Authors Note: Hey Guys. So this is just a little idea that popped into my head, I couldn't seem to get rid of it until I wrote it so here it is! Please note that English is not my first language and any mistakes are my own.

This is also my first ever piece of fanfiction so I'm not sure if I'm doing this right. :D Reviews will be highly appreciated and rewarded with virtual cookies.

This takes place just after 5x09 but it's AU from then on.

Prologue

Deeks P.O.V

I opened my eyes slowly and stretched my arms out to the other side of the bed. Kensi was still sleeping as I pulled her closer and into my arms. She mumbled something before snuggling deeper into my chest. I gave her a gentle kiss on her forehead before checking the time on my phone. It was nearly six and the sun was just starting to rise. I slipped out of bed as quietly as I could, grabbed a piece of paper and pen out of a nearby drawer and began writing.

Princess

As much as I want to stay in this bed with you, (Trust me Fern… I REALLY want to.) I just assumed it would be easier if I left now while you were still asleep… Otherwise I would probably have stayed in there with you the entire day and I'm guessing that would most likely be frowned upon. So I'll be at the beach surfing, the waves are usually great this time of the morning anyways. Therefore I'll see you at work… Don't miss me too much. ;)

-Deeks

I placed a soft kiss on her cheek, put the note on the table next to her, went to the kitchen and switched on the coffee machine while setting a timer for around 07:30am. I got out two cups and placed them neatly on the table.

After gathering my surf gear I went to my usual surfing spot not to far away from my apartment. Even though Sam had already warned me multiple times to change my routine I just never found any other surfing spot I liked. This one was always calm and quiet with perfect waves. I loved coming here just to think and clear my mind, and after last night I definitely had some thinking to do.

I got my surfboard and started walking the route to the beach… I didn't even notice the person following me until it was too late. I got head locked and felt myself slowly lose consciousness. I didn't even have a proper chance to put up a fight.

Kensi's P.O.V

I woke up at 8am as my daily alarm went off. I reached for my phone and shut it off before turning to the other side of the bed. He was missing and by the feeling of the cold bed sheets he had been gone for quite some time now. I sat up slightly disappointed and studied my surroundings for any signs of him, or where he might have gone and that's when I noticed the small note laying on the bedside cabinet. I reached for it and read it. I couldn't stop the grin that settled itself on my face. Don't miss me too much… His ego was in need of some immediate work.

I threw the sheets off of me and started my normal morning routine. Luckily I had my to-go bag in my car with a fresh set of clothes. I was thankful for the already heated coffee and finished a cup before heading to work.

When the clock hit 10:30 and Deeks still hadn't showed up I began to feel a bit uneasy. Yes, he wasn't exactly always on time but he had never been this late before. I had tried calling him earlier but it had gone straight to voicemail and I just assumed he must have lost track of time and maybe he was still surfing, but now it just seemed ridiculous.

I pulled out my phone and dialled his number, again being sent straight to voicemail, "Hey Deeks, you thinking about coming to work one of these days? Just call me back as soon as you get this." I ended the call and sighed as Sam and Callen entered the bullpen.

"So surfer boy is still not at work?" Sam asked taking a seat at his desk.

"He probably had an eventful night and over slept or something," Callen smirked. "But he better get his ass to work before Hetty starts asking questions."

I took a seat at my desk. "He didn't over sleep."

Both Callen and Sam turned to me with curious gazes. "You would know this information how, Kens?" Callen questioned teasingly.

I gave them one of my most sarcastic smiles. "He messaged me earlier saying he's going surfing-"

Sam chuckled and interrupted me mid-sentence. "Oh, young love, always sharing every bit of information with each other."

I ignored his little comment and continued, "The problem is this was nearly four hours ago and he's still not picking up his phone."

Both of their smiles fell and they seemed rather concerned then. "You should go check out his apartment, maybe he got sick or something and forgot to call." Callen stated. "We'll go check out the beach. Any idea on where he might have gone?" He asked getting up from his spot.

"I have no idea, ask Eric to track his phone?" I told him while grabbing my car keys.

He nodded and we split up in our separate directions.

The trip to Deeks's apartment wasn't a pleasant one. Usually it went by rather quickly but today it felt like my destination was hours away.

When I finally arrive I knew he wasn't there. I could just feel it and when I entered his apartment my hunch was accurate. The place was exactly in the condition it was when I left, there was no surf gear lying around anywhere and his coffee cup was still untouched.

"Deeks?" I called anyways while looking through the different rooms, eventually coming up empty.

I pulled out my phone and called Callen. "Yeah, he's not here. Any luck with Eric?"

"Yes, Eric tracked his phone to that beach near his apartment, we're going there now." Callen replied.

"I'll meet you guys there." I said before ending the call.

I arrived at the beach minutes later just moments after Callen and Sam did. I parked my car next to them and got out.

"Eric said his car should be around he-" Sam began but I cut him off. "There it is." I stated and pointed to his abandoned red Chevy Malibu. It was hard to miss since it was one of the only cars in the entire lot.

We pulled out our guns just to be save and started approaching his car.

Sam was the first to look inside. "Clear." He declared while Callen and I split up to investigate the rest of the location.

"Here, I found something!" Callen called from the trail and I jogged over to him.

"His surfboard…" I whispered, panic high jacking my emotions.

Sam joined us soon after. "The sand look like something had been dragged through it." He said bending down. "Kens, there close to your foot, what's that?"

I looked down and picked up what Sam was pointing at. "H-His car keys."

Callen sighed out loud. "I'll inform Hetty." He murmured before taking out his phone.

I dragged my hand through my hair. Where was he and what had happened to him? Everything was going so well… Life really did have fantastic timing. My thoughts were soon interrupted by Sam, "Kensi, this is probably a stupid question but are you alright?"

I turned my gaze to him and stayed silent for several moments thinking about how to respond properly. I decided to lie. "Yeah, I'm fine…"

He narrowed his eyes, obviously seeing straight through it. "We'll find him." He added sympathetically while putting a reassuring hand on my shoulder.

Callen returned moments later. "Hetty wants us at ops. She's opening an investigation and sending a few more people to track down evidence." He announced and we responded with simple nods.

After all of us gathered in ops Hetty entered the room. "No further evidence could be found at the scene… Whoever took Mr Deeks did an exceptional job at not leaving any evidence behind. No cameras are located close to the location and because the place is so desolate there aren't any witness reports." She announced bluntly, getting straight to the point. You could see the disappointment in her eyes.

The room fell silent before I spoke. "Hetty… If there are no leads then what can we possibly do? There has to be something… I refuse to give up on my partner." I stated meeting her gaze.

"Miss Blye, I was not opposing that we give up. I need all of you to track down every possible person that might have some sort of resentment towards Mr Deeks. I would suggest starting with every person he had arrested in his life." She bid us all a good luck before leaving.

All of us started working on the longest, hardest and closest case we've ever had.

3 Months Later

I tapped my fingers on the edge of the sink waiting… I don't blame myself for not noticing until now. With everything that has been going on I never really put any focus on myself. In five minutes I'll finally know if what I was starting to suspect was indeed true, and to be honest I was certain I already knew the answer.

Four minutes – I sighed and looked at the little timer I set on my phone. It has been three entire months since Deeks had gone missing… We've tried everything. We've questioned everyone. We've searched everywhere. Every time we've kept coming up empty. It's like he vanished off the face of the earth.

Three minutes – Everyone was starting to lose hope. I'd be lying if I told you that I hadn't thought about giving up myself. I won't though… I was serious when I told Hetty that I refuse to give up. I still do.

Two minutes – In just a couple more minutes I'd know if I was indeed pregnant… I know I am, it's the only thing that could explain the way I've been feeling for the past few weeks.

One minute – In 60 seconds I'll have my answer and I am pretty sure this answer will motivate me to find him even more.

The timer beeped indicating that it was finished and I felt my heart begin to beat rapidly. Even though I knew that I was pregnant this will make things real. I was terrified. I was not ready for children and I was certainly not ready to go through this alone.

I bit my lip anxiously and flipped the test over revealing the little plus sign. I couldn't manage to keep the tears in anymore. I burst out crying and sunk to the ground clutching the test in my hands. "Marty..." I paused wiping away my eyes. "You better be alive." I whispered as more tears began to fall. "You promised me you wouldn't leave me. You promised me! I'm holding you to it… I will not let our child go without knowing his father…"

The next day when I got into work we were told to gather in ops again. I entered the room and everyone was already waiting. "Sorry I'm late." I mumbled quietly not meeting their gazes.

"It's quite alright Miss Blye." Hetty sighed before starting. "As you all know it's been three months now. We've spent three months on this case and we have come up with no leads at all… So I'm afraid we have been ordered to- to put this case on the shelves for the time being."

"You want to turn this into a cold case already?" Sam asked through gritted teeth.

"It's out of my control Mr Hanna." Hetty retorted.

The rest of the team was speechless and so was I. I could feel the tears burning the back of my eyes. Less than twenty-four hours ago I found out I was pregnant and now Deeks's case was being declared cold.

"Hetty, uh- we can't stop looking. Not yet… Please." I begged. I never begged before in my life, it felt wrong. It made me feel weak but I was not going to let this happen now.

"I understand how all of you feel about this. Trust me, I feel exactly the same... but we need to face reality. We need to do our jobs and right now our jobs require for us to move on." She added sternly.

"Yeah Hetty, we do understand but in all due respect Deeks was one of our own, still is and we just assumed you would give us more time to find him." Callen stated folding his arms.

I stood back not exactly knowing how to say what I want to say. I cleared my throat and everyone turned to look at me. "Hetty, I didn't really want to say this in front of everybody but I guess I have no choice… When we first got the case I told you that I wouldn't give up on Deeks and- and to be honest there were times I nearly decided to drop it, but last night I learned some new information and I guess it's time to come clean." I paused slightly as everyone faced me with confused expressions. "I'm pregnant. Deeks is the father… It happened the night before he got taken."

Everyone's jaws dropped open slightly.

"Kens, I'm so sorry." Callen whispered embracing me in a brotherly hug. He was soon followed by Sam, Nell and even Eric.

Hetty sighed. "I am truly sorry Miss Blye but there is still nothing I can do, I do hope you manage to forgive me." She left the room soon after.

"We'll work on finding Deeks after official work hours. They can stop us from looking on their time but they can't stop us after we're off." Sam stated. "Also Kensi, we're here for you, whatever you need… You don't have to go through this alone and if we get Deeks back, when we get Deeks back. I'm going to have a little talk with him." He added with a smile. "I'm sure G is going to join me."

"You're absolutely right Sam." Callen grinned and I couldn't help but chuckle at their attempts to make me feel better.

True to their word, they spent hours after work trying to track down leads but much like before no leads, therefore no answers and after months of doing this little ritual they began searching less and less till they eventually stopped looking.

They never stopped supporting me though. They were there every step of the way and of course I would of much rather wanted Deeks with me… They proved to be the most loyal friends.

On the 27th of August I gave birth to the most beautiful baby boy ever. Jared Donald Deeks. He already had a lot of his father's features and I'm sure he'll grow up to look almost exactly like him.

After becoming a single mother I finally accepted that I wouldn't be able to spend so many hours looking for Deeks anymore. Our son turned into my first priority. I will never let our son grow up not knowing who his father is though. I'll be sure to tell him stories every single day… Just to remind him that is father was a great man.

So how was it? Please review/follow if you would like to read more. The first chapter will most probably be up later today or tomorrow.

I really hope this wasn't too terrible, I'm nervous on hearing your opinions! D:

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Tc