Yes, yes, I know, Digimon doesn't belong to me. It belongs to its creators, and that Saban thing, who can't sue me because I mentioned that it's not mine. I also know that I'll probably get flamed by all those Gomamon and/or Joe lovers for writing something which doesn't conform to their EXCAT idea of how those two should act. Well, they don't have to read this. However, I would like it if somebody bothered to read and review this, since it's my first attempt at a poem based on Digimon, and I'd like to know what people think of it.

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Just leave me alone, Palmon, I don't want to talk about it.

I think I'll go down to the lake tonight. Don't wait up for me.

I just want to take a swim. The water feels so nice...

I wish it could take away the pain of losing you...

I'm sorry, Joe!

I'm sorry I couldn't protect you this time!

Why did you have to leave me alone?

What was it that Izzy called it?

All I can remember are the words 'illness' and 'incurable'.

And all the kids seemed to understand even though I had no idea what you meant.

I know Kari was crying... and Tai was holding her...

He said something like, "No, not again..."

What did he mean by that?

I had no idea what the words meant.

I only knew that you were sick, and that was all that mattered.

I stayed there with you

Until the others forced me to leave, saying there was nothing I could do.

But how can that be?

What kind of danger could threaten you that I couldn't protect you from?

And each day you got worse.

You looked like you were getting smaller and smaller,

Like you were wasting away...

I didn't understand. I still don't.

All I know is, one day I tried to visit you

But you weren't there anymore...

I did get to see you one more time

When they laid you in that strange box

And everyone was gathered around you, crying.

I asked Matt why you were just sleeping there

And he started to cry. I'd never seen Matt cry before, I think.

Then your brother took me aside

And he said that you'd never wake up...

I don't understand any of this!

Why did this have to happen?

Why did you have to leave?

I thought we were supposed to be together forever...

I'm finally in the water now. It feels so good to let it flow around me.

I wish it could wash away this tightness in my heart.

I can't get away from the pain.

I keep seeing your face, your smile...

Then I see you again, a pale shadow under the covers.

Will you tell me if you can ever get rid of that sort of sight?

I don't want to remember you like that.

I want to remember only the good things, like when you were happy.

I want to picture you laughing, not crying.

And never as being...

I'm so sorry, Joe!

I teased you and said bad things at times

But I never thought you would leave!

I thought we would always be friends, never letting the other be alone

Or be hurt...

My entire body hurts. I'm in pain.

Is this what you felt like, Joe?

The water feels so cool, so nice.

Why can't it take away the pain?

I wish I could stay down here forever. I wish I could show you how beautiful the water is right now...

I wish that you could be here, with me, forever and ever

Just like I always thought it would be...

But I can't stay here. Not forever.

I have to get back to the others now.

If I don't come back, the others will be sad.

And I don't want them to cry like that again.

Not ever again.

But... Joe... wait for me.

I want to see you again someday.

I can't let this be the end of everything.

I want to be able to tell you these things myself

If we are ever able to see each other again.

Until then... I guess I should say goodbye.

So why can't I say it?