A/N: A little Ulquiruki one-shot fic for a friend of mine (aka Mr. Mel-low) for couldn't seem to stop moping over frivolous stuff. Sigh… trying to relieve some of his petty 'misery'… I think. Anyways, hope I've improved for the last half a year o.O (forgive me for the lack of update as you can see I'm on a hiatus). A simply written fic for the moment of interest, enjoy.
Ulquiorra's POV~
Content, I am, just by watching you from afar.
The silent worries I had for you, all vanished by your jolly smiles. Is it the effect of the so-called heart? I absent-mindedly found out that you seemed to be the subject to my recent interest. Which too, unconsciously made me stare at you with a peculiar affection. This anomalous antic caught me off guard countless time.
The heart, in all sense, is the downfall to every single hollow. But, instead of the cold demeanor I kept locked on my face, a certain new mask seemed to passed its way through the tight hold I held in myself. With each crumbling piece of my broken mask, I wonder how unusual am I changing into. Hollow shouldn't feel anything except for anguish, bore interest and a strong distaste for those shinigami. Yet, my mind would stray from one thought to her. Her mellow laughter that resounded like a chiming bell in my head was a despicable thought that shamelessly penetrated my mind.
This foreign sensation, will it ever keep me alive from its torturing? How much I wish to stab this heart thousand times, freeze it if it could make it numb and never feel a thing. How much I wish to choke the living life out of you instead. Make you suffer like how you make me suffocate in this obscurity of feelings. Now, I could only wander in my own sense of insanity.
But, I somehow found some comfort looking at you. Scrutinizing every detailed feature of you, accepting everything that you have made me so attracted to you, was the only thing I could do. I could vaguely remember how fast time have pass when I analyze how refined you are in front of your brother and how loose you are when you're with your friends.
I may never fully grasp the concept of falling in love, nonetheless never a connoisseur of feelings. But one thing I'm sure, I'm falling for you. Therefore, I kept the best distance away from you albeit my gaze could hardly leave you.
Still, could you look at my direction and give a warm understanding smile, Kuchiki Rukia?
A/N: One in the morning now, *yawns*. So how did I do? Old or new readers, reviews are always the best gift for an author! Compliments, constructive criticisms, advice for improvement are welcomed but no flaming, please.