Disclaimer: I don't own The Outsiders.

Johnny's P.O.V.

I don't know what is going to happen.

Well, I mean to Pony and everyone else. I know, because of my injuries, I am going to die. I hate to admit defeat but I have to. I have been getting more and more tried every day.

I don't know why I am scared. I have thought about suicide many times before but I decided against it. I wanted to get away from my parents, their beating me and abuse. I even ran away. I didn't mind leaving them in the dark. I never want to see them again.

I got my wish. I am going to die. I hate the fact but it is true. I don't want to die though. Not anymore. I don't want to leave.

I would have been long gone though. I really would if it wasn't for Pony and Darry and Dally and Soda and Steve and Two-Bit. I love them like my family. Hell, they ARE my family. My mom and dad don't even look at me if they aren't blowing steam off on me.

But I think what I did was worth my life. I saved a few kids and was made a hero so if being a hero takes your life at least one life is saved. I guess, since I saved those brats, I will be able to hang around this area before finally moving on.

I know Pony and Dally will be crushed though. They're the ones who were closest to me. Dally saved my life, well, kind of. And Pony, good old Pony, he'll be, well, I don't know.

I have to write a letter though. I have to.

I hate leaving them. Dally was crushed. Robbed a store and died the same night as me. Well, killed.

Yeah, I'm dead. But Pony and everyone else will move on.

When Pony was in the hospital, I watched over him every day. I watched him sleeping. I knew he was going to live. I just wish I could reach out to help him and everyone.

I think I did though. Darry and Pony got along a lot better. I guess Soda helped on that one. The fighting really slowed. But I think that Dally should have stopped before he died.

But my last thing that helped Pony, my best friend, was the letter in my, our, book of Gone with the Wind. I wish that Dally had been around. I was with Pony that whole time, though, while he read it.

And every word was true.

Everyone should stay gold.