Are You Ever Going To Love Me?
A song fit For Jacob Black
I was sitting in my rabbit thinking about Bella and that blood sucker. How could she love him?! How could she even be with him?!
A song began playing on the radio and I tried to concentrate on it, hoping that it would take away some of the pain from my aching heart.
Tell me what else can I do
Tell me what else can I say
The closer that I get to you
The further you push me away
Till I don't know where to go
And I don't know why I stay
Do you even care
Or am I some little game you play?
Wow, did this guy Jimmy Wayne have my story down flat or what? Was he tormenting me? Did he want me to suffer more than I already was!?
Are you ever gonna need me baby
Like I need you?
Are you ever gonna want me baby
the way I want you to?
I know that you love me
Oh I know deep down you do
But are you ever gonna love me
the way I love you?
Okay, it's official: This song sucks! I hate it! It just let's my poor heart take yet another beating. I couldn't help it, I cried.
I never know how you feel
I can't read your mind
I just keep waiting
Am I just wasting time?
Was I wasting time? My time couldn't possibly be wasted but someone as extraordinary as Bella. She was perfect. She was what I needed. She was my other half. She was the very thing that had the power to hurt me. She was hurting me no matter how much she didn't want to.
Are you ever gonna need me baby
Like I need you?
Are you ever gonna want me baby
the way I want you to?
I know that you love me
Oh I know deep down you do
But are you ever gonna love me
the way I love you?
Bella would never love me. I was a monster and she was an angel. Why an angel would want to be a vampire is beyond me. If it made her happy then I would gladly stand aside. I would do anything for her even if it meant that I would emotionally die inside. I would cease to be anything more than a hollow shell. The same way she was when Edward left her. I cought Bella when she fell. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad, it would be just like when Bella tumbled to the ground. The only difference would be that there would be nobody to catch me when I fell. I would fall to the hard, rocky ground and crumble at the feet of an angel that could only be known as Isabella Marie Swan.
In conclusion: This song sucks. No, life sucks.
(AN: I have had this idea for this song fit for forever and I just wrote it. I am extremely proud of myself actually. Please feel free to deflate my growing ego. Seriously… go ahead.)