiling. 'How can someone that I absolutely loved, do such hurtful things? He's changed so little, yet, so much, at the same time. I hate him. I HATE him! I will never see him again!' She shuts her eyes tightly, trying to stop herself from crying again.

'Yeah right, Tea. What a crock. You live five minutes away from him. You can see his mansion from your bedroom window. He even goes to all of your dance classes. Even now, after you've broken up.' Her mind told her, she sighed in defeat. It was true. No matter how you looked at it, they will always cross paths. Always see each other, reminding themselves, that the other is there; that the other will always be there. Always...

Tea's thoughts were put on hold as she exited her room, walked down the stairs and took a deep breath. She smiled. No matter how depressed she felt Mai always found a way to make her smile. "Hello, M- Oh, hello. I'm sorry. May I help you?" She asked, as a man dressed in black, stood at her front door. He held in his hand a bouquet of at least two-dozen white roses--Her favorite--and a small box in the other.

"Hello. I'm looking for a Miss Tea Gardner. Is she here?" He asked, sweetly.

"Uh...Yes, I'm Tea Gardner."

"These are for you, Miss Gardner." He handed her the box and bouquet and tipped his hat in her direction. "Have a good evening." He said bowing, and then he walked away.

Tea closed the door, and put the roses on the dinner table. There was a note attached to one of the stems. She opened it up and gasped at the one who wrote it. "Why, is Seto giving me roses! We have broken up...So, why can't he just leave me alone? Why can't he go away?" She whispered, sitting in one of the chairs, reading the note over and over again...

There is so much I want to say,


So much I want to do.


But when I try, I end up losing you.

Being with you

I feel so much better,

There's nothing like the feelings

I feel when we're together.

I can't erase everything with words, I know.

But I refuse to lose you,

Refuse to let go.

I need you right beside me, don't you see?

I've searched my heart,

I love you, I deeply do.

My love, I can't live without you.