Why do I even try?
Why
do I try so hard but I get back so little? Once I heard of a story
about a thriving teenager. He was young and foolish as all young men
are or that is what I was told from every girl I ever met. There
once was a girl who blew my mind away. Sometimes he would even pinch
himself to make sure that it wasn't a dream. It was never a dream
since my friends would ask him why does he always pinch yourself when
you're so happy. To make sure that today was for real then they
would mutter he's such a freak and move on. He was always being
surprised even though he knew her inside in and out just like the
back of his hand. Then one day I realized that I would never be able
to call her my own. Never having been able to call any one my own has
always been a problem for me. I'm not very bright, pretty dam weak
and I'm a skinny white boy there not much to offer. I really needed
to sit down and think about what I'm going to do about this problem
since I'm not letting this one getting away but I need to decide if
I love her so much that I would stay by her side even when she will
never be his. Then I decide that I will just have to try harder but
will my mad obsession to this girl be my downfall and maybe my doom.
So what did I do? Well I will try a couple of idea's to call her my
own even though she there was no chance. I would first start cutting
into my soul till the pain in my heart was so dull that it would stop
hurting so dam much. Then instantly realized that cutting into my
soul does nothing except hide my pain. Which is what I don't want
to happen. I want the pain to be gone forever Then I make an effort
to show her that I wants to be friends with her and only friends
because that is want she wants to hear (well actually I really think
I can win her even though she really thinks I never can. It is just
that guys are so ignorant and think that we can do any thing).Two
months have passed and we are best of friends and I try to make my
move when we were just at the movies with a bunch of their other
friends. I kiss her in the mouth and she gets up and slaps me and
screams at me. She runs out of the theatre into the lobby and starts
to yell at and says I thought we were cool and decided only as
friends I thought you knew that we could never be boyfriend and
girlfriend it's over never even come near me again. Then I did the
one thing she said not to do since I'm so ignorant. I go to her
house and try to talk to her. Well of course that back fires on him
because he never does anything right and the next day she requested a
restraining order on him and one weeks time I was not aloud to at
least 50 feet around her . Anyway, this boy tries the romantic
approach even though she said never even to come near her and the
judge said it too. Next I will try to connect back with her by
sending her a package on Valentine's Day, but something once again
went wrong. This girl thinks now that this boy is some crazy stalker
(because he knows he is since he is obsessed.). Ten years later she
realizes that this boy is in the morgue while she was visiting her
best friend's grave and sea's that I was that guy that jumped off
that bridge last week. A tear comes down and she says "I wonder if
I gave him a little leeway even though he was obsessed over me maybe
he would be by my side helping me mourn my best friend's death. He
would understand since she was sadly hit by a drunk driver and his ma
was killed when she well asleep in front of the wheel and crashed
into an oak tree and sadly passed away. . This story teaches a very
important lesson keep your close friends close but keep your enemies
closer cause if she did I could have drove her home instead of
getting in that car instead of dieing.