Disclaimer: I don't own Bones
It was one irrational decision, my heart went into overdrive as her would say. Hi, the reason I now face the after effects. He had said yes to having my baby and I was exceedingly happy so I went out to "feather my nest". A wonderful shopping spree filled with clothes, toys and furniture that would fill my guest room. Looking back I should have known I would not be allowed to be happy. That it would be taken away, just like anything else I love in my life. Now here I sit folding up onsies and packing them away pondering what could have been. I pause at the orange onsie with "Daddy is my superhero" scrawled across the front. Yes he would have been a great father, everything would have been perfect. He wouldn't just be our child's superhero, he would have been, still is mine. He saves me in so many ways I don't think he even understands. He physically saved my life countless times and has been there for me emotionally when I didn't even realize I needed him. I continue folding and pause again on a Capitals onsie. This was the first purchase in my little shopping spree. It made me think of Booth's love of the game and the team. How he finally convinced me to get a TV so that he could come over to watch the games. How I would sit there and study him, I fooled myself into thinking it was an anthropological study of how people interact with a sporting event. In reality I just loved watching him no matter what he was doing. He always moved with such grace and confidence. I still do not realize the depth of my feelings at this moment, right now there is just so much being thrown at me emotionally that I do not know how to deal so once I am done packing up everything I will have to compartmentalize but for now I will dream about what could have been.
Just a little something that popped in my head while at work. Please review.