I'm not everything…
You know it sucks being the girl who is just dating the pop star… People always think I'm in it for the fame or then money or even the stuff… I'm not… I'm in it for the guy. He's sweet, funny, Adorable, smart, handsome, even great with little kids like my cousins…That was a train wreck just waiting to happen. Shane Grey was the perfect guy… Well at least to me. I'm Mitchie Torres.
But what am I to him? Almost everything I guess… One day it's the overly dramatic Shane who can't find his whatever… then next it's just the wallow in self-pity cause he was thinking about how he yelled at me at Camp Rock… or it's the on a sugar high hand is worse the Jason…. It's the one thing I hate. I've got to meet up to his standards those days…
I'm not everything. It's rather hard to be everything but still be me. I've been thinking lately that maybe he isn't mister perfect… Maybe he's only half of him… Maybe I should try moving on? I'm just not sure anymore to tell you… It's always "MITCHIE!!!" or "Hey Babe!" or "Check this out!" It's no longer just being by myself anymore… he's over twenty-four seven when he's not touring… when he is he calls at least twenty times. While I'm in school.
That's it I'm going to do this… We so need a break for like a month or less but I've gotta have me time not 'Smitchie' time just me time… Oh god I don't know what to do… I'm worried… Ack I'm like sweating out bullets here… "Hey babe!" Now he notices I'm here… wonderful.. "Hey…" I say smiling one of those big cheesy grins that says guess what I've got some bad-ish news for us… "What's up?" Shane asked me noticing I was really tense and really jittery… "We need to talk… About us…" I said looking any were but him. "I know…" he sadly smiles looking any where but me which is weird… it's like he knows were going to take a break… It's weird… "We need a break.. I haven't had any time to myself at all for the past two months…" I said looking down at Shane's shoes… "I know… Your sick of me being so out of control. I've seen your face when I do those things… I just don't want them to be true I guess…" he said still sadly smiling. "Ugh god stop that!" It was pressure on me to see that sad smile. "What?" Great now I just sounded like an idiot… "Stop that sad smile it's making me feel guilty. I hate the feeling of guilt." He just gave me an even more of a sad look. "Guilt bringer!" I cried out smiling. "Sorry babe it's just something I do…" Shane said smiling a happier smile. "So back to our br..break.. Maybe like a month?" I said feeling guilty again. "I guess… I love you.. More then anything in the world." Shane said looking down. " I love you just as much." I said pulling him to me well trying to at least'… "I promise not to be to into someone else." I said giving a cheesy grin that just screamed I was joking. "You better not." Shane said smiling he kissed me softly before pushing my hips away from him. "Go. I need to go wallow in my pity for a bit… And not over Camp ro… Never mind I'll be wallowing in that pity as well…"
"Don't wallow to much." I leaned over and kissed him one last time before heading home. I was feeling pretty guilty and wanting to wallow in my on pity… The days of my life just got even weirder… Well that was what I thought… "MITCHIE!" Our loveable airhead yelled. "Hey Jase.. What's up?" I glanced over at Nate noticing he was a little nervous over something. "Nate's flipping out cause he thinks Caitlyn doesn't li-" "Not here dude!!!" Nate had slapped his hand over Jason's mouth covering it. "She does like you she's worried about you though… She's been pretty much worried that your going to hate her and stuff…" I said quickly. "OhShoot! Nate Go talk to Caitlyn she's worried and that's bad… Jase stay here." I said quickly pushing Nate towards the door. "Be calm and don't get pissed… She'll start crying…" I added as I pushed him towards his car. "Uhh.. Okay?" I pretty much pushed him away from my house to… That's sad.. Poor Caity is going to be so pissed at me… "Why Did you want me to stay here?" Jason asked from behind me. I jumped a foot in the air. "Oh.. I was hoping you wouldn't mind taking a jog with me around the town. Would you mind?" I asked nervously. "Sure! WAIT! I've got my boots on.. There painful when running… Can I like walk?" Jason said looking at his feet then back. "Why don't you ride my bike? That way I can stay close." I smiled. In my little town Jason can get lost and end up going to the most popular girl in my school who's like a total snob/annoying, It's like Tess Tyler worse!