A/N: Takes place after and during the hospital scene in Half-Blood Prince. I wrote the story twice from both Remus's POV and Tonks' POV, so I give you both.
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Tonks's POV
I watched in absolute envy. It wasn't fair. But I daren't interrupt, so all I do is stand in utter envy.
"You thought I would not weesh to marry him?" Fleur yelled, "Or perhaps you hoped? What do I care…"
I didn't catch the rest. I was to busy thinking of what to do. I could just run from the room, but that would just be too easy. Not to mention it probably wouldn't solve a single bloody thing. Or I could take the situation to my advantage. I felt myself getting angry. Angry at Fleur for having what I want. Angry at Remus for being an idiot. Angry at Greyback for causing this whole dilemma. Just so angry.
All of a sudden, I didn't care that everyone was watching.
"You see!" I said straining every syllable, glaring up at Remus. Stupid, Stupid Remus.
"She still wants to marry him even though he's been bitten! She doesn't care!"
"It's different," He mumbled so quietly it was barely audible, and averting his gaze from mine "Bill will not be a full werewolf, the cases are completely-"
STOP BEING AN IDIOT!!!! I seized the front of his robes, and shook as hard as I could, "But I don't care either, I don't care! I've told you a million times…"
"And I've told you a million times," Remus said, still avoiding my gaze, "that I am too old for you, too poor……to dangerous…"
Molly, Arthur, and Minerva all came to my aid, but it didn't matter anymore. I'm just going to have to live the rest of my life in misery. It's not exactly what I had planned but it will have to do.
After Harry and McGonagall left, no one said anything, though all knew they were staring at one thing. Me. The tension in the room rose to an abnormal level. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes, so I dare not blink in fear of them all spilling out. I let in a large breath, and held it. I shut my mouth so hard my lips turned white. I could feel my self slipping. If I didn't leave now I'd have a nervous breakdown (heck, I'd still have a nervous breakdown, just no in front of everybody).
I turned on my heel as swiftly as I could and began to sprint from the room, a arm over my eyes to hide the tears.
I ran, and ran, and ran, up staircase after staircase, hall after hall. I just ran. Until I reached the tallest tower in the magnificent castle, the astronomy tower. A three foot railing surrounded the floor which did not have a real wall.
Without thinking I slowly walked over to the barrier. I took one leg and put it over the railing and stood on the other side, my foot only about four inches on the floor, the rest hanging over the edge. My hands gripped the top pole harder. I repeated my move with the other leg. Now the only thing that was holding me up were my hands gripping the pole.
The wind pushed me back telling me not to do it. I relaxed and fell forward. My body was at a forty five degree angle, my arms straight, still holding me up. I closed my eyes. My hair whipped around my face. Over two-hundred feet above the ground, just barely hanging on, and all my worries seem to float away.
The wind blew harder, trying to push me back. But I wasn't going to take orders from anyone. Hadn't the world ruined my life enough already? I should at least have the chance to leave if I want to.
I took a breath, and began to loosen my fingers. I was hardly hanging on with the last joint in my fingers.
I love you Remus.
And I let go.
Then a door opened, a voice yelled my name, and a hand tried desperately to grab mine. But I fell right through.
He followed me.
But why?
Not like it matters any more.
It's all over, and I still love you.
The wind whipped around me as I fell. When I hit the ground there was only a seconds worth of pain, and then……………….
Nothing.
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A/N: Do you like? Chapter two will be from Remus's point of view. Should she live or should she die. I need your help people. Please review
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