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A/N: I suggest you listen to "Wait There" by Yiruma for full effect, it's the lullaby I'm talking about.
Blinding Light
She lay awake as the notes of an oddly familiar song wafted through the air thick with tension and uneasiness set by another expected nightmare.
The song brought waves of sadness that emanated from her heart. The words rang through her mind,
(One year ago, at the airport. April 1, 2008)
"I love you". Three simple words that were said with such sincerity and truthfulness held no meaning for him. She wore her heart on her sleeve, hell, she even handed it out to him, only to be crushed by his callous hands. His laugh emanated throughout the room, and then he said the words that sealed her faith.
"You love me? hahahah, nice Bella, nice joke."
Tears were brimming in her eyes and blood pooled in her face. This, of course, was not ignored by his watchful eyes.
"You're serious?" He asked.
"No, shit Sherlock." Does he think I'm joking? God, I never knew he could be so stupid.
"Oh"
"Bella, I... um... I'm sorry I can't do this." He stuttered.
"What do you mean?"
"I can't do this; I can't pretend to love you."
"What do you mean pretend? God dammit I never told you to say you love me too! God! I'm... stupid much." She whispered the last two words.
He instantly felt guilty as he saw the tears fell from his best friend's eye. Remorse flooded through his chest. I cant, I can't tell her how much I feel for her I'm not worthy; she deserves someone better, someone who's not going to live in Boston while she's in Forks. Someone needs to be there for her, and it won't be me. She needs to realize that we were not meant to be. I know time will heal her wound, but I'm not sure if mine will.
"I have to go. Goodbye Bella."
(End of flashback)
The lullaby Edward gave her for her 17th birthday still played as she remembers the last time she saw him. Bella did not know that it will be the last time, for Edward, her love, was lost forever.
(Flashback: March 31, 2009)
CALLER: "Hello, may I speak to Ms. Isabella Swan please."
BELLA: "This is she, how may I help you?"
CALLER: "Bella! This is Alice, have you heard the news?"
BELLA: "What do you mean? What news?"
CALLER: "Oh, god, how do I say this... Bella, Edward was involved in a drunk driving incident last Sunday..." Alice's words were cut short by Bella's screaming.
BELLA: "ALICE! I SWEAR IF THIS IS AN APRIL FOOL'S SHIT I'M SO GONNA KICK YOUR ASS!"
CALLER: "Bella, will you please calm down, why would I joke about this? He's my brother for fuck's sake!"
After a couple of moments
BELLA: "How is he Alice?"
CALLER: "I'm sorry Bella..."
Bella dropped the phone.
(End of flashback)
Memories of Edward drifted in and out of her mind. Her sanity is slowly slipping away at each pass of a photographic memory of Edward's face.
Her lullaby stopped playing. It stopped playing for almost a minute, but in her mind it's still playing, and at each memory it plays faster, and faster and faster.
Bella abruptly stood up and made a bee line towards her CD player. She pushed the eject button harder than normal. She grasped her most precious CD with her two hands, her nails scratching the sensitive surface.
"I can't do this, I can't pretend to love you."
She broke the CD into two big pieces, bits of glass-like CD particles scattered on the floor, sparkling like glitter from the moonlight that shone from the window.
She dropped the big pieces of CD, the gift in which Edward poured his love onto, playing, recording her lullaby then burning it into a CD. He took his time writing the words "happy birthday" onto the CD using his best penmanship. He poured his love for Bella onto the CD; love that she never knew existed.
Bella went out of her house, taking time to avoid any noise so not to wake her father.
She stepped onto the pavement and into the pouring rain. She was soaked and freezing but she didn't felt it. She hardly knew it was raining. She just kept on walking until she reached the main road, then suddenly,
There was blinding light,
Then darkness.
A/N: hehe, hello :) Thanks for reading this. Reviews are very much appreciated.