This is legal, I have no idea if any of the events in this one shot are true, this is just how I think Miley feels at the moment.

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I was there when everything took off for them, everything. We were the best of friends, Nick was my rock, Joe was there for a laugh, and Kevin, he was my shoulder to cry on. When things were hard to go through, Nick was there to whisper comforting words, Joe was there to make me laugh, and Kevin let me sit there and cry, telling me I was strong.

The day I realized I was diagnosed with Hypoglycemia, was all because of Nick. He made sure I checked my blood sugar which wasn't normal, everyday after that, he watched after me carefully, though he thought I didn't notice.

The day the vanity fair photos were leaked, Joe defended me. Stating that, "We're good friends of hers, and we got her back and we love her to death."

Kevin, wow, Kevin was there when the youngest of the brothers broke my heart. December 28, 2007, I will never forget that day. We were going on separate tours, it was going to be difficult to manage a relationship. Still, Kevin stayed on the phone with me till the odd hours of the night, reassuring me that Nick still loved me.

After that things started to fall apart. They hardly called, text back, even ignored my emails. I guess it was to be expected, good things come to an end eventually right? Still, I acknowledged their birthdays, told them congratulations on their accomplishments, and even told them when I heard their new songs or saw their music videos. What do I get in return?

Nothing.

Not even a, "sorry about the photo leak, Miley." If they only knew how tore up I was, if they only knew the pain I felt inside, but of course not, they were too engulfed in their crazy life. If it wasn't a photoshoot, it was a premier, or a cd signing, or a concert, something. My life, was slowly going down hill. So I wrote songs, I wrote down all my feelings.

7 things- obviously, the seven things I loved about nick, the seven things I hated, Thinking about our relationship, wishing he'd say sorry, just…missing him.

Driveway-I really don't know, I guess it's what my relationship with the Jonas Brothers was really about after the breakup. Trying to fix something, not succeeding, loosing them when they were already gone. It hurts.

Full Circle- I come full circle with Nick, we're back and forth, were on and off, full circle.

Fly on the wall- Paparazzi, of course, trying to involve their selves in my relationship with Nicholas, posting 'racy pictures' of me all over the web. How they wish they could know every detail of my life.

Bottom of the ocean- How I lost nick, how now he's just like everything that can't be found. How I want him to be happy, even if it causes me pain.

Goodbye- How the breakup went, and how I wish it would reunite. Something that won't happen that's for sure. I haven't heard When you look me in the eyes play through my phones speakers in almost a year.

A music video was made for 7 things, which I doubt nick has seen, but I'm hoping. I hope he realizes the agony I've been through this past year. But of course not, it's Nick Jonas were talking about.

I suppose I deserve the TEAM DEMI AND SELENA shirt Kevin wore, though I think I deserve it, it still hurts. I cried on while talking on the phone with Mandy for hours. I never imagined he could be so…so cruel.

The shirt brought my attention to other things, Nelena. I was shocked at first to hear that they were dating, then I was hurt, angry, and finally depressed, depressed that he had attempted to move on and all I've done is sit here and wallow in self pity. Which is why I started being spotted with random guys.

Cody Linely

Lucas Till

Justin Gaston

I wanted Nick to feel some pain, to hurt like I did, to….to…..to feel helpless and useless like I did. Pathetic, right? I bet he didn't even feel a second of

Numbness.

While I felt 11 months of it. I bet he didn't shed a

Tear.

While hundreds stained my pillow.

He's happy though, I know he is,. So why can't I be happy?

Maybe it's because on my 16th birthday, they didn't acknowledge me. No, "Happy sweet 16 miley." or "Happy Birthday." not even a Hello. I know they noticed I was hurt though, I cried backstage before they went on. They stood there and watched me. It's not my fault Taylor wouldn't let me go before I broke down from seeing them. Joe didn't smile throughout the performance, Nick didn't sing his best, and Kevin wasn't his normal banging head playing self. They know it's their fault why I'm like this, they have to.

Or maybe it's because at the Concert for hope, they kept a distance from me, Nick, being farthest. At least Joe, tried, to be the bigger man and actually hugged me. Awkward glances were exchanged between Nick and I. Luckily, Mandy was waiting at the edge of the stage to run me to a bathroom before I burst into tears.

But I think the real reason I can't be happy, is because I'm not apart of the family that once loved me. They've moved on to

Better people.

They're happy. I'm not.

I wouldn't change a thing that has happened in the past year, though. Just because they seem happy.

But no matter what, if any one had to of hurt me…..I'm glad it was them.

Everyone is going to hurt you. It's up to you to choose who is worth it.