Summary: No matter how hard I try. I can never reach you. Gerbera centric, pairing: Gerbera/Madnug x Captain. Inspired by "Love Song Requiem" by Trading Yesterday.
The Story:I look at you at a distance, seeing you smile and living your everyday life. You don't know how much it pains me to know I can't be with you. My Soul Drive is calling out to you, my arms wanting to capture you into a strong embrace. I wish I was the one who claimed your heart, your soul, your everything.
I feel like I've lost something important, and I did. I lost you twice. I thought you had abandoned me, but when I thought back, I thought you didn't. That you were still looking for me somewhere. I'm still here, wanting to be with you, but I knew in my heart and mind that you can't find me.
Now here, in this wretched past, I found that you were struggling to know who you are. To know what you are to this world. I just wanted to grasp you into my arms when you fell into the confusion this strange world has got you into. But I was not the one who did that for you. No…it was another.
I knew you had a relationship with him. I knew you hid it from them, but I won't be fooled. You loved him, and he as well, but soon you were forced with the decision. You chose one that you forever regretted. I still see you cry, the tears escaping your optics, those bright now dull blue optics. It pains me to know that you're suffering. Pains me so much I just want to leave this organization and take you away from both factions to no longer be bothered by them. It would just be you and me, just the two of us.
But I know it was never meant to be.
No matter how hard I try, I can never reach you. You're too far for me to reach, and with his death, you have been completely shattered. You can hide it so well, but I can still see the pain in your optics, even when you don't notice. As I pass down the hallways, I still see you break down when you believe you are alone. Not even that organic knows of your suffering. Too much pain has been locked up within you, and I fear that it will consume you one day. Sometimes I wish I was able to be there for you, to tell you its okay. But then the fear sets in, the thoughts of you leaving me or me dying on you. I don't want to go through the heart ache, and I know you don't need another reason to grieve.
Too much has happened for us to be with one another, but I know I will just make it worse for you. I will never forget that I love you Captain Gundam. I will forever love you.
But I, Gerbera, a mech once known as Madnug, know that you will forever love him. I know you will forever love Commander Stalemate Sazabi.
And that's something I know that will never change…no matter how hard I try…
I can never reach you…not now…
Not ever…
The End…