Is this what it was like for my father when he died growing old finally feeling ashame at what he became ? I'm that way now too will I end up like him in years to come what will my end be like ? Will I mindmeld with someone else again like I did with McCoy or will I passed on like my father did ? Vulcan dignity is worse then human dignity when you know it you don't admit it you lie .In most respect Vulcans and humans much more alike then we admit aging should not be one of guilt or feeling ashame that you growing older ,no matter what age I been I could say honestly my life was fullfilled and as humans say with no regret or sorrows except one I was never there when my father needed me at his side a son or daughter should be there for their mother or father and vice versa families are what make the universe stronger not individual as I discovered .
But now it is my turn I still have a few more years to go it seem but at least I'll be more ready then my father was or more prepared at least death is part of the universe when one passes their lives should be as remembering how they gave joy to others happiness as well but the most important thing logic and prosperity to this universe of ours my time is growing shorter now and each day I tend to live it like another I knew in my life , a great man as well as a friend , Captain James T. Kirk , soon I will be gone but not forgotten .
My own legacy shall live on through my family and friends and this I'd leave a message , live your life logically only the best you know how that is all any of us can do be it Vulcan or Human as long as you tried your best in life and never gave up at what you did then your life was worthwhile mine was I knew that now .
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