When your life is all about misunderstandings and broken promises, sometimes you just have to walk away, walk away and never look back. You have to think about all the times you got hurt and the feelings you have about yourself, when you start to think negative about yourself when you think you don't ever want to look at yourself in the mirror because what's been said about you so many times well you start to believe those lies. That's all they are, lies.
When you're a child and you're raised by two amazing parents who loved and adored you, when you have an older brother who would do anything you asked of him, your never ready mentally or physically ready for the abuse you take when you're an adult. You don't know the signs showing the man your "in love" with is really just someone who wants to beat you mentally physically and verbally. You don't think about the any of that. But now it's all I think about. But today I will be running, I will be running for my life and I hope to god my family will understand I pray that I will never see his face again, and I pray that I can get away with this, get away with my life.
Regina my friend she is helping me do this, I met her at a meeting "he" made me go to every Wednesday to help me be a "better" wife, little did he know he sent me to a place that helped battered women get away with their lives, and they have had so many good things happen because of them. Like for instance this one girl that went to the meeting I was in she was being abused sexually by her husband and his brother and would both beat her afterwards, worst thing, they were both cops. It's amazing how you think cops are supposed to protect you and be there for you against all the bad, but they are just as worse. It's crazy how they can get away with it. But who are the people going to believe the amazing officer or the stay at home wife who doesn't do anything right. No one and that's why she ran she ran for her life. Apparently wherever she is she's happy and safe which makes me feel a little better. She's been "missing" for a week now and he hasn't done anything to look for her, at least from what I know. Which is very little, no one is supposed to know where you're going, or what your new identity is. Except for two people the one who will be transporting you to your destination and the person at the destination that has your new identity and money to start your new life.
"Come one Is, we got to go." I said picking up my cat (which they don't know I'm taking but I don't care) and grabbed my suitcase, the only items I could take was an extra pair of pants that he wouldn't notice missing and a shirt. I was going to die in a fire tonight while he was out on a business trip and by the time he got back I would be long gone. I didn't know where I didn't care how far as long as I got away. Because if I got away I knew I would be alright, I would finally be safe. I could start a new life. Suddenly a knock came to the front door which of course made me jump. I sat my stuff down and walked to the front door and peeked out the window and took in a deep breath. "Oh its only you." I said as I opened it revealing my life coach. Regina smiled and walked in then frowned.
"She can't come, You know that." I sighed and rolled my eyes and I shouldered my bag and picked up my furry friend.
"Regina, I am not leaving her, she has been with me through all this I cant leave her. If she doesn't come then I am not coming." She looked at me for a second mumbled something to herself and smiled.
"Fine but only because we are setting your house on fire and I would prefer not to kill an innocent creature." I smiled and gave her a one armed hug.
"Thanks R." She smiled and walked me out the door. We jumped into her small silver car and headed down the street. It was dark out and no one was around. No one would know what hit them when the fire would happen. Regina promised that it would look like a faulty wire would be the cause and that bones would be laid out like I was asleep unaware of the fire, and that it would have been to late before I was perished. I couldn't help it, knowing that the second I got in this car, my life was different, would be for the rest of my life. I would finally be able to live my life without fear. I would be able to see the world if I wanted to. Then that's when I got the idea. "Regina I want to go to Italy."
"I know." Was all she said, I looked at her for another second then she chucked. "You talk in your sleep. When you passed out the other day on the sofa at the meeting hall you said Italy a couple times then smiled. That's where I am sending you. Of course no one else knows that. I am taking you straight to the airport where you will meet the person who will give you your whole new identity from there you're on your own." I just looked at her; she has been the first person since I had to shun my entire family that has ever been kind to me. She really is my protector. "You will be just fine, and you will be happy. I can promise you this. After tonight the old you will be dead and the new you will be just that new. New social new birth certificate everything will be new." I couldn't help but squeal all she did was laugh. "After a year you will be able to call me and check in, but until then don't contact the U.S. at all, just in case. Now I do have a question, does he know that you love Italy?" I sat back for a second and thought. We never really talked about anything that I loved or ever wanted to do. I don't think there was ever a time I even mentioned Italy to him. Let alone ever said I wanted to go there. So I shook my head. "Good, then there shouldn't be an issue at all."
We pulled into the airport and my heart dropped in my stomach. This would be last time I saw my friend and I could honestly say I was truly sad. "Go get out of here, my number will be with all your new info. Go to the South west ticket booth, say Anna kindred and you will go from there. Good luck." I nodded smiled hugged her grabbed my cat my small bag and jumped out the car. I waved as she pulled off then headed inside.
The inside was dead only a few bodies in the whole place, so it didn't take long for me to find the ticked booth she told me to go to. I walked up with a small nervous smile and looked at the young lady. For a split second I couldn't even speak, but that was gone very quickly. "Anna Kindred." Was all I said she looked at me then nodded, she handed me all my papers and said nothing more. I took them and slowly turned around and headed for security. I couldn't help but smile at the name on the idea that was inside the white envelope along with my tickets and passport. When it was my turn to hand the guard my stuff he looked it over and then at me and then at it again, to say I was sweating bullets would have been and understatement. He looked at me one last time then smiled. "Have a safe flight Miss Isabella Swan." He then handed me my stuff and walked away, I don't think I've ever held my breath that long before in my life. But when he handed me my papers back he not only handed me my papers but he handed me my freedom. I was free.