Disclaimer - I don't own anything mentioned that is directly from the Sons of Anarchy world such as characters or places. I do however own anyone you don't recognise.
Summary - Ambivalence: The coexistence of opposing attitudes or feelings, such as love and hate, towards a person, object or idea. "You do realise you don't scare me right?" "That's because I don't try." She was a sarcastic teenager who probably should have stayed off limits and he was a rough biker who probably shouldn't have let his curiosity get the better of him.
A/N - Just an idea I've had. Started writing and decided to see what people thought :) So be sure to let me know.
"Lena! I swear if you don't hurry up you're going to be left behind." Ally yelled at her younger sister from the front door. Today was moving day. Swapping the fast paced city of Los Angeles for the laid back small town of Charming. Lena was okay with it, change was like second nature to her. Lena O'Mally welcomed change like an old friend. If only she would be as welcoming towards an alarm clock.
"You know for a chick that claims to love her big city livin' life, she sure is fuckin' slow." TJ complained as he made his way back into the house to hurry up his soon to be sister-in-law. TJ Jamieson prides himself on many things. Being the first in a long line of screw ups to actually finish high school to then go on and continue in his father's footsteps as a member of the Sons of Anarchy motorcycle club, the fact that when he was 16 he won the record at the spring carnival for most hotdogs eaten in a 5 minute period, which to date 10 years on is still yet to be beaten, and the fact that he is well known amongst those who know him well that he is never late. Although if the 5 foot nothing feisty brunette keeps going how she is, she will be sure to single handily ruin that reputation.
"Oh would you lot relax. There's plenty of time to make it." Lena reasoned with the freshly engaged couple as she emerged from her old bedroom.
"You woke up 20 minutes ago and haven't even eaten anything. We will have to stop on the way so you can grab some breakfast, then you're sure to get lost at some point and separate from us and that's even more added in time." Ally huffed out as she fussed over her younger sister. Alyson O'Mally was one of the most relaxed people that Lena has had the pleasure of knowing in her 17 years. That however, quickly changes if you put her plans out of whack in anyway. Whereas Lena was the chilled out, go with the flow kinda girl no matter what, her 24 year old sister was cool, calm and collected to no end until one of her perfectly perfect plans don't work out how she wanted it to. You see, if you were running 15 minutes late to meeting the youngest sister for coffee you could guarantee there would be no dramas. You could also guarantee she would be even later than you. Whereas, if you were any more than 5 minutes late to meeting Alyson, you'd better have 10 reason listing why you were late, one hell of an apology and be prepared to suffer the silent treatment until she see it no longer necessary. After knowing her sister her whole life however, these rules tend to be stretched a little for her and her inclusively. If Ally wanted Lena home by 6pm for anything of importance, she knew to tell her 5:30 just in case. For this reason and this reason alone, Alyson was kicking herself for not telling Lena they were leaving earlier than they actually were.
"Relax hun, she won't get lost. She's 2 months off 18. Her brain has to have grown in by now." TJ reassured his stressed out girl.
"That's not all that has grown in."
"Fuck off you perv!" Lena yelled as she flung the water bottle in her hand at Kozik. Herman Kozik. Beautiful, sarcastic, pervy and full of trouble.
"And don't you think i'm not counting down those 2 months baby girl." Kozik told Lena, sending her a wink as well.
"Please Koz, not my baby sister." Ally told him as she ushered everyone out the door. With a laugh at her sister and a shove towards Kozik Lena headed for her car.
"Besides blondey, as pretty as you are to look at, bikers not my type."
"Yeah alright babe." He told her with a wink and a nod of his head in the direction of the line of bikes parked. There stood the man who has the pleasure of being Lena's first crush, although he'd never know. High school girls weren't his thing and being a fake blonde imbecile for the sake of gaining a boys attention wasn't Lena's thing. Happy Lowman was no boy though. At the age of 25 and definitely out of Lena's reach, he only seemed to get better with age. With a flick of his cigarette and a stomp of his biker boots to put it out he grunted "Ready?" A man of few words he was. As hot as he was, he was no talker and Lena was most certainly a talker. It's been a few years though since she first laid eyes on him and 14 year old Lena may have written in her diary that she was in love but nearly 18 year old Lena was over the childhood crush. Unless he instigated it. Then Lena felt she owed her younger self the opportunity to whatever Happy wanted and would be more than willing to participate. Until then however, she can admire from afar.
"Yeah sorry Hap, you know these girls." TJ apologised to Happy. Happy did know the O'mally girls. About as long as TJ had. He knew that Ally would have spent the whole morning stressing about Lena running late, just like he knew Lena would have been late. He also knew that if they took any longer to leave, Gemma the reigning and terrifying queen of Samcro, would skin them all alive for being late to the engagement party she was throwing Ally and TJ. It was also doubling as an official welcome to charming party for the sisters.
"All good brother. We should kick off though." With a nod to the girls and a slap on the back to Kozik, the boys got on their bikes and the girls hopped into their cars, which were filled to the brim with the last of the things needed from their old apartment.
"I'll take the front, with Ally driving behind me and Lena behind her if you two will ride behind her." TJ told the men. Within seconds the bikes roared to life and the cars started. They weren't the flashiest cars, they were old and faithful, but got the job done. As Happy followed Lena out of the carpark and watched her hesitate for a slight second, he waited and let her do what she had to do. Lena needed this moment, to glance back at her old life before never looking back again. As quick as she had stopped, she had tailed it out of the carpark after her sister. Happy doubted Kozik even noticed the way her eyes watched the old apartment building through her mirror until it was no longer in view. Yeah Happy knew the O'mally girls, knew them quite well.
Lena O'mally was known as many things throughout her years. Most dominantly though, people identified with her as Ally O'mallys younger sister. Lena was okay with this, for the simple fact that Ally was a great person to be compared to. Ally was beautiful, kind, knew the right things to say, incredibly smart and hard working. Who wouldn't want to be known as possibly being in the same league as that? Plus it gave her a sick satisfaction when people were let down to realise Lena wasn't anything like Allys good qualities. Although she was smart, she was too a smart ass. Lena could be hard working, if she felt motivated enough. And she too was beautiful, in the slightly over shadowed by her better looking sister kind of way. Where in Ally had beautiful long legs and the prettiest eyes many men have lost themselves in, Lena was cursed with her mothers petite stature, barely reaching 5 foot to her sisters 5 foot 9. Although Lena viewed her height as a curse, Ally considered her lucky to be able to wear any size heel and not worry that she would tower over anyone.
Maybe that's why Alyson O'mally has chosen to settle down with the living giant himself, TJ. But if Lena were being truthful, the minute TJ had laid his eyes on Ally he was a goner. That beautiful smile, that both the sisters shared, those sparkly brown eyes, which too did belong to both sisters, and that angelic laugh all contributed to TJ promising himself he would get to know this girl. However, although it was her beauty in which attracted him to her, it was her kindness and sense of humour that made him fall in love with her. It was her homemade Lasagne that made him propose the first time, on only their second date, before she told him to ask her again in a few years. So after 3 years they got engaged and decided that one of them should move closer to the other. That one being Ally, bringing in tow her younger sister.
Although Lena was certain if Ally had of asked TJ to move to LA he would have worked something out, Lena was glad for the change of scenery. The engagement couldn't have come at a better time, Lena and her high school boyfriend had just broken up. She wasn't as upset about it as she probably should have been and she definitely wasn't as upset as he was, given that within the last 3 days he had sent her 72 text messages which she was positive contained cheesy song lyrics. Lena wasn't exactly sure what she ever seen in Drew. It was probably the good looks. He was a bit on the dumb side but he was also a nice guy. However, if she had of ever anticipated his reaction to the breakup, which did involve many tears on his end, she may have never even looked twice at him. She was just glad to be getting a new start. She was also glad for the 5 hour trip in which she could stare at the hot biker following her in her rear view mirror. As they finally headed out of Los Angeles, she took one last look at the city she called home for majority of her life and silently said goodbye. She may be back one day, not anytime soon though because for now it was time to focus on her future in charming and what that might bring.