Disclaimer: I don't own the people in this fic, except the villains.
Yoru: So I was just sitting at my computer, minding my own business, when I read one of my reviews and saw that it said, "I doth command ye!" This excited me and spurred me into action…kind of. Old English does that to me. It's kind of like Italian or French in my book…kidding.
Kuronue: Meng, this will go into Hakkai's memories of what happened and then the required romantic beginning between him and Gojyo. Still reading? Yay!!! Yoru wanted to make sure you wouldn't be disappointed by the plot before you read.
Yoru: What can I say, I do care what you people think. Unless you're flaming me. Then you can kiss my ass. Hahahaha not funny. Seriously though, thank you to all of the people who reviewed Genkido, which is a grand total of three. You guys deserve cookies, which I can't give you because they don't transfer in an email or story well. So I will eat them for you. Mwaha.
Kuronue: As a side note: Ryuuzaki Kusakurin, we don't know what a beta is, but this fic is most definitely dedicated to you if you want it.
Yoru: This fic contains fairly graphic images of rape as well as shounen-ai. Not for pups. While probably a bit disturbing, it ends happy, I swear…maybe.
Hakkai had been silent for several days now.
He had never understood why people were always silent after traumatic experiences, but now he realized the brutal escape it brought. At first Gojyo tried to get Hakkai to talk about what happened, but in the end he gave up. Hakkai would just stare at him with his dead, vacant eyes, behind which roiled unspeakable pain.
Several times a day, Gojyo told Hakkai that he loved him. Hakkai never replied, but the past two times he'd stopped his incredulous reaction. The poor man obviously meant it, but Hakkai could never quite bring himself to reply.
He wished Kanzeon Bosatsu had left him dead, he really did. At times he considered ending it himself, but he had the sneaking suspicion that Gojyo would follow him. He didn't want that; anything but that.
He now lay on his bed pretending to read. He heard Gojyo lay on the bed across the room. Sanzo and Goku left them alone most of the time, probably needing their own privacy after the incident several days before.
"I love you, Hakkai."
Hakkai thought for a moment before replying, "I'm glad."
He smiled when he heard Gojyo stutter for a minute before turning over and going to sleep.
Later that night, Hakkai knew the time had come. He had to tell Gojyo what had happened, if only to soothe the man's nerves…and hopefully lift his own burden. He climbed into Gojyo's bed and snuggled up to him like a child.
"Gojyo, let me sleep here," he said quietly.
"Er…okay." Gojyo tentatively wrapped his arms around Hakkai, who fisted his hands in the hanyou's shirt. He felt safe.
"Gojyo, am I beautiful?" Hakkai whispered. The question had been plaguing him since that day.
Gojyo blinked, confused. "Absolutely stunning, in all seriousness. Why?"
"That's why they took me. Because I was beautiful. That's what he said, that he couldn't just kill me because I was too beautiful to waste." Hakkai's voice trembled a little. He could hear them in his mind, their sick adoration of his body.
Gojyo remained silent. Hakkai took a deep breath.
"I was so scared, Gojyo. I've never been so abjectly terrified in my entire life. And when they started…when they started…" Hakkai began to cry, burying his face in Gojyo's chest. Gojyo held him tightly.
"It hurt so much…"
"Tell me what happened, Hakkai. You need it for the rest, and I need it for you."
For a second, Hakkai had to fight not to pull away. Instead, he settled into his friend's arms.
Two of them forced Hakkai to his knees and held him. The leader stood above him and smiled lustfully, stroking Hakkai's neck mock-lovingly.
"Beautiful man-boy. How wonderful it is for you to be ours." He took the shaking Hakkai's chin and forced their eyes to meet. Using his other hand, he slid the monocle off of his prisoner's nose.
"Perfect eyes." He grasped Hakkai's headband and pulled it off.
"Perfect messy hair." Smirking, he inserted a finger into the collar of Hakkai's shirt.
"No…please…GOJYO!!!"
His shirt gave way like paper as the lead demon forced his finger down the front. Once the leader had ripped it all away, he gazed openly at Hakkai's body.
"Perfect. Perfect, so perfect." He lightly stroked Hakkai's chest, earning a shudder of revulsion. Before the prisoner could protest, he crushed their lips together and forced his tongue into Hakkai's mouth.
Hakkai let out a muffled cry at the intrusion, unable to move his face away. He felt lips on the junction between shoulder and neck, causing him to struggle fiercely. Suddenly he felt teeth sink into the skin there, drawing blood, and he screamed, though it was lost in the leader's mouth. A tear started down his cheek at the agony, only to be intercepted and trapped by the third demon's tongue, which then made its way to his ear
He wasn't sure how long they were there, but he couldn't get away. He had thought only Gojyo could pin him, but these demons held him so securely…Gojyo…
Suddenly his mouth was released and he was shoved to the ground on his back, held there by the demons that had been joining in the molestation.
"Let me go," he begged, wishing he could be strong. But now he knew what they were planning, and all of his resolve had vanished in an instant.
"Oh, no, perfect little creature. I think not." The leader bent down to suck on Hakkai's exposed neck. Hakkai fought and struggled as the disgusting mouth went lower, tracing his chest and stomach, outlining his scar with sickening gentleness.
"Please…don't…"
"Ah, an obstacle that must be removed." The leader sat up and quickly removed Hakkai's pants. The prisoner began to sob as the demons stared at him in adoration. He could no longer stand it.
"GOJ—mmmph!" His mouth was again covered by the demon leader's, only this time the vile creature was stroking him lightly. Hakkai managed to kick him, shoving him off if only for an instant.
"Oof…you little shit!" He slapped Hakkai brutally, leaving four claw marks on the side of the beautiful face, "I was going to be gentle to your virgin body, but I've changed my mind. You'll be so much more perfect when you're screaming in agony anyway."
"Let me go…" Hakkai was dragged up from the ground and shoved face-first against a tree. He pulled and fought, but his hands were painfully bound around the trunk in a matter of seconds. A hand roughly grabbed his hair and pulled his head back. A mouth fastened itself on his again, though whose he didn't know. A new tongue forced its way in, looking for any innocence its predecessor had left behind.
His world became pain as the demon leader shoved himself in without any preparation. The demon assailing his mouth pulled away to allow for the scream that tore itself out of Hakkai's throat. He barely felt the leader's claws scoring his back, barely felt the other demon biting his neck again. All he could feel was the agony and the humiliation as the demon leader ravaged his body.
Then another demon.
Then another.
On and on for eternity.
He screamed until there was no more voice for him to use.
Finally he fell into blissful oblivion, and then there was nothing.
Hakkai stopped, tears streaming down his cheeks. His beautiful eyes were no longer dead; instead they were filled with pain and humiliation. He couldn't stop crying.
Gojyo held him, obviously unsure of how to proceed. Hakkai knew that if Gojyo told him that it was all right it would be a lie, and to tell him that it would heal with time would be heartless. Instead, the hanyou decided to tell him what he needed most to hear.
"I love you, Hakkai."
"How can you, after I have become so dirty? I wish Kanzeon had left me dead, Gojyo, so I wouldn't have to bear it. I'm filthy." Even with his reborn body, Hakkai felt used and destroyed. He needed desperately for Gojyo to tell him that he wasn't filthy, that he was still beautiful in every way.
"You're not dirty or filthy. You're reborn, and you're gorgeous. And I love you."
"How?" Hakkai asked suddenly, even though he knew.
"I think you know. You are my friend and my brother, but more than that you're the one I love. Your real smile, your amazing eyes, your soft voice. I love it all, I love you so much. When I saw what they had done to you, I snapped."
"No kidding," Hakkai murmured, a small smile playing with his lips.
"Er, yeah. Really snapped. As in went on murderous rampage snapped. As in full-youkai snapped. I think I knew before then that I loved you, but that really brought it home, you know?"
"Yes."
"You think you'll ever look at me that way, Hakkai?" Gojyo asked softly. Hakkai hesitated, and then nodded shyly.
"Absolutely." He already did, had for a long time, from the first smile that had lit up Gojyo's face.
"Is there anything else I can do for you, Hakkai?" Gojyo asked.
"Please…purge me. Fill me with you instead of them." Suddenly Hakkai climbed on top of him, green eyes boring into red. He almost laughed at the nervous look on Gojyo's face.
"Um…I really don't think you're ready for that yet…"
Hakkai did laugh then. A genuine laugh.
"No, certainly not that. I meant…your love. Not their lust. Your caresses, not their attacks. Your kisses, not their intrusion." Hakkai bent down and nuzzled Gojyo's neck like a kitten. He couldn't bring himself to taint Gojyo's lips with his own…yet.
Gojyo ran his fingers through silky brown hair. "Okay."
Anyone want another chapter? I preferred Genkido, but this turned out pretty good. And who knows? Maybe Gojyo will snap again for some reason or other. Hmmm…this could be fun…