As depressing as it is I do NOT own La Corda D'Oro… But this plot does belong to me. I hope you like it! ^_^

Note:

In my story Len never told Kahako personally that he was leaving.

The Funeral

A girl dressed all in black wiped away the tears that refused to stop falling from her swollen eyes. She looked down at her trembling hands and thought 'Why does reality hurt so much. Why won't this pain just stop! My heart shattered long ago, but I pieced it together again only to let it shatter again. Now my soul too has been shredded too nothingness…' She stood up, picked up a black shawl and draped it gracefully over her shoulders. She briefly glanced in the mirror and saw a face engraved with pain and grief. She took a deep breath and then exhaled and finally managed to quench her tears. 'Will I ever be able to completely stop crying, because even though I've stopped now, deep down inside I'm crying a enough to flood this world…' she whispered to herself. She stood up and walked down the flight of stairs and knocked on her mother's door. "Mother, It- It's Time."

He was standing on the balcony looking at the sky. 'How will she react when she meets me again after 3 years? Will she hate me for leaving without tell her?'

Flashback

He sat down at his desk and looked out the window. It was dark already and the London eye was lit. He glanced at his watch only to read that it was already quarter to midnight and then let his gaze wander to the pile of scrunched up paper which was piled up on the floor. He let out a long sigh and ran his hand through his blue hair. All day long he'd been trying to write this letter, but it was just never right. He was trying to write her a letter saying that he was in London and that she should go on without him. After some time it was finally done. 'I guess this'll have to do, but it is little colder than I would like…' He thought and read through his finally completed letter:

Dear Kahoko,

I'm in London and will be studying here for sometime. The reason I am here is because I wish to improve my violin skills. I'm sorry that I never officially said good bye, but the timing never seemed right. I wish to release all of my ties in Japan because I don't know when I shall return and I wish to be able to concentrate fully on my violin. I hope you understand.

Len

He had been trying to say that he cared about her happiness and wanted her to not worry about him while he was gone but he didn't really know how to put it in words…

End Flashback

'Yes I was a fool, and that's the last thing she heard of me for 3 years.' Len mentally told himself.

They had gotten back yesterday evening and his mother was holding a recital for friends to announce their return. She had also been invited. He simultaneously dreaded and longed for the moment when he could finally see her once again. She was the only one to whom he wasn't cold and indifferent to. He knew she saw through it when he was.

Before he had left they had secretly been in a relationship no one but the too of them really knew. He wondered if she would let him be hers again. He sighed for what seemed like the 100th time. 'Probably not, but I need her. She, she's mine…' he thought with longing. He looked around; guests were already starting to arrive. He walked up to his mother to join her in greeting the guests.

Then he saw him 'Great it's THAT guy.' Len mentally hissed in his personal thoughts. He had evergreen hair and really wasn't the first person Len wanted to meet once home again. But Ryotaro wasn't alone. Yunoki, Hihara, Shimizu and Fuyuumi were with him too. He looked behind them but couldn't see her. She was the only one that he really wanted to see. "Ohaio, Tsuchiura-kun. I'm so happy that you all could make it. But where is Hino-san?" Len heard his mother say. "Ah, Gomen." Ryotaro let out a long sigh. "some matters came up so she wasn't able to make it." He said. "What came up?" Len coldly asked while wondering where she could have been. "She's- she's attending a funeral I'm afraid." Ryotaro responded quietly. 'What!' Len wanted to scream. "I see that's very sad to hear. I hope it wasn't someone she was very close to." Misa Hamai said.

"Hai mother. I'll come home on my own a little later, I would just like to stay a little longer." Kahoko responded quietly in a hoarse voice. Her mother nodded and then left. Everyone else was gone by now. His funeral was over.

She new her mother would just start crying again once she was in her room, and crying was also all Kahoko really felt like then. This incident was very hard on her, she stilled couldn't believe that he was really dead. Suddenly the tears were falling again, but this time she didn't try to stop them. She was alone. No one would see her tears falling on a grave. 'Why Ren... He, he shouldn't have died.' These thoughts only made her sob harder.

authors note: So this is my first fanfic so please don't massacre me for it being so bad but I would appreciate reviews, ideas, critism, and anything which you want to say just not to harsh as I said before :) I'm also not sure how often I'll be updating this since I have school and such. But I'll try to update not too spread out.