A/N: I have quite a few fics already out there but I couldn't resist, I had this idea in my head and I ran with it. I'll try to keep up regular updates and I'll try to make the next chapter longer.

Sam is the older brother in this fic and is only older by two years. And Adam is with them. Everything else is the same.

Sam's POV

"I'll see you when you get back" Jess gave me one last kiss on the lips.

"I love you"

"Love you too"

I get in Jess's car which she loaned me for the trip being as she wouldn't need it.

I was going to see my family. It had been hell being away from them, but worth it. I wanted to become a lawyer so I left for law school when I graduated High School and with my high grades I got into Stanford.

My dad wanted me to stay with the family business but that's not me. The hard part was leaving dad and my brothers. It wasn't just about missing them, dad was a single parent who hunted monsters for a living, I was like a mom to my brothers my whole life.

Our mom died when I was just four years old, pinned to the ceiling and burnt alive by a demon, dad gave me my two year old brother to run out the house with. My dad was not able to save mom, we ran away that night and hunted down every demon, every creature out there. Two years after mom died dad met a woman called Kate something-he wouldn't give us her last name- and had a son Adam with her. She was killed not long after Adam was born by a demon too.

Dad was too focused on hunting and getting the demon that killed mom to be able to look after us like a normal parent so therefore as the eldest the job fell to me.

I worried about leaving them with just dad, worried about how they would cope. I needed my own life. The middle brother Dean is only two years younger than me, he's like really good with the ladies as he calls them, he has a good paying job and is fiercely protective of the youngest Adam so I had no qualms about leaving. Dean could do what I did, after all I was only a kid when I looked after my brothers, surely a soon-to-be sixteen year old would do fine, right?

I am still worried; I couldn't help it I was the eldest it was only natural I did.

It was a long drive and I didn't stop the whole way there.

When I left me and dad had had a big argument, he had even told me to never come back if I left yet still told me where they were every time they moved. I didn't care what dad said, I was coming back and he wasn't stopping me, it was only for a few weeks, I had let Christmas and Easter go to cool things down but it was a year now, I couldn't wait any longer.

Their at an apartment for a change, I don't ever remember staying at a place like this. And it is not a bad place either, it's mildly clean and well kept.

I enter the building as two attractive women head out; I don't give them a glance. I have Jess now and before it's not like I noticed much anyway.

Their room is on the second floor so I trudge up the stairs and walk down the corridor counting the numbers on the rooms.

Adam opens the door chewing on a pencil. "Yes?"

"You doing work brother?"

"Sam" Adam looks up at me and flings himself at me. "I've missed you"

"Missed you too, little man. Am I going to get invited in?"

"Of course" Adam says uncertainly.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"Nothing" Adam shrugs and walks in, I follow behind. The apartments are just like the buildings say they are, the apartment my family are staying in has a soft brown homely touch to it, a difference from all the cold dark dingy motel rooms we'd stay in.

"Shit where did he go?"

"Who go?" I ask confused.

Adam doesn't even act like he hears me as his eyes roam the room and throws open doors.

"Go away"

"No"

"Dean?" I flick on the light in the small dark room seeing Dean huddled in the shower, curtain wrapped around his body. He looks different, shadows lie under his eyes and he's natural tan is pale and his body structure is thinner, much thinner then when I saw him last.

His eyes glance up at me, raking over me and then turn to Adam. "Who's the man?"

"That's Sam, Dean. He's our brother"

Dean shakes his head. "I only have one brother; his name is Adam and he upset me"

"Come on" Adam walks over to him untangling the shower curtain away from Dean. "Get out the bath"

Dean squats him away. "Fuck off"

"Dean" I step forwards. "You have two brothers; I'm your oldest brother Samuel but you call me Sammy. I left for Stanford 9 months ago"

"Adam, Adam. Get him away from me" Dean screeches, his voice frightened of me. "Get him away from me, I don't know him"

"Please Sam?" Adam looks at me.

I back out slowly and go to sit in the living room, head in hands. My own brother didn't know me, what the hell could have happened to make him forget me?

I don't know how long I sit there, my head shoots up when the door opens.

"Sam" Dad says locking the door behind him.

"Hi Dad"

"Daddy"

Dad finds his arms full of Dean; he swipes him up and holds him tight in his grasp. "Daddy we have a strange man here. Do you know him?"

I close my eyes. It hurts hearing your own brother call you a strange man, no matter why, it hurt.

"Yes I do Dean. It's okay"

"Okay daddy" Dean nods then leans back against dad's chest.

"Have you been a good boy?" Dad asks him, keeping his eyes on me.

"Adam upset me"

"I did no such thing" Adam says from the doorway of the bathroom.

"Dean go with Adam please"

"No Daddy he upset me"

"I need to talk to the strange man, okay Dean, so please go with your brother?"

"But daddy he-"

"I'll sort it. I really need to have a private talk, please son do that for me? Just go with Adam, I swear to you I wont be long"

"Okay" Dean let Dad set him down and went with Adam into one of the other two doors, their bedroom I presume.

"What happened Dad?" I ask as he sits opposite me.

This was not the sixteen year old I had left behind. This was not Dean. Something was wrong with my brother.

"Look after Adam yeah? That's your job now"

"Oh no" Dean grinned. "I'm the eldest now"

"You going to be a good role model?"

"Hey dude, I said I was going to look out for him, unlike you he goes out and gets drunk I applaud him, if he stole a girl off a guy I'd-"

"Dean he's eleven, he's just started Middle School. He will not be getting up to them things"

"But Sam, I'm the cool brother"

"Dean-" I chastised him.

"Yeah yeah Sam get off my case, besides I'm pretty sure if he did do that dad will go mental"

"And work hard at school"

"Oh come on" Dean gives me that look, the one that says you know me better than that.

"Just say your try" I pleaded.

"Fine" He rolled his eyes. "Am I allowed to go out tonight?"

"You've just started high school" I rubbed a hand across my face. "God Dean I'm starting to think leaving you alone is not a good thing"

"Dude your leaving. I love you an all, I don't want you to go really but I want you to do what you need to do. Me and Adam we ent smart like that, we don't have a shot like you do. Me and Adam will be fine being hunters but that's not you, besides" Dean had a twinkle in his eye and nudged me. "Who better to get us out of a tight spot then our brother and son the lawyer hey?"

"Oh Dean" I chuckled. "Always thinking ahead"

"Of course. Love you, bitch"

"Love you too, jerk"

"He was kidnapped Sam and he never came back the same again. He keeps regressing from a sixteen year old to an eight year old. He has nightmares every night, he has flashbacks during the day, they both scare him. He's always terrified and so damm broken" Dad looks away. "He won't speak about what happened. If it was supernatural or humans we don't even know that. He needs constant watch, most things can cause him to go off on one and when he's had a flashback" Dad shakes his head, unable to carry on any more.

I've got the picture. "When?" I practically whisper.

"When what?"

"When did it happen?"

"Three months ago" He put his hand up. "Don't have a go at me for not telling you. You left Sam"

"Dad are you kidding me? Dean was fucking kidnapped and you thought I didn't have the right to know?"

And now he turns to look at me, furious. "To find the time to tell you about what happened to Dean when you made it pretty clear college was more important than us all."

"Of course it isn't more important"

"Sam let me finish"

I shut up.

"When he was kidnapped the first thing running through my mind was find him, not call his brother who's miles away. When we got him back it was hard, I have to watch Dean 24/7, look after Adam, hold a job and hunt"

"Hunt? Dean's this way, and you're still fucking hunting. Don't talk about me finding college more important when you obviously find hunting more important" I stand up furious, dad doing the same.

"If we are more important than college then why don't you stay?"

"If we are more important than hunting why don't you stop?"