.The secret life I live.

Point of View: Bella

Lemons: No

Author's Note: This story conation's drug use. I do not own Any characters.

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"Isabella your so stubborn sometimes. Why do I even bother arguing with you!" Edward shouted over his shoulder as he walked away from me. He has known me all my life and he still acted surprised about how stubborn I was. I love my older brother but he needed to just get over it already. I was more out spoken then him. I don't back down for anyone.

"Edward get over your self already!" I yelled back laughing. "You will never win Big brother. I'm just to special"

"Special huh? Yea id say you are special. Special ed." Jasper said as he laughed watching TV from the living room.

"Shut up Jasper!" I snapped at him walking to the stairs. I hated living with boys. They needed to get girlfriends already. They both had to much time on there hands, Witch they used to bug the hell out of me, their baby sister. I mean I couldn't even go on a date with out them asking a million and one questions. They practically have guys sign a contract to go out with me, It's stupid. I'm 20 and can handle my self. It was annoying sometimes, I love them but dam I hated their way of loving me. A few minutes later I herd someone knocking on my door. I quickly put my head phones on try to ignore who ever it was. My door pushed open, I looked up annoyed. It was my cousin James. I took one ear piece out, raising my eyebrow at him, warning him not to give me any crap right now.

" What do you want James?" His upper lip curled upward into an amused smirk.

"Can't I just say hi to my favorite Little cousin." I rolled my eyes at his attempt to be cute.

"Your only a few months older then me James. I'm your only Little cousin!" I said moving over so he could sit on the bed next to me.

"Yea but your still my favorite. Look I Just came to see if you wanted to hangout with me and some friends tonight. You could Bring your secret Boyfriend." He playfully punched me. I laughed at him pushing him back.

"Who is all going?" I asked him even though I knew the answer. He always hung out with the same people.

"Well It's You and your Boyfriend, Me, Vic, and Alice with her brother Emmett, and his girlfriend Rose. I think Jared might come but im not sure." I cut him off.

"Who is Alice, Emmett, and Rose?" I asked never hearing their names before.

"Some people I meet at a club awhile back. There cool. I think you'll like them." James was laying down on my bed looking up at me, Waiting for my answer.

"Fine, Let me ask Tyler what he is doing tonight? Wait what are we doing?" I was really only going to go to see Tyler. I missed him, We don't really get to see each other very much. He is always busy with work and school.

"Were going to the Over Drive, That new club that opened on 4th and Milliken." He sat up looking at me like he wanted to say something.

"Say it James! Whatever it is just say it!" I knew him to well, I could read him like a book, He was the same way with me.

"It's just, Look I only meet Tyler that one time but he seems kind of, well um not your type." I was surprise he brought it up cause he usually kept his thoughts to him self.

"I don't really have a type. But what makes you say that?" I asked curiously Because to me Tyler was great. He was someone I thought my family would like.

"Well your just not really your self around him. Your not as hyped and excited. Your too calm, Like you hold back around him." I couldn't help to laugh at him..

"James. That was just cause I was nerves for you to meet him. I really like him. I'm planning on introducing him to my brothers soon. I think they are really going to like him.."

"yea don't hold your breath kiddo." He said rubbing the top of my head messing up my hair. "be ready by 8. I'll pick you up." He walked out the room. I fixed my hair and reached for my phone. I texted Tyler.

[Hey Ty, wanna go out with me and my cousin tonight?] I waited for his response. He always took forever to write back. So I went down stairs and started dinner. The guys try cooking but they just don't get it, It's sad really. They burn cereal. Don't ask how!

[sorry babe I gotta big paper due. But you have fun] Tyler was so dedicated to his school work. I knew when Jasper and Edward meet him they would like him. He had a good head on his shoulders. Tyler was the first guy I was bring home that I was sure of. I knew they would get along with him because they always say they want me to be with someone who had a "life Plan" I know they are weird but they worried about my future more then I did.

[ That's ok, Good luck with your paper. Maybe we can hang out tomorrow?]

"So your going out with James and Victoria tonight?" Jasper asked leaning his elbows on the counter top, in the kitchen. I looked up from my phone.

"Yea I am. why?" Avoiding eye contact with him.

"No reason just making small talk. Were you guys going?" Small talk my ass. I knew what he was doing. He always did this, this was his way of trying to gather information from me. It's nice to have a protective family but it sucked to have over protective brothers who would make me carry mace with me every where I went.

"Just going to some club to dance. Don't worry James will keep an eye on me." I looked up at him to read his expression. He was smiling.

"I know he will. I'm not worried about that." I was still looking at him trying to figure out what he was up too. Jasper continued watching me cook, I just ignored him. After Dinner was done and we ate I went to get ready. It was a bit cold outside so I wore my black leggings with my boots, with a tight crème shirt that hugged all my curves of my body. I loved how it looked on me. I loved going out with James, He was protective but he was only protective when I needed it. Other then that we would have a great time parting together. James was kind of like my best friend. He knew everything about me. He was the only person I trusted with all my secrets mostly because I knew all of his.

"Isabella! Lets go Vic Is waiting for us already!" I herd James shouting from down stairs. I grabbed my purse and checked myself in the mirror one last time before running down the stairs.

"Ok I'm ready!" I was already walking out the door but Edward stopped me.

"So when will you be home? And were exactly are you guys going?" I let out a sigh and looked at James for help.

"Im going to crash here tonight We should be home around 2:30. And it's a club over on 4th and Milliken. Were late so call us if you need anything" He walked out the door in a rush, I followed behind him. The Guys don't give me as hard of a time when I'm with James, they trusted him. I mean he is family after all.

"So where are we meeting your guy at?" James asked as soon as I shut my door.

"Were not, He has homework" I looked at my phone checking for a new message. I already knew when he was doing homework he didn't let anyone bug him but I thought he would have at least answered my question about tomorrow.

"Oh that sucks. What a nerd. "James said as he pulled away from the house and speed of to the club. About half way there he reached into the glove box of his car and pulled out a tiny bag. "Wanna take a skittle now?" I smirked at him.

"Hell yea what kind are they?" I took the bag of ecstasy from his hand. I pulled one out looking at the tiny pill in my hand. I only did this with James and we only did it on special occasions. "So what are we celebrating cuz?"

"It's Emmett's Birthday. You'll meet him there. He is a chill ass guy. I think you'll like him. His sister Alice, She is just as crazy as you. So tonight should be a fun night." I popped the pill in my mouth and swallowed it with some water that James handed me. The rest of the way we listened to music. When we finally got in the club We went up to the V.I.P section. Were I saw Jared with Emily. There was also a short Girl with a short dress on standing next to a tall blonde girl who was looking around like she was lost. The short girl was so tiny she almost looked like a pixy fairy. She was dancing around with a drink in her hand, She looked like a fun person.

"Isabella! You came!" Jared ran over to me and gave me a choking hug. He was oversized. I mean he over toward me by a good foot or two.

"Were really going to party tonight now that your here" I laughed at him he was clearly already rolling. Emily came over dancing and singing along with the words of whatever song was playing, opening her arm for a hug. James motioned for me to come over to him. There was a guy standing next to him. He was Tall but not over towering like Jared. He was wearing dark slacks with a nice dark button up shirt rolled to his sleeves. His arm muscles were showing throw his shirt. You could tell just by looking at him that he worked out. He had the cutest Dimples, that brought attention to his eyes. They were a light brown, Almost golden. His hair was black and cut short.

"Earth to Bella!" James was waving his hand in my face, laughing. I shock my head.

"What?" I said looking away from Emmett. I didn't even relies I had already made my way over to them.

"This is Emmett, It's his birthday" James shouted over the music.

"Hi Emmett. I'm Isabella. Happy birthday" He laughed and shook my hand. He introduced me to his Girlfriend Rosalie and sister Alice. I was starting to feel my Pill so I went to get some water then meet everyone out one the dance floor. I was having a great time. Alice was really fun. She could really dance, we were having fun trying to out do each others dance moves. The only one who seemed kind of out of place was Emmett's girlfriend Rosalie. She didn't really dance, she watched Emmett like a hawk though. I dances a few songs with Jared but I ended up getting really hot, I needed some air.

"I'll be right back!" I yelled to James. He just Nodded his head. I walked away going out to the smokers area. I leaned against the wall outside, feeling my heart pound in my chest to the beat of the song. No one was out side, I enjoyed the view up here. I took my phone out to check my calls, there was a missed call from Tyler but I couldn't call him when I was like this. I wasn't sure what he would think so I put my phone away. A song came on that I really liked. I wasn't sure if it was the pill or just that I was having fun, But I started to dance outside by my self.

"You're a good dancer! You got some hot moves!" I jumped at the sounded of a deep husky voice. I turned around Emmett was standing there with a wide grin.

"Yea your pretty good yourself but I could make you better." I winked at him being serious. I loved dancing it was my passion.

"Oh I don't know about that, I'm the best, no one can drop it like I can" I started to laugh at Emmett. He handed me his drink.

"What are you doing out here?" He asked walking over to the railing were I stood.

"I needed some air. It's hot in there" I said pointing behind him to the club.

"Yeah it is." Emmett looked at me from the corner of his eye. "So were is your boyfriend? I though James said you were bring one." Why dose it matter to him. I don't even know him, I wondered to myself. I looked over at Emmett.

"He had some paper due, so he stayed home to work on it." I watched Emmett's face pull into confusion.

"Well he must need the extra study time, he can't be that smart, I mean after all I would never let my sexy ass girl friend go to a club, pop a pill with out me. Maybe he should study harder. Ask him if he needs a tutor in keeping your girl 101" He winked at me before walking back inside. My heart was beating fast. What a cocky asshole, Who is he to judge Tyler, He doesn't even know him or me for that matter. Tyler was a good boyfriend we just needed to spend more time together. I don't know how long I was out there thinking about what Emmett said, For some reason it bugged me.

"Are you ok Bella? James is looking for you." Emily's voice broke my train of thought.

"yeah I just needed some air, were is he?" I asked getting up, Emily lead the way back to the V.I.P section.

I saw James and went up to him, he looked stressed out.

"Whats up cuzo?" I laughed and took his drink finishing it.

"Were the hell did you go?" He sounded nerves now.

"Just outside why?" He was looking at me intently.

"Are you still rolling?" His reaction was scaring me.

"Yeah why?" I asked looking at him wide eyed.

"Ok don't panicky I got you ok but" This isn't good, I started to breath harder then I needed to. "Jasper and Edward are here. They went to go get drinks."

"oh shit!" I yelled at him looking around for them. "What the fuck are they doing here" I said smacking his arm really panicking now.

"I don't know they just walked in. it's ok though just go with Alice and Emmett to dance. Don't worry about anything else, I'll take care of it" Oh yea that was easy for him to say. If they found out I was Rolling I would be dead, They would kill us both.

"Come on Bella." Alice took my hand and lead me to the dance floor. I looked around looking for Jasper and Edward, Emmett was already there dancing with Emily and Victoria.

"Who you looking for?" Emmett asked dancing in front of me now.

"My brothers are here." I said in his ear, he smiled at me.

"oh don't worry about that cutie we got you" He just called me cute didn't he? I felt like a little girl right now. I couldn't move he was fucking hot. But then Alice completely distracted me, I some how got lost in the moment forgetting about my brothers.

"Hey were is your girlfriend?" I asked Emmett as the song ended and the new one began.

"She is a lame ass, She wasn't feeling good or so she say's" He said rolling his eyes.

"I should give her how to keep your man 101." I said to him in a mocking tone and a sexy smirk, He nodded his head and laughed moving closer to me so we could dance. The two of us ended up sticking by each other the whole night, I loved how he danced, He wasn't as perverted like most guys were.. I didn't even see Jazz or Ed once the whole night. When the club started to close James came over to me.

"Hey Were having an after party at your house. Here take this." He handed me another pill. I fiercely shook my head.

"Are you fucking crazy?" I looked at him dumb founded. Emmett was next to him laugh nodding yes to my question. I rolled my eyes

"Don't worry their trashed. Listen Edward took one, Your good he wont be able to tell your n anything. Jasper is just really drunk thanks to Alice, Your good Cousin, You trust me right?" I took the pill out of his hand looking at it thinking about it.

"Come on it's my birthday lets party! You know you want to I can see it in your eyes. Do it as a birthday gift to me!" Emmett said standing next to James. So I took the pill. James handed me water laughing. I looked at James.

"Wait Edward did what? I asked just no processing what James had said.

"Just go with it Lil mama!" Emmett said as we walked out of the club. Jasper was drunk talking to Alice.

"I think they like each other." I said to Emmett, He was watching them leaning against James car. "He needs a girlfriend" I said looking over at them, we both laughed. "who is driving James?" I with a shiver waiting to get in the car.

"Emily." James said unlocking the door. Emmett ,James ,Emily ,And ,I got in one car. Then Jared, Edward, got into Jared's car And Alice drove Jasper and Victoria. The car was loud and I was in the back with Emmett. I couldn't sit still in my seat. I was dancing around, talking about different things all at once. I was really hyped up. James was looking back at me then to Emmett he said.

"Didn't I tell you my cousin was crazy?" They both laughed looking over at me I didn't care I was on a good ass roll.

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