Hi! This is my first story that ive ever published. So im not sure if it's good but my sister says I should upload it. If anybody has any feedback, good or bad, please tell me this is spoby based, but has a lot of other characters and couples in it. It might not make sense at first but you'll learn more as the story continues. Summary: Spencer and Toby have been broken up for 3 years now and Spencer is still confused why they even broke up. She's been in New York but now she's back for Arias wedding. Will she and Toby get back together or is it to late and there story over?

CHAPTER 1

Spencer's pov

"Spencer, Spencer, Spencer! Get your but out of bed right know or your going to be late for class!" Hanna my best friend said.

"Fine, fine. Five more minutes!" I say back half awake and half still asleep.

"If you want to be late for the first day of classes then that's up to you. But if I were you I wouldn't want to. You never know you could meet your Mr. Fitz!" she says talking about one of our other best friends, Aria and her relationship with our old high school English teacher (long story) who are getting married next month.

"Yeah right! Like that'll if ever happen!"

"Well it won't if you don't ever get out of bed!"

" Fine. But ill never be desperate enough to date my teacher. No offense to Aria and Ezra."

"Well thank you very much Spencer! I now know how you feel about me!" Aria says walking in with Emily.

"Aria Emily! What are you guys doing here?"

"We came to surprise you for your first day of classes!" my other best friend Emily says.

"That's so sweet thank you! But I know there has to be another reason. Cause the Aria I know would never leave planning a wedding to surprise me on my first day of classes." I say back a little annoyed over knowing the reason why they actually came.

"Why can't we come and support our best friend with out be bam barged with questions!" Emily says sarcastically.

" Well you could, but I know you guys better than that. So there has to be another reason and I know that reason but guy's im fine! I haven't really thought about him in awhile."

"Spence we know that you think your fine but you may not be so fine underneath, this whole im Spencer Hastings and I never cry!" Hanna says.

"Yeah Hanna's right Spencer. You may think you can't cry once in awhile but you can't just hold it all in." Aria says sounding like a therapist.

"I know you guys want me to be happy in all but when did this turn into a therapy session!" I say still annoyed.

"Spencer were doing this cause we care. Not because we want to strap you up in a strait jacket!" Hanna says trying to make it better while still sounding funny. Usual Hanna.

"Seriously im fine! You guys are just making it worse. So if you'll excuse me im going to get a shower and think about rainbows and butterflies!" I say trying to be funny but it really sounded depressing and sad.

"Fine Spence be that way." Emily says.

"I will be that way" I say sounding mean.

I head too the bathroom stomping the whole way. I feel bad about the way I snapped at them, but when it comes to him ill do anything. I guess it all started when I signed up to be his French tutor. I thought it would be easy. I would tutor him and try to figure out what he knew. And who could've been framing us. But it turned into more.. I regretted blaming him for killing Allison. He was too sweet to kill anybody. Then there was the night in the motel. Playing scrabble and him beating me. Sleeping in his shirt. Never gave it back to him. Sleeping beside him and waking up intertwined with him. And did I mention he was shirtless! As I get to the 50th memory I notice tears starting to fall. Great! Just what I needed! As I wipe off some of the tears, I look in the mirror. For the first time I notice what's holding me back. Me. Im not letting myself move on from him. Maybe there right.

I start to head out to apologize till I hear Hanna's voice.

"We need to do something about Spencer, she's getting worse. Last week in the middle of the night I heard her screaming his name and then she started crying. I wanted to say something to her about it but I figured she would tell me I was imagining it." Hanna says.

"Yeah I know what you mean, last month when she was staying with me for the dress fitting she did the same thing!" Aria says.

"I agree we should but how?" Emily says.

"Well we need to find away." Aria says in her usual we can fix it way.

"Hey guys I just wanted to say im sorry for the way I acted earlier im just really stressed right now" I say interrupting.

"We know Spence but we just want to help you"

"I just realized that maybe I do need help. When I was in the bathroom I started thinking about all of our memories and eventually I found my self crying. Then I looked in the mirror and found that the only reason I haven't moved on is me. I don't want to face the fact that it's over between us. I keep telling my self that one day ill meet a guy and ill never think about him again, but that's never going to happen in less I let it happen. So I think im going to go back to rosewood for a few weeks." I say with as much courage I can find.

"What!" the girls all say at once."

I thought you guys would be happy! Hanna you especially. That way you don't have to drive back in forth. And Aria I can help you plan the wedding! Wait did you invite him to the wedding?"

" Well I sent him an email and he never sent one back." Aria says.

"Well than I guess I don't have to worry about running into him. So im going to go to school then come home and pack!"

"Wait what about school? You just can't get up in leave on the first week of school!" Emily says.

"Im a Hastings! I have my homework done until December. Im fine! Ill see you guys later!" I say while leaving the apartment and heading to the college.

At this time tomorrow ill be in rosewood. Yay.

I hope that made sense! Please review to tell me if I should continue! Thank you for reading I don't own pretty little liars.