Okay people so I realize that this is the third story I've started and I haven't finished any of them, but what can I say, my mind travels. It also might have something to do with a slight case of writer's block, so if you wish for me to proceed/continue with any of these stories, reviews would be kindly accepted. Also I am open to any ideas readers are willing to give on any of my stories, (I assure you I will not use your idea without giving credit where credit is due aka you) because I do like direction.

Summary: Elena is a vampire. She met Katherine after her parents accident at the age of five (A/N I will go into detail in the story). Katherine was the only person she had left...that is until she disappeared also. Now with a grief she covers with coldness, she is thrown back into life, more broken than ever before. Until she meets another pair from Lady Katherine's past-the Salvatore brothers-they too know the sadness Katherine causes. But can they comprehend the pain Elena has been through? She thinks not. And in their attempt to rekindle their flame with Katherine, will they end up falling for the wrong person and repeating history all over again?

Music: Dead Inside by Skillet (Most of this story will probably be inspired by this band merely to keep it constant but also because their songs speak words I could never explain.)

December 3, 2009. Thursday. 5:17 am

Dear Diary,

I can't sleep so I figured talking to you would be the best thing to do. This has become routine; 1) write in my diary, 2) try to live my life, 3) attempt to sleep, 4) fail, 5) repeat steps one through five.

She told me it would get better. That immortality would save me; that it would give my life purpose again…well diary, it is easy to say she lied. Let us not forget how she always said she would never leave me-her doppelganger-behind. But now she has, and I feel pathetic. She was my last lifeline. She was my last reason to smile.

When I am gone, I will leave behind this diary for others to find, for when I am gone, I will have no worries of being inconspicuous. This immortal vampiric life means nothing to me if I am not happy, and to be frank, I am miserable. So here goes…

This is a story of a lost soul, but do not feel sorry for me because I now know the rules of the game-the guidelines of life: never believe in yourself, don't take risks, do not trust anyone, never fall in love, and most importantly, never think you are special. You are nothing; you mean nothing… to anyone. You are just a waste of space, small town lifer.

I can't believe this is what Katherine made me into; this person-no, not even that-this shell of a person.

May life treat you better than it has me, may you find peace within your life, and may that light inside your soul never extinguish.

-Elena

Okay readers, this is hopefully just the first installment because I can see this story's future and I like where it's headed.

A/N: Although you can't tell yet, this is definitely Damon/Elena story with a slight love triangle episode here and there. No offense to Stefan/Elena fans because I love them too. It's just so much easier for me to write Damon in a relationship rather than Stefan because I think more like Damon. I am a smart ass, sarcastic, devilish, and keep all emotions hidden behind my mask of invisibility. Whereas Stefan is sweet, caring, open, and softspoken. Don't get me wrong, I can be like that too, but mostly I'm not and I'm not afraid to admit it, for the reason that I am also like Damon in the idea that I do have feelings and I can be hurt even when I hide it...etc....

But enough about the behind the scenes story crap no one really listens to :).

Read..Enjoy..Review (they always help hurry me along).

Love and Rockets,

Nina