My first Infernal Devices fanfic. Well I wouldn't call this a story or anything near it... it's quite short, but I hope you guys enjoy it anyways. (:

Disclaimer: I don't own.

~ Reparations ~

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She never planned on forgiving him, but she did anyways. No matter how unforgivable the deed, she found it hard to stay angry. She knew that no matter what he did, she would always forgive him. Always.

She didn't want to come off as weak or pathetic, but with a sad, moody look from him and a pout barely visible on his lips, she found it hard to want to do anything else. She didn't want to forgive; it would be much better if she pushed him away all together, but he always found a way back and he always found a reason for her to forgive him.

His reasoning is never precise and logical, but because he is Will, you can't help but forgive him anyways. It's in his nature; everyone feels the need to impress him and forgive him like a confused child who doesn't understand the difference between right and wrong. For if he did, things wouldn't be this way.

It wasn't out of pity-she didn't think it was like that with anyone. Everyone just felt the need to forgive him, no matter how badly he messed up each and every time.

She told herself, never again, would she forgive him after he deliberately broke her heart more times than she could even count, but she found herself doing it again and again anyways. Sometimes, he wouldn't even have to ask for her forgiveness... she just forgave him.

Obviously, nobody is perfect. She knew that much. Everybody made a fair amount of mistakes, but Will seems to make more than an average human.

She sighed rather dramatically, overlooking Will's actions. It hurt-the things he did to her-ignoring her would be among them, along with speaking to her only when he wished to. It was never the other way around. If she ever wanted to speak to him and he didn't want to, he would ignore her and leave her hanging... just like that. And it especially hurt when Will needed her, and she would respond right away and come to his aid, despite the circumstances. She may not feel like speaking to anyone, but Will was always an exception. It was too bad he was incapable of knowing how much his actions affected her.

The neglection from Will was unpleasant and it was to the point where she felt that if she had not been staying at the institute, he would've forgotten about her in a time span of a week.

It was kind of pathetic, really, the effect he had on her. She didn't want to forgive him so easily either. However, Will looked so vulnerable at times... it was just too heartbreaking to be around. Despite the vulnerable sounds that emitted from his throat, everything that she has ever done for him was not done out of pity. Pity was a feeling she hated, and she knew Will would too. Forgiving Will was always one of the things that troubled her the most in life.

It was so pathetic.

She repetitively told herself that it would be the last time; she wouldn't forgive him the next time he stepped out of line... and yet she found herself doing it again and again.

And she especially didn't like how she was completely euphoric whenever he did pay attention to her or talk to her. She had a feeling she didn't have that effect on him, so that thought really didn't make matters any better.

None of this makes any sense, but of course, Will doesn't make sense either.

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