Ok, the set up. This is a very angsty AU about everyone's favorite twins. And just so you guys know, I'm not quite a "full" shipper, because I do alternate between Hikaru/Kaoru, Hikaru/Haruhi, and Haruhi/Tamaki… and maybe Haruhi/Mori. Anyway! Enjoy.

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Disclaimer: I don't own OHSHC

A Twisted Romance

One: Reunited

We were always together… we laughed together… cried together… played together… you see, our philosophy was that we were born together, so why should our lives be any different?… and they weren't… that is…until we were eleven… until Kaoru left… and left me…

…Alone…

"Aren't you excited?"

Hikaru broke out of his daze and looked towards his mother. "Hm?"

"I asked you if you were excited about seeing your brother."

He turned his attention back to the window. "I guess…"

She sighed as she turned into the airport parking lot. "Hikaru… this is the first time you've seen your brother in five years."

"So?"

"Hikaru, you're not still mad are you?"

He remained silent.

"We've been over this, honey. It was my decision to make Kaoru go to that school. Yes, I missed him too, but I don't regret it. It's an excellent school! And when I found out he got a scholarship – "

"And he'll end up being a doctor or a lawyer, and I'll end up pumping gas."

They drove into a parking spot.

"Sweetie, don't say that," she said. "You will not end up pumping gas."

He got out of the car. "Whatever."

As they walked into the airport terminal, Hikaru stuffed his hands into his pockets and shuffled his feet. If he could, Hikaru would vanish into thin air. He did not want to be there at all. He didn't want to see his brother, didn't want to "catch up", didn't want to smile, or laugh, or do anything they used to.

As far as he was concerned, Kaoru was dead to him.

"Flight from Tokyo no arriving," said the intercom.

"This way!" said his mother, excitedly. She tugged him to gate D and pulled him into the crowd also awaiting those coming off. She strained her neck to see over the tons of heads, while Hikaru merely found a bench and sat down. Then, taking his head phones, he put on one of his favorite songs.

Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life

People began to get anxious as a plan slowed to a halt outside the dock Hikaru watched it through the big windows, feeling nothing but apathy.

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

He closed his eyes as the vibrations of the plane's engine started to slow and finally stop. He rested his head against the wall.

Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life

He opened his eyes for a second to see a flow of people come out of the terminal. Small children, old people, couples… it made him want to gag.

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

Suddenly, his mother was shaking him on the shoulder. He took off his ear phones.

"Hikaru!" she said. "He's here!"

Hikaru stood up, and there he was. For some reason, Hikaru was suddenly speechless.

First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever

"Kaoru…" he heard himself say. He started to shake at his own voice. But his gaze never left his twin's.

And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared

Even after five years… he thought, we're still identical…

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all

As if by magic, all of his bitter feelings disappeared. All he could see was Kaoru, standing there, begging to smile.


I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

Then, without another thought, Hikaru barreled into him, clinging to his neck. Kaoru welcomed him with open arms.


And now you're gone forever

"I've missed you," said Kaoru.

"Me too…" Hikaru replied.


And now you're gone forever

What did you think of that? And if you're curious about the song, it's called "Gone Forever" by Three Days Grace (my most favorite band EVAH!)

T.