Who are you now?
You wander aimlessly in the corridors of your house. Your grandson cries for his mother and father. But they are dead aren't they? You sleep in a bed all on your own. Ted's side is vacant and it always will be. Can you come to terms with that?
Can you believe that they all died at the hands of the sister that you used to love? Can you believe that she took a mother with a newly born baby? Can you believe that Bellatrix killed a your daughter? Your little girl?
Though you knew she would kill Ted. Deep down. You truly know that Bella would never leave you with a muggleborn. Ted knew the risk of marrying you. He told you once that he would marry you if it meant he only got one month being your husband.
But you never thought Bella would kill your daughter. You wonder what kind of a monster could do that. But you know your sister better than anyone. Better than Rodolphus, better than Narcissa, even better than lord Voldemort. And you know, that however evil she is, whatever kind of a monster she is, she killed them cause she missed you. She was deranged enough to think that you would go back to pureblood world after they were dead.
But she was wrong wasn't she? You hate her more than ever. You hate Voldemort for changing her. You hate Narcissa for believing her. You hate the death eaters for encouraging her. But they are all gone. They are all dead. Revenge was served. But it doesn't make you feel any better about what happened.
When you open the daily prophet the list of dead people brings tears to your eyes. But then you see a name right a the bottom. Bellatrix Elladora Black Lestrange. Your sister is dead to. But it only makes you feel worse. You have no one now. You had always hoped your sister would turn. And once the dark lord was dead. She might have. But now you'll never know. She is just a dead body in grave that will get gratified. It was certain no one would cry for her. Not even you. Your eyes fill with tears but they will never leave your eyes. They never will leave your eyes. Never again will you laugh like you used to. Never again will you cry. Never again will your face light up with that smile that Ted caused. Never again will you feel like a whole person.
You can try to laugh. But it will never be a true laugh. You can try to cry but you can't. You can try to bring that smile back, but its gone. You can try to feel like a person, but you won't. You never will.
Teddy Lupin makes you laugh.
(But not like you used to.)
Teddy Lupin makes you cry,
(But the tears don't leave your eyes.)
Teddy Lupin makes you smile.
(But never the one that you once had.)
But you are never whole. Are you Andromeda?
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