Chapter 1

"Laken Clace Herondale come on!"

My beautiful daughter looked up from the teeny box she was holding and ran under my legs into the door. She had golden orange red hair and these gorgeous gold eyes like her fathers. Four years I thought four lonely precious adorable years.

"Mommy!"

She ran over to me and tugged on my skinny jean leg. Laughing I picked her up and sat her on the cool counter. Her pretty hair was down but some of her hair was pulled back so It wouldn't get in her tiny face. She was pale like me but a had a small golden tint to her color like jace. Every fiber of my being aced for him but how would I explain laken? I started unbagging groceries as she picked at the small sparkles on her yellow dress and I sighed.

"Laken baby what's wrong?"

"I want to meet daddy"

My heart was breaking. I wanted her to meet jace I really did but how could I ever contact him? Oh course Isabelle and Alec knew but I made them promise not to tell him.

"Laken you know"

"I know I don't have a daddy"

"Laken I never said that!"

A small tear rolled down her cheek and she climbed down by the stool and ran before I could grab her. Sighing I told her I would be in the hall way and to be good for two minutes. I walked out and sat against the wall crying. My fingers fiddled with my black and red flannel. I dressed like a normal twenty year old. Well maybe a eighteen year old but still. I was never going to wear mom jeans. I stuck my short legs out and laid my head back. When I did I saw golden eyes starting into mine. She kissed my nose and ran back inside giggling. I couldn't help but smile. She was so much like jace it scared me so bad. I heard a door open and close. A handsome man walked past me. Hmmm he lived right beside me. He had pale bright blonde hair bright eyes tattoo's and was ta-. Wait what? He stopped suddenly and made his way back to me. I stood up scared and when he looked at me with those golden eyes I knew who it was.

"Clary?" His voice wavered.

"Jace?" I could hear my voice crack.

Jace's P.O.V

It was her oh my god. She was back and she was living next to me. I couldn't help but smile and hug her. She pushed me off her and I landed against the wall.

"Don't touch me"

"Please come in and let me talk clarissa please?"

She looked at me and then back to her apartment biting her lip. My heart felt frozen in time. Was she dating someone? Engaged? married possibly with kids even? She sighed and nodded walking with me to steps to my door.

"Make it quick jace"

I nodded and I heard cartoons blaring and a small girls giggle from somewhere.

"Kids huh?" I rolled my eyes.

Her lips pursed and she nodded.

"Yeah little girls"

Clary's P.O.V

We sat there for minutes in silence. I was becoming worried about laken so I decided to stand up. Getting up he gently grabbed my arm and tried to have me sit down.

"Jace I need to get back!"

"Clary I haven't seen you in almost four years please talk to me!"

I looked at him and wondered. He was twenty one now and my heart skipped beats when I saw him. I sighed and nodded. He grabbed my arm gently and had me sit down with him on his couch in the apartment he lived in. Sadly I had chosen to live in the apartment next to him.

"Do you know what the hell you put me through jace?"

"I'm sorry but you never let me explain anything!"

"Did I have to?!"

I had gone years without him. I'd never fallen back in love. I never trusted anyone ever again. He put me through hell but he was right I never gave him a chance. I was a stupid sixteen year old back then. I was selfish and rash. I went into the family business and stayed in it. That is before I found out I was pregnant... He still didn't know I had a child.

"Clarissa"

He was alarmingly close to me. I could feel our breath mixing and I wanted him. I hadn't had anyone after him and people told me they knew for a fact he never had anyone but me. I felt his lips press against mine and I melted into him. His hands pulled me closer like he was afraid to let me go. I wouldn't blame him for being afraid I would never blame him for it. I stopped him seeming we were getting serious. Breathing hard I stopped a tear from falling out of my eyes.

"Jace I have a daughter"

His eyes grew and he looked extremely hurt

"With who?"

"You"

He sat up and put a hand against his head in shock

"Not possible" He whispered and I made him look at me.

"Yes possible she almost four years old she looks just fucking like you almost don't you dare sit there and call me a liar"

He looked at me and I saw the sorrow in his eyes.

"Why not call me?"

"You were seventeen what boy would want a child? what boy wouldn't walk out?"

"Me I would want a child I wouldn't walk out!"

"WE BARELY FUCKING KNEW EACH OTHER!"

"Not true"

"ALL WE DID WAS HAVE SEX SEX AND MORE SEX JONATHAN DON'T LIE TO YOURSELF!"

He stood up angry and shook his head.

"That's my baby girl in the apartment I want to see her IM HER FATHER im the one who will protect her and sorry I think your lying to yourself I know your favorite color is green you love to read and enjoy anime your birthday is June 26th you've lived in new York all your life your favorite books are harry potter and the fallen series and your favorite movie is the hunger games your favorite food is pancakes and you like your coffee black and so much more clarissa"

I started crying.

"I know you love taki's and you hate to read except for a tale of two cities by Charles dickens your favorite color is Silver and Gold you listen to classical and popular music all the time your neat and everything had to be in place or your OCD kicks in you love to cuddle and watch movies with me and your a snarky self arrogant prick and you know that so you take pride in it your self confident and think you can get anything you want and I love that about you I also know your the only man who ever made me feel loved"

"I love you"

"I love you to"

He pulled me into his arms and everything felt better. Everything was okay.

Yep the prologue belonged to this chapter hoped you enjoyed this love you guys! :)