Dear Tris,
I hope you realize how much I miss you. Life is almost unbearable without you. Sometimes I think of ending it. Then I remember that I've lived without you before and I can probably do it again. That and I'm sure you wouldn't want to be responsible for me committing suicide.
I hope t his letter does get to you, wherever you are. Im sending it in a balloon. My neighbor is a history expert and said that people used to send messages in bottles across the sea, so I decided that maybe something like that might work with a balloon in our case.
If heaven is real I'm sure you got in. What's it like up there? Is it nice? Would I like it? You don't have to write a response to this letter. I'm sure you'd have a hard time sending it down. The sad part is, Tris: if heaven is real, there is no guaranteeing that I will get in. I hope I do. I don't know if I could spend an eternity away from you.
Just in case I don't get in, I wanted to tell you something, Tris: it was worth it. You dying was a small price to pay for loving someone so beautiful, smart, selfless and brave. I still lie awake some nights wondering how I was ever good enough for you.
If you do get this letter, don't deny what I just said is true. You know you are a far better person than I am. You're a complete idiot and are far too stubborn for your own good but hey, I'm the one who was stupid enough to fall in love with someone who was bound to break my heart.
I also want you to know that I forgive you. I forgive you for being stupid and stubborn and trying to sacrifice yourself multiple times. And for dying. Your lucky that I'm kind and selfless enough to forgive you, Tris, because you dying really hurt me.
Christina and Caleb said hi. Evelyn said sorry for being such a jerk to you. Amar told me that he liked me when I was an initiate and I was half flattered and half freaked out. Christina said: if this does work, please tell Will how much she loves him. And she said she's going to smack you in the face the next time she sees you.
Sincerely, Tobias