"NO… CARSON
Dr. Carson Beckett, watched Dr. Rodney McKay sleep as he rub his hand on Rodney's half naked torso, and placed kisses on his cheek, and chin before drifting to sleep his self.
"NO… CARSON!" Rodney screamed shooting upward on his bed, grabbing the blanket and sobbing uncontrollably.
"Rodne'?" Carson sat up looking worried, as he pulled Rodney close into his arms, only having him being push away.
"Carson, come home… I'm sorry… Carson I'm nothing without you!" McKay said between chokes of sobs.
"I'm here hone' I'm here! Baby loo' at ma'!" McKay fighting against him, slamming his hands against Carson's chest. "Rodne' stop!" Carson loosing his grip on his arms.
"I need you…" he whispered braking into loud choking sobs, "GET AWAY!" pushing Beckett away.
"NO!" Carson yelled back, pushing him into the bed, holding his arms to his sides in a bruising grip. Rodney struggled, throwing his head back, than up trying to not choke on his tears. This sight of Rodney made Carson choke up and pull his tears from leaking his own eyes. "Rodne', babe'!" Carson whispered lightly kissing McKay on his cheek, chin, nose, as Rodney slung his head from side to side.
"Rodne' stop! Please!" Beckett whispered holding a sob back. Continuing kissing him, on his forehead and the side of his mouth. "Can you feel that? Honey it's me, those are my kisses," he softly ran his hand over the wet cheeks of Rodney, "and those are my touches." He continued.
"Carson? Carson!" Rodney finally came to and saw the beautiful blue eyes staring at him with sadness. He was so happy to see him; he slammed his whole body up to Beckett, gripping him around his chest. Carson barley holding both his weight and Rodney's, McKay just finally pulled Carson down onto him, hugging him for dear life. "Oh my God, oh my God, Carson!"
"There's my luv." Carson whispered as he nuzzled McKay's neck. Rodney still had a tight hold around Carson as he began to sod, squeezing tighter. Carson slowly raised his head to Rodney's face and saw tears flowing. Beckett reached a hand up pushing the tears away, hearing McKay begin to mumble.
Carson was able to make out a few bits of what he was saying. "It was my fault, I should have been there, we should have been on the lake together, but I was being my selfish self." He began to cry again.
"Shhh babe' shhh, it's ok luv."
"No the hell it's not ok!" He barked before he began again. "When you where in that lab, with that bomb I was waiting to hear that bomb go off. Than you said you had it and the squad was there, I thought it was going to be ok th…" McKay began to cry hard pulling Carson as close as he could. "Than that bomb went off and… I called for you… than the radio went dead…" tears began to fall from Carson's eyes, rolling over on his side pulling Rodney to his neck as he cried harder. McKay pressed his face into the crook of Beckett's throat, releasing every piece of sadness he held in for years.
"I love you so much!" Rodney was able to make out clearly, "Don't ever leave me."
"Shh babe', I luv you just as much, I woul' never leave you. You are mine, and I'm finally yours." Carson kissed him softly and tenderly. "I luv you, Rodne'."