Oh my gosh! It's been a while since I wrote anything so my writing skills are a bit rusty. Haha anyways I'm going to be posting a new chapter each Saturday for this story. But I would still love for you guys to send me some story ideas or request. You can send it to my gmail, tweet it to me, ask me it on or send it to me threw tumblr. The links are in my bio. So anyways back to the story, this first one is how my boyfriend and I broke up. Basically it's everything I'm feeling right now. So here's the first chapter. Enjoy
I Stay In Love - Mariah Carey
He should be happy. I mean, they're still friends and plus, he's the one that wanted to break up. It's been three months and James is still madly in love with Kendall Knight. He shouldn't be and he's so pissed off at himself for it. All James does is think about the memories him and Kendall created as a couple. He thinks about the first day they dated all the way to their break up.
Flashback
James didn't know what had happened. He and Kendall were doing just fine, but then the blonde started to ignore him. At first James thought the older boy was in a bad mood but that wasn't the case.
It was Friday after school; James was leaving his sixth hour class walking with his friend Dak to the gym to go to basketball practice. Out of habit, James looked behind him to see Kendall running towards him, or so he thought. The blonde ran right past him and started walking with the school's slut, Lucy Stone. That's when James lost it. The pretty boy stormed right between the two, ignoring the dirty look Lucy sent his way. James was speed walking to the gym, when his best friend Carlos saw the upset look and dashed over to him.
"James what's wrong?" The small Latino asked, puppy dogs eyes wide with concern.
"He fucking ignored me all week then ran past me to walk with that slut? I'm down with his shit Carlos! I'm just fucking done!" The pretty boy snapped. He didn't mean to yell at Carlos like that but he was pissed. Carlos' eyes widen, he knew exactly what James was talking about.
"Ok, James, just calm down. Come on, let's just go to practice and calm down." Carlos said but James just ignored him, screaming how he was done and walking back and forth. Carlos saw how James wasn't going to calm down anytime soon so he said bye to Kelly, grabbed James and began walking to the gym for practice. For the entire basketball practice James didn't talk to anyone.
It was after practice where James and Carlos were walking home, in complete silence. That is until Carlos spoke up.
"You ok, Jay?" He asked and James just shrugged his shoulders.
"I'm breaking up with him." James said voice nearly cracking. The small teen next to him just looked with sad eyes.
"I think it's the best thing to do." James nodded at Carlos' words. "But text me what happens. I'm here for you, always." Carlos said as he and James came to the point where they split off into separate directions. James, again, nodded at Carlos and continued to walk in silence, thinking about Kendall. He really didn't want to break up with the blonde, but he knew it was for the best.
As soon as James got home he threw his basketball stuff in random directions of his room. He changed into a pair of sweats and Kendall's hoodie, which was probably a bad idea. The pretty boy flopped down on his bed and plugged his phone to his charger, sending a text to Kendall.
To: Kendall
From: James
So what's your problem?
James waited impatiently for the blonde boy's reply. He hadn't notice how quite his house was until now. James couldn't sit still so he got up and left his room and started pacing around his house. He came back five minutes later and Kendall still hasn't replied back. James felt his heart drop and tears began swelling in his eyes, just as he received a new text.
To: James
From: Kendall
What do you mean?
To: Kendall
From: James
Really Kendall? You still ignored me. And not to mention you ran right past me for Lucy! Freaking Lucy! And I saw how you where about to kiss her too!
To: James
From: Kendall
I was not.
To: Kendall
From: James
Whatever, maybe I'm jumping to conclusions but I feel like you don't like me anymore and if you don't just tell me.
To: James
From: Kendall
Look, we have to break up. It's just awkward now and idk what else to do.
James felt whole body go numb and the tears started falling down his face. He sent one last text to Kendall before throwing his phone at his door and crying himself to sleep.
To: Kendall
From: James
Right, so much for us lasting.
End of Flashback
That was three months ago and in all honesty James should be over Kendall. He still shouldn't have feelings for the older boy. And he hates himself for that. He hates himself for not having the guts to tell Kendall how he really feels. He hates how Kendall doesn't even know how he makes him feel. But most importantly, James hates how he immediately broke up with the blonde without trying to fix things between them.
James knows he shouldn't even be complaining because he and Kendall are great friends. They joke around with each other, sometimes text. Even if James wanted to tell Kendall how he really feels it would be too late. Kendall is in a happy relationship with Jo Taylor.
"Hey James." The pretty boy looks up from his math book to see Kendall walking into the class, giving him a dashing smile before sitting down. James gives a small smile and wave before finishing up his bell work.
The class went by as usual, the students joking around, the teacher getting mad and you know, the usual. The teacher was so fed up with her class that she gave them the last five minutes to do their homework and if they made any sound detention for them. Instead of using the extra time, James pulled out a piece of paper writing a note.
Kendall,
I'm sorry for still having feelings for you, knowing you don't feel the same anymore. I've honestly tried to forget you. I've honestly tried to let you go. I've honestly tried to not think of you, but I honestly can't because I honestly don't want to. I stay in love with you.
-James Diamond
Welp. That's it. I was going to add more but I like how I ended it. Sorry that's it sad. Haha. Anyways, the flash back part is really how my boyfriend and I broke up. I was so pissed because he ignored me all week and I talked to him about it but he said he didn't talk to me because I didn't talk to him. Bull shit. But yeah, and I'm a dumb idiot because I'm madly in love with him. Like you have no idea. Anyways…I'll be posting next Saturday. Until then please review and send me some ideas for some stories. I love you all, kay bye!
~Kaylah : )