Trepidation

Prologue: An Introduction

Kattie

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing.

Warning: The idea that inspired this fanfiction was born in one of my most terrifying nightmares. Understand that this storyline will not be light and may include themes not meant for innocent eyes. I hope I can accurately describe this fear and angst appropriately and, if I do so, please be ready to accept my own horrific dreams.

Note: I apologize for the sudden darkness of my writing. Never write after waking up from a stirring dream.

Over the course of the Gundam Wing series, the characters show themselves time and again to be nearly fearless. Each mission they face some of the most terrifying aspects of human existence by confronting the idea of their own premature deaths and those of others. They find themselves in a position to be hated by seas of strangers merely because of their existence and realize that there are only four people in the entirety of the universe that they can possibly trust.

There is the fear of losing their grand battle and watching all they've fought for lost in one instant. The constant fear of misplaced trust in another pilot and finding oneself destroyed as a result. They also may lose their ability to fight altogether, whether their Gundam or part of themselves is found unable to continue the harsh battles. The fear of vulnerability or inability to act when they are most needed.

This story tells what I believe each pilot fears the most and how this might have affected them during the war.

For the quiet, enigmatic pilot of Gundam Heavyarms; someone who has not lost company with the coming of battle but, instead, gained allies: a profound fear of loneliness.

For the sensitive, empathic pilot of Gundam Sandrock; a boy who feels the pain and sorrow of others- harboring within him the capacity for all-encompassing love: a fear of lost friends.

For the proud and aggressive pilot of Gundam Shenlong; a martial artist who lives solely for his own unrelinquishing and untainted honor: a fear of disgrace.

For the happy-go-lucky, friendly pilot of Gundam Deathscythe; an orphan boy with such a capacity for adaptability that he can refer to himself as the "God of Death" in a position that everyday considers mortality: a fear of abandonment.

And lastly, for the intelligent and skilled pilot of the Wing Gundam; a boy haunted by the death of a small girl and her dog after surviving a thousand massacres: a fear of himself.

This fanfiction includes stories of the pilots confronted by their gravest fears and how they succeed or fail in overcoming the tribulations within their own minds.

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Note: Quatre and Trowa's fears have summaries and resulting chapters should be completed shortly. If you would like to argue any of the other three's fears by all means, e-mail me at