Disclaimer: Their was a ficcer had a dog and disclaimer was it's nameo,
D.I.S.C.L...aimer,
um, right, well, their not mine. I wish they were, but if wishes were
pennies then, well I'd
own Sirius, Remus and Snape, but they're not, and I don't, they belong to
JK, but you all
knew that. Oh, and the song is 'I will not forget you', by Sarah McLachlan
Warnings: If the thought of Snape ever being with Remus turns your stomach, don't read, normally, I avoid the ship, but this just bit me. Summary: Snape's thoughts on the past, and how Remus left him.
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I will not forget you
//I remember the nights I watched as you lay sleeping Your body gripped by some far away dream Well I was so scared and so in love then And so lost in all of you that I had seen//
You're beautiful when you're asleep. I'm sure Black has told you that. Perhaps he does as I did back then, before he ever told you how he felt, and staved off sleep, just for the joy of watching you, not because you were beautiful, though you were, but because I loved you. I could spend hours, days watching you sleep, and maybe he does, but invariably our time was interrupted, you had to go back to your dorm, there were people who would miss you.
//But no one ever talked in the darkness No voice ever added fuel to the fire No light ever shone in the doorway Deep in the hollow of earthly desires//
But I knew you never loved me. We never talked afterwards, you never spoke my name. And without exception when we, I, made love in the dark, you were picturing someone else.
//But if in some dream there was brightness If in some memory some sort of sign And flesh be revived in the shadows Blessed our bodies would lay so entwined//
Yet I did see you in the light, while I made love to you, if only when I was dreaming, it is only looking back, that I see what is so obvious now, that while I saw a blessing in our coupling, to you I was but a shadow of someone else.
//And I will oh I will not forget you Nor will I ever let you go I will oh I will not forget you//
But I will never forget you, even as you love someone else and I become bitter with the years, and my chances at love dim, I keep my memories of our time together, I will never let them fade.
//I remember how you left in the morning at daybreak So silent you stole from my bed To go back to the one who possesses your soul And I back to the life that I dread.//
Even though I keep memories of my happiness while with you, I try to forget the night you left. You left a message for me to meet you at our trysting spot, the first in weeks, and I swept you up as soon as you walked through the door. Afterwards you told me you loved him, Black, and left me to find my way back to Slytherin, eye's damp with tears I could not let fall.
//So I ran like the wind to the water Please don't leave me again I cried And I threw bitter tears at the ocean But all that came back was the tide...//
Halfway there, I turned and instead walked out to the lake, to the clearing on the edge, just inside the forest, where I first spoke to you. There I let myself cry, the only time I can remember, and nothing came to comfort me, and I knew I was alone.
//And I will oh I will not forget you Nor will I ever let you go I will oh I will not forget you//
But still I held on to the memories, and slowly the anger at your leaving faded, but my love, and my pain never will.
Warnings: If the thought of Snape ever being with Remus turns your stomach, don't read, normally, I avoid the ship, but this just bit me. Summary: Snape's thoughts on the past, and how Remus left him.
// indicates lyrics
I will not forget you
//I remember the nights I watched as you lay sleeping Your body gripped by some far away dream Well I was so scared and so in love then And so lost in all of you that I had seen//
You're beautiful when you're asleep. I'm sure Black has told you that. Perhaps he does as I did back then, before he ever told you how he felt, and staved off sleep, just for the joy of watching you, not because you were beautiful, though you were, but because I loved you. I could spend hours, days watching you sleep, and maybe he does, but invariably our time was interrupted, you had to go back to your dorm, there were people who would miss you.
//But no one ever talked in the darkness No voice ever added fuel to the fire No light ever shone in the doorway Deep in the hollow of earthly desires//
But I knew you never loved me. We never talked afterwards, you never spoke my name. And without exception when we, I, made love in the dark, you were picturing someone else.
//But if in some dream there was brightness If in some memory some sort of sign And flesh be revived in the shadows Blessed our bodies would lay so entwined//
Yet I did see you in the light, while I made love to you, if only when I was dreaming, it is only looking back, that I see what is so obvious now, that while I saw a blessing in our coupling, to you I was but a shadow of someone else.
//And I will oh I will not forget you Nor will I ever let you go I will oh I will not forget you//
But I will never forget you, even as you love someone else and I become bitter with the years, and my chances at love dim, I keep my memories of our time together, I will never let them fade.
//I remember how you left in the morning at daybreak So silent you stole from my bed To go back to the one who possesses your soul And I back to the life that I dread.//
Even though I keep memories of my happiness while with you, I try to forget the night you left. You left a message for me to meet you at our trysting spot, the first in weeks, and I swept you up as soon as you walked through the door. Afterwards you told me you loved him, Black, and left me to find my way back to Slytherin, eye's damp with tears I could not let fall.
//So I ran like the wind to the water Please don't leave me again I cried And I threw bitter tears at the ocean But all that came back was the tide...//
Halfway there, I turned and instead walked out to the lake, to the clearing on the edge, just inside the forest, where I first spoke to you. There I let myself cry, the only time I can remember, and nothing came to comfort me, and I knew I was alone.
//And I will oh I will not forget you Nor will I ever let you go I will oh I will not forget you//
But still I held on to the memories, and slowly the anger at your leaving faded, but my love, and my pain never will.