Behind her Hazel Eyes…~
I've made so many mistakes.
Of course, I've also made many excellent decisions, but that's a different story...
She's always there, whether she's in my sight, or in the back of my mind… I can't help but notice her. I don't know when I really began to notice though, or when she crept her way into my thoughts… But, before I knew it, I knew things about her. Like how her rare smile never quite reaches her eyes… Or how her dark locks bounce slightly as she walks… I suppose I finally caught myself when I realized that she stayed in my mind, even when it had been long since she left the room. Even now I can't get my mind off of her. It has come to a point where I actually look to see if she is around, somewhere nearby. Of course, I am never disappointed. I often go to the library for a more peaceful environment, and she seems to think along the same lines. I find that we often sit just across from each other. A few words here and there are spoken, of course… And with that, it began… First year feelings all over again. Memories of when life was so simple, and most of my childhood innocence was still intact. I remembered how beautiful I had thought she was. How smart, how cunning, how sharp… I remembered how I had once admired her spirit… And then I realized that spirit had grown stronger. Never weakened by all the hell she and everyone else had been put through.
She is… flawless… Complete perfection…
But now as I lay, deep in my thoughts, I can't help but wonder if I'm just making another awful mistake...
If I'm merely setting myself up to fail.