January 18

Ah fresh new journal for my new life in forks, gag me.

It's raining - surprise surprise - shouldn't complain, Charlie awesomely enough bought me a truck, wasn't sure about it when he explained but I saw it and luuurved it :)

it's red, and a 1950's stylie truck, the kind with the bulbus cab and all that cool snazzy stuff.

Well travlin took it outta me so I'm gonna crash and cry myself to sleep. No need to worry I'll be fine just need to get used to it is all.

till then...

January 19

An extraordinarily awful first day, beyond my expectations, shouldn't be surprised with my luck I guess. Started off okay everyone was super nice and really helpful. Only one buttheaded teacher made me introduce myself. I sat with a group at lunch, they were all really nice, I seemed to have picked up an admirer, has all the qualities of a golden retriever.

Saw the weirdest bunch of kids at lunch, the girl I was sat with told me that they were the Cullens (hope I spelt that right!!) All completely gorgeous. swoon The girl also said they were adopted and four of the kids were dating -scandal alert!- I wuz happy that the gorgeous copper headed god (Edward) was single, altho she was rather quick to tell me he 'didn't date!' I was wondering if she had a crush on him or maybe he was gay? No way, too hot for all of that. They he looked up at us as if he knew we were talking about him. . . his eyes were dark and he looked as curious bout me as I am bout him.

Then I got to biology, kill me now, tripped like an ass as soon as I entered the room! I pulled up an empty seat and guess who was sat next to me, yup you got it the gorgeous Edward Cullen. Here's the kicker he looked like I had killed his dog or something, he looked really scarily angry at me, I was like WTF did I do. Do I smell or something? (I even checked, nope that wasn't it!) I wasn't even the only one to pick it up, Mike, the golden retriever, asked me what I did to him.

i was like iduuno. . . Got out of gym (bball: nightmare much), being new, things are looking up. . . but no, then i had to go to the office to turn in the stupid teachers signing slip thing and there, in the office, was the greek god himself. He was trying to swap biology classes, again wtf? what did i do? someone came in behind me and he froze, looked at me mumbled something then was gone. I cried on the way home - weird - complete stranger made me feel dumb, Maybe he was having a bad day?

Whatevs, gonna go cook Charlie some food. . . laters.

Jan 20

Better day but i had this weird empty feeling in the pit of my stomach, there at the Cullen table was only four of the kids, you you got it Edward was missing. Maybe he was sick or something, I hope he wasn't missing cuz of me. That would be super bad. Still trying to figure out how I offended so quickly.

Jan 21

k, this is ridiculous, still no copper headed cullen, this sucks. I think I have a crush on him. . . I know I know WTF am I thinking. Especially seeing as he seemed to be supremo mad at me. Mike is beginning to get annoying but I like Jessica and Angela. Lauren is a snarly snaggletooth. she doesn't seem to like me. . . Oh well guess I'll see what happen tomorrow. . . maybe Edward will be back. . . a girl can dream.

Jan 22.

No Edward, this sucks, why am I so obsessed about this? crazy much?

I hit someone in the face with a basketball today, fun times! I am such a klutz. . .

Ohh look it's raining. . .

Jan 23

Ok I think I need help, I met him (not really meeting but . . .) once, and I can't get him out of my mind, what's with me?? At least it's Friday, maybe I can distract myself this weekend. I can only hope.