He is gone, and he is never coming back. I drive people away all the time. How do I do it? I'm not happy and loud like the one that left, I'm not calm like my brother, I'm not sweet like Tino, nor am I as scary looking as Berwald. What drove him away? What did I do? Whatever I did he isn't ever coming back, and I will forever have to live with it.
I sigh as I stare out the window. It was snowing. Not uncommon in Norway. But something was different this time. There are foots steps in the snow, His, food steps. Why did he leave? I will forever ponder as I hold the pink bunny close. He said that he loved me. Did he ever at all? Or did he use my emotions? He didn't seem like that kind of person, nor was he. All he left me with was my bunny, a necklace he got done for me, and all the memories. The memories swirled in my head. They were even teasing me. My eyes grew soulless as I stared out at his footsteps. His face was what I could remember, his name was not important, but his face was. He had a smile that could light up a whole city block, the hair that could make anyone want to touch it.
My brother put his hand on my shoulder and said "Nor, It's not healthy to be sitting here like this." I just looked over my shoulder and blinked. He seemed puzzled and confused. Was I missing the point? I just sighed and stood up. My heart sank as I stood up. I didn't want to leave the place where there was evidence of his existence.
It was that evening that I sat with Berwald, Tino, and my brother that I thought "I was just as good as a traveler he was. I was an even better tracker. Maybe…" Then when my brother stalled my thoughts and asked "So, how's it been going." I lied through my teeth saying that everything was fine. Berwald could see through my woos, Finland, not as much but none of the less Berwald saw it.
Later after cleaning up Berwald tapped my shoulder until I turned around. Tino was standing with him with a little smile, that no one could get rid of and said "Sve says something about Mathias is still bugging you." I nod at them and Tino continued on "What's bothering you?" I just sighed and said "Fin, He's gone, and he isn't going to come back on his own." Tino seemed a bit curious "What do you mean?" I responded "I mean I'm going to find him, and bring him back." Tino looked at Berwald with a worried look, but Berwald just nodded.
Tino and Berwald agreed to stay out of my way to find Mathias. There was one person I still had to get through to go find the one I care about.
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