From the glass paned windows, I could clearly see you smiling. Though my heart ached recalling the times when you'd be there for me when I least expected it.

Whenever you'd smile, I'd unconsciously smile.

You told me that you'd always protect me no matter what and that you'd be forever at my side because you loved me.

But, I realized that the love I received from you was not in a romantic way, but in a sibling way.

I can't forget that day.

Ever.

It's starting to rain.

It reminded me of the day that we first met. I was sitting under a tree then, crying.

You approached me and handed a handkerchief saying:

'You'd look prettier if you'd smile'

From that moment on, I fell in love with you.

And from that moment on, I started to smile for you.

You walked me home one day, and that was the day when I regretted ever loving you.

"Ah! Amaya, so you've met a cousin of yours!"

"C…cousin?"

"Yes, yes. Actually a second degree cousin, I forgot to tell you about him!"

"O…oh…tha-that's good to know, Kaa-san"

And on another rainy night, I cried.

I wanted to forget about you.

I wanted to stop smiling for you.

I wanted to…I wanted to…

I wanted to feel your love one last time.

You were being taken away from me.

By someone who loves you and someone whom you loved back

Kunimitsu Tezuka.

Someone greater than me, someone who you can feel your love in a way I never will.

You never knew how my heart would break when you'd talk to me about him.

When you'd smile for him with a smile I never saw from you since the day we met.

Remember that you promised me that you'd protect me from any harm?

Then, why can't you protect me now?

When you told me that you'd be forever by my side.

Where are you right now when I need you the most?

Your world is now revolving around him.

I tried to stop loving you, but as the days went by, my love for you started to get stronger and stronger.

I wanted to give up on you.

I wanted to forget you forever.

I can't love someone who broke his promise.

Yet, I can never live a day without seeing you.

'I'll protect you no matter what. Now, please tell me what's wrong?'

You asked me that question when you noticed I had been smiling less and less each day.

'Iie, you can't protect me this time…I'm sorry.'

I remembered that day, when I cowardly ran away from you.

Rain started pouring again, I smiled bitterly to myself.

"The Heavens is crying for me, for I can't shed a tear to cry"

You promised me, and promises are meant to be kept.

I'm now wondering if did you really mean those words before or were those words just words of pity? Or did you only say those words to me because you felt responsible for being my cousin?

No matter.

It is forbidden to love someone with the same blood running through your veins.

It is a sin.

But you can never choose whom to love.

Can't you…

Syuusuke?

R&R please.

But no flames please.

Sorry if it's kinda corny.