I never understood the appeal of It I didn't see why flirting and having a girl was such a big deal the thought of sex just made me feel a bit sick and of course the other guys noticed when I never flirted with girls or showed any interest in that stuff they made fun of me... called me a fag and a freak it was exhausting going to school and having to deal with it to them I wasn't normal and after being called a freak for so long you start to believe it so I decided that I would try to be normal I would try to fit in. I watched the other guys when it make to flirting and asking girls out it was awkward and I didn't always seceded but at least with me trying it got the other guys off of my back some what and eventually I did mange to get a girlfriend her name Lisa she was nice she thought I was cute in a sorta awkward way we dated for awhile but when it came to the intimate part of the relationship it fell apart I could fake it though the making out and touching but when it came to anything more then that I couldn't. I tried thought I wanted to be normal more then anything but It seemed like I just could not be me and Lisa ended breaking up it didn't end well rumors started to spread even more after that and the bullying became worse then ever because now more then ever they were convinced I was a fag and after hearing it I felt myself being convinced that they were right, the rest of high school was hell the teasing and bullying never stoped and the chances of getting a new girlfriend went to zero when I finally graduated I was glad to be out of that hell