Summary: Tsukasa is back in the real world but he's sent to a Psychiatrist because he has been acting a little strange lately. Who is this new Tsukasa and what has he done with old Tsukasa? Subaru's worried about the old Tsukasa and doesn't know if he'll return like he promised. Tsukasa doesn't like the idea of a shrink to help him and refuses to listen and tries to find himself on his own. Will Tsukasa finally listen to the Doctor's orders and get all the help he needs, or will the Doctor pull a few tricks of his own to get Tsukasa to listen to him?
Disclaimer: I and I quote do not, I repeat, do not own any of the characters, or parts of the World, any monsters (although there are none so far), or any of the echoing voices of Morgana, and anything that may have to with .hack/SIGN what so ever. I do not own "Coke" either.
Author Note: Though to the fact that I do not own .hack/SIGN, however I do own this story. All the characters and the plot of this story are under my control at command and at my mercy. I am the author of this story and have the power to anything I want to in this story of mine. Others are powerless to my mighty authoresses. You can do nothing to stop me. Mwahahahaha!
Also Tsukasa is 15 and Subaru is 14 years old. Krim is 19 years old and Bear and the Psychiatrist are old enough so far. (Bear is actually 47 for real in the real world in .hack/SIGN. Don't ask me how I know these things I just do. All my facts so far, (2) have been true thank you.) Remember that this is in my fanfiction and everything in it is made up except that Tsukasa's last name, which is Shoji. (It's actually Anzu Shoji in .hack/SIGN. But it's true so don't argue with me. If you want to argue look it up for yourself and prove me wrong.) In my story it's Tsukasa Shoji since I don't like the idea of Tsukasa really being a girl in the real world. I made Tsukasa a guy, (if you didn't figure that out from the last sentence) Subaru can walk and doesn't need her wheelchair or her glasses because she can see perfectly without them, and I made up the Doctor Psychiatrist dude just so you know. (Holy shit, I wrote a lot!) Oh, and PG-13 just so ya know! -
Title: My Emotions Lye Within The Crystal
Chapter: Your Face For I Never Saw
Author: SiameseWhiteFoxx
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"I'm going to do it." Tsukasa told Subaru. "I'm going to log out."
"Are you ever going to come back to the World?" Subaru asked with concern.
"Of course I will. You worry too much. I'll return in a few days. I just have to take some time in the real world as soon as I wake up. So it will be a while but I'll come back." Tsukasa replied.
"What happens if you go into another coma and don't ever come back?" She asked worried she'll never see him again in any of the two worlds.
"Don't even think that. I'll be fine and I'll come back. I know I will."
"Do you promise?" Subaru asked with some hope in her heart.
"Yes, I promise. And you'll be the first person I see when I come back to this very spot on this private field. Only if you wait for me." Tsukasa told her with much meaning.
"I'll wait for you always." Subaru responded. With that Tsukasa and Subaru walked up to the Chaos Gate that wasn't to far from the tree they were sitting by. Tsukasa turned and looked at her for what seemed to be the longest time before rapping his arms around her in a tight embrace. Subaru, not wanting him to leave put her arms around him as well.
"I'll return if you wait for me." He told her and let go of the embrace. He could see a tear fall from her cheek as he turned to the gate and logged out for the first time in the eight months he was trapped in the World.
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About a month later after Tsukasa had left the world and staying with his abusive father he decided to find Bear in the real world and talk to him about his offer that he had made to him a while back in the World. Tsukasa used the phone number Bear had given him and called him. After a few rings Bear picked it up.
"Hello?" Bear asked.
"Is this Bear?" Tsukasa asked.
"Yes, but how did you know that name?"
"Bear, it's Tsukasa from the World. Do you remember?" He asked Bear.
"Well of course I remember you Tsukasa. You only logged out of the world not to long ago. What was it, a month now? That's not so long. So what was it you called about?" Bear asked
"I want' to know if that offer of yours was still any good. If you would be willing to be my foster parent."
"Well, yes it's still available. I never forgot it." Said Bear.
"Do you think we could get together to talk about soon?" Tsukasa asked.
"Well sure. When do you want to talk about it?"
"Sometime soon if you're not busy."
"How about tomorrow at 2:00 p.m. at my house? You do have the address don't you? Is that okay with you?" Bear asked Tsukasa.
"Yeah, its fine. Thanks." Tsukasa replied. Both said goodbye and hung up in wait of their meeting the next day.
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The next day Tsukasa went to Bear's house to talk about the current situation. Tsukasa knocked on the door and Bear answered.
"Tsukasa, come in and we'll begin soon." Bear said and led Tsukasa to the dining room table. Tsukasa sat down.
"Would you want anything to drink? Water, pop, juice?" Bear asked.
"Just water." Tsukasa responded and watched as Bear left for the kitchen. After about two minuets Bear returned with a "Coke" and a glass of water. Bear handed Tsukasa the glass and sat down while sipping his "Coke".
"So what was it you came to me for?" Bear asked him.
"My dads been really angry this past month. He's gotten more abusive towards me. Sometimes it hurts so bad I don't want to move." Tsukasa explained to him.
"I see. So you want to take me up on my offer that I made to you."
"Yeah that's right."
"You know, this won't be easy though." Bear told him.
"I know."
"There's pressing charges and going to court to see if you'll get taken from him. It's not that simple. Are you willing to wait a little longer?"
"Yeah. I'll do anything to get away from him." Tsukasa said sounding almost glad.
"All you have to do is wait until your father tries anything drastic and call me if he does. Then I'll call the police and soon we'll have a case in court." Bear explained.
" Sure I can do that." Tsukasa said.
"Also I found Krim and got him in on it as well. He's willing to be somewhat of a foster parent to you as well if it doesn't work out for us you know."
"Well, I didn't know you got Krim too. That's kind of cool. I think I should get going so I can avoid getting screamed at." Tsukasa told Bear.
"Well thanks for stopping by Tsukasa. Come back when you want and call me when you need to." Said Bear and led him to the door.
Later that evening Tsukasa decided to finally go back into the World after such a long time of not logging in.
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Subaru was waiting longer than she has other days because she had a feeling that Tsukasa was going to log in that day. She got tired of waiting a little longer and was just about to leave the private field only she and him knew about when Tsukasa appeared in front of the Chaos Gate as she passed it. Subaru started to cry with tears of joy for he finally came back.
"Tsukasa." She managed to say through a few sobs.
"Were you just leaving?" Tsukasa asked her. "If you were I don't blame you."
"No. I'd never leave you." Subaru said running towards him and into his arms.
"Uh." He gasped as she rapped her arms around him and cried in his shoulder. Tsukasa put his arms around her and let her cry for the moment. After a while Subaru stopped crying and they both walked over to the tree and sat down to talk. But Tsukasa and Subaru were just sitting there like they normally did all the time. Tsukasa started to think.
'To wake up in the world wasn't all that bad. I was out of it until I was able to use all five senses in the world. Then I realized that I was different from every other player. I didn't know was exactly was going on for a while. All was coming to make sense as my friends tried to figure out what was going on with me.
They say I was in a coma in the real world and had no idea if I would come back. But how could I be gone if I came back? I did come back, and still I've never found any of my friends that I knew and still know in the World in the real world. I don't know if I'll find them but I know one thing; I will go back. Back into real world and find them.
I don't care how long it takes but I will find them, eventually.' Tsukasa thought to himself. He was so lost in his thoughts that he almost didn't realize that Subaru was sitting right next to him.
"Tsukasa?" She asked. No response came from Tsukasa. "Hey Tsukasa. Are you alright?" She asked him pulling on his shirtsleeve. He didn't feel it but it got his attention because she almost knocked him over.
"Huh?" He asked.
"Are you okay? You seem to be acting a little different." She asked him sounding concerned.
"Huh, uh, yeah. I'm fine. I was just thinking."
"Thinking, about what." Subaru asked.
"Well, when I was in the real world I wanted to find you guys but I only found Bear. I still want to find you and everybody else I know. I don't just want to sit around waiting in the World. I want to find everyone in the real world, not just here." Tsukasa told her.
"Was that all you were thinking about?" She asked knowing that wasn't all he had been thinking about. She knew him better than that.
"No, not really. I was thinking about what it was like here in the World in a coma. What it was like to have all five senses. Being able to feel mostly."
"Why were you thinking of that?"
"I don't know. I guess I just kind of miss that feeling. It was weird being able to feel in the World, but at the same time it was neat. I enjoyed it to tell you the truth." He said.
"What do you mean?" Subaru asked somewhat confused.
"I liked being able to feel. Being able to feel pain was not one my favorite parts of the sense. But being able to touch and feel things that are not in the real world was like going to Mount Fuji. It was like a life changing experience. Most of all, I liked being with you and holding your hand. It was different but I liked being able to feel in the World."
"You really liked being able to feel?"
"Yeah, but not as much as I enjoyed holding your hand, just holding you when you wept." Tsukasa told her looking right into her eyes. Subaru turned away in embarrassment.
"You really liked holding my hand?" She asked still blushing slightly.
"Yeah, I did." Tsukasa said taking hold of her left hand in his right hand.
"I wish you could feel my hand right now Tsukasa." Subaru said as she leaned up against his right shoulder.
"Me to." Tsukasa responded moving his right hand from atop of Subaru's left hand around her waist even though he was unsure of her reaction. To his surprise she didn't try to shove him away but instead just sat with him letting him hold her like that.
After a while Tsukasa and Subaru parted and Tsukasa logged out.
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That night Tsukasa had a strange dream. It started out in the private field in the World and then expanded throughout the rest of the World. The dream got weirder and weirder as the hours passed.
'He could see Subaru standing by the same tree they had been sitting at before. He walked over to her but she ran and disappeared as he reached her. He began running for some unknown reason. Faster and faster he ran.
'Where am I running to?' he wondered as he kept going. He was now in Mac Anu and he was still running but now even faster. He saw Bear but he looked as if he were from the real world than the World.
'This is really weird.' He thought. Soon he stopped running near some river. There on the other side was Subaru. He began to walk towards the edge before getting to close to the river. People he knew began to show up and disappear like ghosts but they were in real world form.
'Is that what they look like in the real world?' He wondered. Tsukasa walked out to the water of the river but didn't fall in or anything. He walked across the water until he reached the other side. There he found Subaru. This time she did not run away or disappear. Instead she turned around to face him. She looked human. Like she was from the real world. Tsukasa took one look at her and gasped.
'Is that what she looks like in the real world? She's beautiful.' He thought. He put a hand up to her cheek. Tsukasa gasped. He could feel it. He took a step forward and leaned to kiss her just as she did. Their lips barely touched before the ground began to shake and the river started to expand their way. They started to run but it was to fast and engulfed Tsukasa. Still above water but sinking slowly Tsukasa reached out towards Subaru. She tried to grab him but her hand slipped and he was swept under the deep brown, dirty water of the river. All went black for a moment, then all he could see was a single tear drop and crash on the hard, cold black ground.'
"Ah!" Tsukasa screamed as he woke up with shock. He could feel the cold sweat slither down his face and drip onto his bed sheets. He sat there breathing heavily and sweating from this nightmare he had just experienced.
"What was that?" He asked himself silently. "That dream, those people, and her. Was that really Subaru?" He continued to ask himself. He looked at the clock. It was only 4:58 am.
'Your face for I never saw, you for I've never seen. And you were beautiful.' He thought and went back to sleep in wait of a new day.
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Author Note: Well I hope you liked it so far. I know I did. I had a lot of fun writing chapter one and I'll probably have fun writing the rest of the story. R&R peoples! Thanks for reading chapter one of, My Emotions Lye Within The Crystal, Your Face For I Never Saw. I'm out till next time. See ya! -