"Hey, Joanne it's me. Um, I have to tell you something. I'm sorry. There I said it. I'm sorry I never thought about how me flirting could hurt you, and I deserve this. I deserve not being able to hold you and have sex you and hear you say you love me. And I miss you Joanne, I miss you a lot. Too fucking bad I didn't realize that sooner, but I guess this is what I get. Joanne, this is stupid and you probably won't believe me, but the reason I flirted so much was because…I…I wanted to make sure you actually cared about me, because…because you can better than me, and I-I didn't want to lose you. A lot of fucking help it did."

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

"What I'm really trying to say is…I'm sorry for hurting for. I know I was wrong."

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

"And sorry about lying to you so much, I shouldn't have done that…look at where it got me. Fuck, Joanne I'm a disgrace…and I hate it. I wish I could be like you…you're so much stronger than me. And your smart too, but you already know that. Um, listen, Joanne even though we've broken up, I still care about you. I just wanted you to know that."

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now I can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

"Oh God, Joanne, I'm sorry for hurting you. I know I've said it before, but I'm so sorry. Please forgive me."

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

"The thing is, I didn't want you to see my vulnerable side. It's dumb I know, but I'm scared of people seeing the broken side me. And it's become even more broken. Joanne, I never wanted us to break up…and…and I-I know I didn't say it enough while we were together, and I shouldn't be saying it now…I love you Joanne. And after all I've done to you, I'll understand if you never want to speak to me again. I just had to tell you this. I'm sorry for hurting you"

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold