Shin Seijuuro
It's not that I'm trying to be by myself all the time
It's not like I avoid people intentionally
It's not that I dislike being with people
But somehow
It was always me and the rest
As if there were a wall made of hush between me and them
As if nobody really cared about me
So there was no reason for me either to care about anybody else
Being a loner and loneliness just happen
I'm not very talkative
And it seems people in general have problems with
People not as communicative and open-hearted as themselves
It's said I'm unsocial
If that means one doesn't search for new contacts
Doesn't feel the need to join any group
Just doesn't feel like sharing one's feelings with another person
Doesn't talk unnecessarily
And isn't really interested in people at large
Except for maybe strong opponents to push one's limits farther away again
Then I am unsocial
I've got no problem with being different
It has always been like that
Because I'm not eager for company
That's why people leave me be
And it doesn't bother me
Not anymore, at least
At some point, it did, though
Don't remember the exact time but I was young and not yet wholey independent
By now, I know about my way in life
And that gives my security
A straight line I can follow without being distracted by unimportant things
The line of getting stronger and eventually being the strongest
I'm pushing my limits, pushing myself
I want to get better and better
There are still some athletes much more capable than me
So I have to do my best, have to beat them in a direct battle
In order to prove that it was not in vain
That I chose the right path to follow
That it makes sense what I do with my life
My life is part of a team sport
There are actually people who can deal with me
With my unsocial character
Some call it indifferent and nonchalant
I don't know how I would describe it myself
But I guess there has to be some truth in it
Since I don't care what people think or say about me
I know I'm not perfect at all
But I also know that I'm not all alone
Whether I like it or not
I'm part of a team and we get along with each other
And as long as I'm improving my abilities that's all that matters to me
With this goal in mind I don't care about anything else
I've got my discipline and maybe even some aquaintances
One could call friends
And that's enough for me