Endless
By Timberwolf220
DISCLAIMER: Not mine. Foey
DEDICATIONS: For Hades of Hades. (hugs him) Don't worry. One of these days we'll pay back for deleting you!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We have lived a long time, you and I. We're been through those times when you collapse and wish for nothing but the sky to fall on your head.
We've been through those times when you know the world is smiling down on you.
We've been through those times when the fire is lit from under your eyes and you know…
You know…
We know those times and we remember them fondly even as those days pass us by with nothing but a faint recollection of the mind.
I know those days when you came up to me and gave me a flower. All the petals had been ripped off and it looked a sickly yellow.
I loved it.
We've been through those times when you would walk away without a word for days to come, and then return with a smile and a gift.
I hated it.
We remember the times when that man would look at me and you would hurt him and then berate me for something that was so obviously out of my control.
I loved it.
We know those times when the most you would say to me was nothing at all.
I hated it.
Good mixed with the bad in those times.
I wonder what you feel from these memories.
Do you feel the pounding of my heart against your chest? Do you feel the warm rhythmic flow of blood trickle down your arm? Do you feel the choking words of love and bliss until they cover you?
Do you remember?
We cover you. I cover you.
I know those times when you were so lonely, so alone.
I tried to help, but it wasn't help you wanted.
I know those times when I lost hope and you gave me hurt.
I knew I was useless and you proved to me I wasn't.
Do you remember?
I help you up. You help me up.
Those times have passed into shadow of the mind.
I want, no, I need to remember what I can. Those fond, fond memories were being whisked away and I couldn't…hold onto them forever.
Remember what they say? You always hated that saying.
Love is forever.
You always told me it wasn't, because we aren't eternal.
We pass away as well like the fog on the docks in winter.
But, you told me that…
Despite the fact love isn't eternal, our feelings are. And no matter how far we go, we will always cling to those memories.
Love cannot fade if memory doesn't.
But…I can't hold onto them. They're leaving.
I don't want them to leave.
[tatoe ashita nakushite mo]
[anata o ushinatte mo]
[dekiru kagiri no egao de kayagakitei]
[Even if I lost tomorrow]
[and even if I lost you, too]
[I want to shine]
[smiling as best as I can] [1]
I haven't seen you in years. You left a long time ago. I can't remember when….it's too hazy. I've always tried to block out that memory because it hurt.
Everything about you seemed to hurt.
I think you knew I loved you. I think that was one of the reasons you left.
I didn't ask why.
I…was…I knew the answer somehow.
Days have passed.
I feel old.
There's a new generation of bladers. They've really become something, though the bit-beasts have left, gone with many of the 'original' bladers.
Original……
We were the original. One of the best teams in the world.
We were the best.
So long ago…
You weren't the only one I lost over the years. Kenny's gone and so is Hillary.
They're gone.
I don't know what happened to Rei and Max and frankly, I don't want to know.
It would probably hurt as well.
I'm so lonely. But I've been lonely for so long.
Then you came back.
There was a knock on the door. When I went to open it, you were there.
You looked just the same. Nothing about you had changed.
"Tyson, come." You gave me your hand and you were smiling.
I don't remember how long ago before you used to give me that smile.
I took your hand, and my body seemed lifeless.
The next day, the police found my body on the floor.
A/N: For those of you, Kai was dead and Tyson just blocked away that memory until he actually forgot. Then Kai came back for Tyson.
(sniffles)
What am I, the angst machine these days?
[1] From the Escaflowne Opening Song. Again, this doesn't belong to me.