I wrote this story sometime in April of 2015 so it's pretty recent.
Magnus Pov- Magnus Bane felt nothing but pure happiness as he watched his beautiful Shadowhunter sleep peacefully beside him. It's already been a year since Alec had moved in with him and he still hasn't gotten over the joy of going to bed with him every night and waking up to him every morning. Every now and then Magnus liked to wake up a half an hour before his Shadowhunter would to start his dangerous job, and just watch him sleep. For someone who spent his entire life getting up early Alec wasn't a morning person.
He looked peaceful in his sleep but once awake he'll grumble and be slightly irritated. That is until he gets a good morning kiss from his amazing warlock boyfriend. Then his foul mood would vanish and he would be nothing but happy the rest of the day... or at least until Jace would do something stupid to bring the foul mood back.
Still, watching Alec wake up was the highlight of Magnus's morning. That's why his happiness died when Alec's cell phone rang disturbing his lover from his sleep. Alec opened his eyes blinking the sleep out of them before turning his back to Magnus grabbing his phone off the in-table. "What Jace!" Alec barked knowing it would be the golden boy.
His bark cheered Magnus up a little but not enough. When Alec got calls like this it meant straight to business and Magnus liked to fool around a little with his boyfriend before work. Obviously that wouldn't be happening today so Magnus just laid his head on his pillow sighing, looking over his boyfriend frowning. Alec was nineteen now and his age was already starting to show, his hair grew out a little since he hasn't had time to trim it so his bangs fell in front of his eyes a little bit, his muscles were forming more and he was getting taller to. He was getting taller than Magnus which he did not like one bit.
Magnus didn't like the thought of him growing so soon after they finally got passed all the drama and started being a real couple. The break up was hard enough on him, when Alec died he might not be able to go on living. Alec hung up the phone with a long sigh before turning around to face Magnus giving him the blue eyed puppy dog eyes he always gave Magnus when he was about to ask him a favor. Sometimes Magnus loved doing favors for Alec especially when they were of the sexual kind, but way to often he got stuck helping his Shadowhunter friends get out of trouble or use his magic for free.
He didn't mind doing it for Alec because it was obvious he appreciated it. Other Shadowhunters however acted as if it was his obligation to help them without even a thank you. Even Alec's siblings Jace and Isabelle didn't thank him that much and they were always the ones causing trouble, well them and Clary Fray. "How bad is it" Magnus sighed rolling onto his back and staring up at the ceiling.
Alec leaned over laying his chin and crossed arms on Magnus's chest looking into his eyes "We need your help finding something." Magnus raised an eyebrow in question "And that would be?" "Something called the wishing stone, I guess it has powerful high level demon magic and the Clave wants it in safe hands." That did seem like a warlock job but it's also a job Magnus would have charged an insanely large fee for.
"Of course I'll help you Alexander, it might not be easy though." Alec smiled and kissed Magnus briefly "I love you so much, you're always there for me even when I know you rather not be involved." Magnus kissed him back "I can't say no to you Alec." Alec kissed him again before getting up and dressed in his Shadowhunter gear.
"Do you know anything about this wishing stone?" Magnus shrugged getting out of bed and looking through his closet for something that wouldn't make him cry if it got dirty. Finally, he just grabbed some jeans and his black shirt that said Blink if you want me on it since it was the only thing he could find to fit that category. "Is that the shirt you let me borrow on our first date" Alec asked smiling, looking over the shirt.
I nodded pulling on the jeans "You looked hot in it." Alec blushed looking away "Don't say embarrassing things so early in the morning." Magnus laughed and pulled on the shirt before moving over to Alec wrapping his arms around his waist "But I just love seeing you blush." He started kissing down Alec's neck making the Shadowhunter shiver with excitement "Magnus we don't have time for this we need to meet Jace and the others at the institute."
Magnus ignored him and made his grip on Alec tighter, pulling him closer so he was pressed against him. Alec put his hand on Magnus's chest pushing against him to get away "I would love to continue this when we get home but now's not the time." Magnus sighed "I don't like when you're in Shadowhunter mode, you're no fun." Alec grabbed his hands "I'm sorry Magnus but just think the quicker we get done with finding the wishing stone the quicker we can come back here and I can show you how much I appreciate your help."
Magnus perked up at that and quickly went to the living room grabbing a book about demon artifacts "This should have information on the wishing stone" He said flipping through the pages. Once he found the right page he handed it to Alec "This should tell you where to find it." Alec took the book looking through it and he smiled "Great it's in New York, we won't have to travel very far... You are coming with me right?" He nodded "You might need my magical assistance." Magnus took the book back putting it in his bag "Let's get this over with.
Magnus made a portal to the institute where a group was gathered together waiting for them. The group consisted of Jace, Isabelle, Clary and Simon who was on break from the Shadowhunter Academy for a week or so. Everyone was geared up ready for battle if need be. Alec reached into Magnus's bag and pulled out the book on the wishing stone.
"This stone is very powerful it has powers like a higher demon. If it got in the wrong hands who knows what they would do with it." Jace took the book flipping through the pages "Does it say where to find it?" Magnus snatched the book back rolling his eyes "It's in a tunnel somewhere in central park."
"Even a mundane could find it then" Clary asked frowning. Alec shook his head no "it's very heavily glamoured, most Shadowhunters can't even find it." Jace laughed and hit Magnus on the shoulder "That's why we have sparkles here." Magnus rolled his eyes and Alec punched Jace in the arm making the blonde grab it in pain.
"Once we find the tunnel I should be able to find it with a demon tracking spell" Magnus said slightly happy that his boyfriend stood up for him. Jace snorted "See it's useful having one of us date a warlock." "Jace!" Alec yelled going to hit him again but Isabelle took care of it for him, hitting him on the head. It wasn't even nine and the blonde was already getting on Magnus's nerves.
"The tunnel may have traps; I hope Jace gets stuck in one" Magnus said smirking. He lost the smirk when he seen the disapproving look on Alec's face. Sighing Magnus turned and started walking in the direction of the institute gates. Alec glared at his friends telling them to behave before going to follow Magnus.
Once he caught up Magnus grabbed his hand "I already hate this." Alec frowned squeezing his hand "I know, I'm so sorry." Magnus looked at his boyfriend "You have nothing to apologize for, it's them." Alec glanced back at the others who were following from the distance.
"Simon understands-" "Simon understood, he was once a Downworlder and sure he has some of his memory back but he is a Shadowhunter now. I feel like Shadowhunters will never see Downworlders as equals." Alec frowned laying his head on Magnus's shoulder. "You and I have already changed so much for Shadowhunters, I'm sure equality will be next."
Magnus sighed "Alec just because Shadowhunters are coming out doesn't mean they will be accepted. You of all people should know that first hand. Downworlders will never be equals." Alec's eyes were sad now, knowing Magnus was right "It's a start Magnus."
He nodded frowning before looking around once they were in the park. He couldn't use the tracking spell until after they found the tunnel. Simon looked around "You know I never saw any tunnels here as a kid but there's a cave." Jace rolled his eyes "it's glamoured idiot."
Magnus thought for a moment "No... I think you have a point Shamoo." Simon sighed "Seriously, I thought you learned my name." Everyone ignored him and went back to talking about the cave. "The book says it's glamoured and in a tunnel" Clary said looking around.
"Books can lie, it's a trick of the mind putting it somewhere you would never look but also somewhere you can't accidentally stumble across it. There is a chance it could be in this cave." Jace frowned "So Simon could be right?" Simon laughed in his face and Alec rolled his eyes before looking at Magnus "Let's find this cave."
He looked at Simon "Lead the way Simon." The brunette nodded and led them all to a cave deep in the wooded area of the park. Once in front of the cave Magnus could sense a high level of dark energy. The ruby necklace around Isabelle's neck vibrated violently as well.
"Looks like Simon was right" Alec said moving toward the cave. Magnus quickly grabbed him by the shoulder pulling him back. "Like I said before there could be traps in there we all have to use caution and stick together." "Oh please let's just go in already" Jace said running inside.
"Jace stop" Alec yelled pulling away from Magnus and running after him making the other hunters follow. Magnus stood alone at the cave entrance pinching the rim of his nose "No one listens." he quickly went after the Shadowhunters not wanting Alec to get hurt over Jace's foolishness. When he finally reached them they were stuck between three paths.
Jace turned and looked at Magnus "What took you so long? Hurry up and do the tracking spell so we know which way to go." Magnus just stood there clenching his jaw "I don't take orders from you." Alec frowned grabbing Magnus's hand "Please Magnus?"
Magnus looked at his blue eyed lover before sighing and casting the tracking spell "it's the tunnel to your right." Jace and the others ran down that path but Alec stayed with his boyfriend looking at him sadly "Do you want to leave? You can if you want to." Magnus sighed "I do want to leave but you still might need my assistance."
Alec nodded and stepped closer to comfort his boyfriend but when he did the ground started to crack. The cracks got bigger and then crumbled making Alec fall down a hole out of Magnus's sight. Before he could react the ground started crumbling under his feet as well and he fell in a separate hole. "Son of a bitch" Magnus cursed when he hit the ground hard.
He was in a small confined space closed in by an avalanche of rocks, the only way out was to dig passed them. Sighing Magnus looked at his nails that he just got done yesterday "Sorry babies" he said before he started digging through the dirt and rubble trying his hardest to dig his way out. He dug and dug, he even tried using magic but nothing seemed to work. "Damn it" He mumbled before yelling out for Alec making his boyfriends name bounce off the wall in an echo.
There was no answer back from Alec so Magnus sat in a pile of rocks glaring "Jace or someone must have set off a trap" He said picking through some rocks and throwing them. "They never listen to my warnings and they treat me like a dog. If it wasn't for Alexander I would think every Shadowhunter was like this. Alec is one of a kind though in a lot of ways and this is no different."
A rock with no edges rolled over to Magnus hitting his foot and he picked it up sighing "Sometimes I wish the roles were reversed, I could be a Shadowhunter and make everything fair and equal. Maybe they would see the error of their ways." The rock started glowing bright in Magnus's hands and he stared at it shocked. An arm holding a blade cut through the rocks making the wall of rubble ca-laps and there Alec was out of breath covered in dirt.
"Magnus I'm so glad I found you" He said as his body started fading in and out. "Alexander" Magnus yelled standing up watching his boyfriends body fade and reappear like static on a TV. Alec said Magnus's name one more time before everything went black.
"Magnus... Magnus... MAGNUS!" Magnus could hear Tessa Gray's voice yelling in his ear but all he wanted to do was sleep. He must have passed out in the cave and was brought home for Tessa to care for him. "Is the fool not up yet" A familiar voice asked entering the room.
Magnus frowned listening to the voice, it was impossible that he was hearing this voice. "Afraid so, what did you two do last night" Tessa asked standing up. The impossible voice sighed with irritation "Magnus ran head first into danger again like always." Needing to see the face that went with that voice Magnus forced his eyes open and looked over at the two people standing at the end of his bed.
Magnus was shocked to see that the voice was indeed Ragnor Fell Magnus's dead best friend. It was him but it also wasn't him. His skin wasn't green it was a pale mundane color, his hair was light brown, and he had no horns. "R-Ragnor" Magnus asked softly "You're alive... why aren't you green?"
Ragnor and Tessa both looked at each other before looking back at their friend. "Yeah I'm alive but your little stunt last night almost killed me. As for the green thing, I have never been green." Magnus scanned his friend with his eyes trying to get a better look at him.
He was wearing black Shadowhunter gear and had marks all up his arms. It was impossible for Downworlders to bare marks but he was and Tessa wore them too. "He might have hit his head, go get Catarina" Tessa said pushing Ragnor to the door. Ragnor sighed and went to do what was asked of him.
Magnus sat up weakly "What's going on? Where's Alexander and the others?" Tessa raised an eyebrow confused "Alexander?" He nodded "You know Alec, my boyfriend."
Tessa looked shocked "Wait a minute, you're gay since when? Magnus you can't be gay it's against the law not to mention you have a girlfriend." "I follow no such law and wait did you say girlfriend?" Before she could answer a beautiful girl wearing black gear and covered in marks rushed into the room. Her blonde curls bounced off her back as she ran to Magnus.
Magnus was stunned, not only was Ragnor a Shadowhunter but so was his old love Camille Belcourt. "But... You're dead..." Magnus said softly making Camille lose the smile that was on her face. "No I'm not, wow that demon must have did a number on you." "Demon" Magnus asked confused.
Ragnor came back in with a woman with long dark hair and slightly dark skin. Catarina, and not too far behind them was a Shadowhunter version of Raphael Santiago. Half these people were supposed to be dead and all weren't supposed to be Shadowhunters. "Ragnor it's worse than we thought, Magnus thinks he's gay and has a boyfriend named Alexander."
Camille looked at Magnus shocked "By the angel Magnus what is that about?" Magnus shook his head opening his mouth to explain but froze when he caught his reflection in a mirror not too far from the bed. His normally shoulder length spiky hair was cut to just below his ears and he had Shadowhunter marks going all up his arms. The most shocking thing though were his eyes. Normally they were like a cats but now they were a plain green.
Raphael walked up to Magnus and pulled the round rock he was holding out of his grasp "Why do you have this?" Magnus looked over the odd shaped rock and the memories flew back into his mind. He was holding that stone when he made a wish to switch places with Shadowhunters. "The wishing stone" He whispered before snatching the rock back and holding it tight closing his eyes. "I wish for everything to go back to normal!"
When he opened his eyes he was disappointed to see everyone still there and staring at him like he was crazy. "Magnus knock it off" Camille said punching him in the arm. The ruby necklace that was supposed to be around Isabelle Lightwoods neck was around hers making Magnus frown "Where did you get that?" She blinked confused looking at the ruby before looking back at him "What do you mean? You gave this to me the day we met as a symbol of our love. I hadn't taken it off since."
There was a time ages ago when that was true but now Isabelle owned that Necklace. Where was Alec and the others in this world? Obviously the wishing stone wasn't working and he was stuck here. He needed to find another way to fix everything.
Shoving the rock into his pocket he quickly got up "I have to go." Catarina grabbed his shoulders trying to force him back down "You are in no condition to be going out Magnus besides your parents should be here soon." Magnus was beyond shocked at this point "Parents?" "What's the matter with you? Forgetting your girlfriend, saying I'm dead, saying you're gay and now you don't you have parents" Ragnor yelled irritably.
Magnus shook off Catarina "I know it's all strange to you but I'm not supposed to be here, I have to go" He said before running out of the infer-emery heading to the elevator. He could hear Ragnor and Camille yelling after him but he ignored them getting on the elevator and hitting the button making him go to the bottom floor.
He stood in front of his apartment now wondering if he should just go in or if he should push the buzzer. Most likely this wasn't his apartment anymore and whoever lived here now might not even be of the shadow world. Finally making up his mind he pushed the buzzer but there was nothing but silence. He pushed the buzzer three more times knowing it always annoyed him enough to finally answer it.
knowing that, it was no surprise when an angry female voice yelled "Who dares disturbs he High Warlocks of Brooklyn!?" Magnus had to take that in for a moment. The High 'Warlocks' meaning more than one. Multiple people stole is job from him.
"Um... My name is Magnus Bane..." Another long pause before she asked "Are you our three o clock appointment? If so you're a half an hour early." He bit his lip "Yes I am; I hope you don't mind that I came early." "It will cost you extra" She said buzzing him in.
He opened the door and went inside not surprised to see the door upstairs was wide open for him to enter. He peeked inside looking around at what used to be his home before looking at the couch seeing the back of a girl with long black hairs head. "Close the door" She said starting to paint her nails. Magnus shut the door before making his way around the couch beyond shocked to see young Isabelle Lightwood sitting there.
Her hair was longer than usual going down to the floor, she had on a tight red dress and some pumps to match. What really got his attention though were her eyes, they were still dark brown but now were the eyes of a cats like his used to be. "Is our guest early" Jace asked walking into the room. His hair was the same curly blonde and he dressed the same as in the other world. The only difference was his golden cat eyes.
"I don't remember Alec saying anything about working for the Nephilim." Isabelle looked over Magnus's marked arms "It is strange for Shadowhunters to come to us, usually we are made to come to you." Magnus looked at his arms before looking around "Alec? Where might I find Alec?"
"You might find me here" Alec's voice hit Magnus's ears like a bell. He felt like it's been forever since he heard that slightly husky voice even though it's only been a few hours. "Alec you didn't say our client was a Shadowhunter" Jace said crossing his arms in disapproval. "That's because he isn't our client."
The amusement in Alec's voice was alien to Magnus. There was a tone of confidence in it that he had never heard from his own Alec. Finally building up the courage to see him Magnus turned around and froze taking Alec in. He had on blue skinny jeans, a gray shirt with one long sleeve on the right and an over the shoulder strap on the left, and black converse. The outfit wasn't the only strange thing about him though His black hair was to his shoulders and slightly spiked in random directions, and he had on a charcoal gray eye shadow that made his blue cat eyes pop in the most gorgeous way.
Magnus was breathless, he always tried to get Alec to wear makeup but he always refused. Seeing it now, along with Alec's confident smile turned Magnus on in a way he never knew he could. Alec pushed off the wall he was leaning on and walked up to Magnus scanning him with his eyes. "So what brings you to the High Warlocks of Brooklyn child of the Nephilim?"
Magnus swallowed nervously, watching Alec's intense stare. "Um... well, I was just trying to put some puzzle pieces together." Jace slightly flicked his wrist sending Magnus flying backwards into a chair. Magnus struggled to get out of it but he had a sealing spell around him.
"I don't like the way you're looking at my brother Shadowhunter" He said getting in front of Magnus glaring. Alec laughed and pushed passed Jace "Stop that." Alec leaned down propping his hands on the arms of the chair looking into Magnus's eyes "Lucky for you I have years of experience putting puzzles together." Magnus frowned at that statement "How old are you?"
"How rude" Isabelle yelled but Alec just lifted his hand silencing her. Isabelle and Jace were the same here as they were in the Shadowhunter world, the only one who seemed to be different was Alec. "Why would I tell you my age Shadowhunter? You may be cute but you're also very rude."
Alec was flat out flirting with him in front of his siblings and they didn't even seem surprised. "Alexander-" Magnus said softly wanting to talk about the wishing stone but Alec's blue eyes turned intensely cold. "What did you call me" He asked growling lowly. Magnus was shocked at the tone of his voice. "I called you Alexander."
Alec straightened up before kicking the legs of the chair Magnus was sitting in making him fall backwards and hit his head hard. "No one calls me Alexander got it!" Magnus nodded frowning "I'm sorry... I didn't think it would bother you." "Well you thought wrong so don't say it again" Alec said before turning his back to Magnus talking to Jace.
Sighing Magnus shook his head thinking he was an idiot. Alec was a Warlock now, like him he could have been alive for centuries and have all kinds of trauma from immortality. Alec looked back at him and pulled the chair Magnus was sitting on back up so he wasn't on the floor anymore. "Tell me what you want Shadowhunter for you can leave."
Magnus glared "Stop calling me Shadowhunter my name is Magnus Bane!" Isabelle walked over to them blowing on her nails to try to dry them "Now that I think about it there is a very important Shadowhunter family that goes by that last name." Jace rolled his eyes "I hate the Bane family they're all so manipulative." Magnus glanced at Jace thinking that he always thought that about the Lightwoods.
"I'm not like my family... I respect Downworlders." All three of them busted out laughing "Oh sure you do and Alec's straight" Jace said laughing. Alec looked at his brother "Leave my sexuality out of this." As they bickered back and forth Magnus thought about the wishing stone in his pocket wondering if he should really tell them about it but decided against it.
"I... I came to ask you out Alexan... Alec." Alec stopped arguing with Jace and looked at Magnus "You want to go on a date with me?" Magnus nodded "Yes... I've watched you for a while now and I think you're cute." "That's creepy" Isabelle said leaning on her older brother.
Jace laughed agreeing with her but Alec just looked at Magnus thinking. "I've never dated a Shadowhunter before. I've been asked other things from them but never a simple date." "Well I'm not like other Shadowhunters, I actually have feelings." Alec looked Magnus over thinking before nodding "Okay sounds fun."
Jace and Isabelle looked at him shocked "You can't be serious Alec, he's a Shadowhunter he's only trying to make a fool of you" Jace yelled. "I would never do that" Magnus yelled back at him. Alec flicked his wrist allowing the binds on Magnus to be released. He stood up rubbing his wrists "I just want a chance to get to know you, you're beautiful and seem like you're very smart."
His words made Alec blush, it made Magnus smile because no matter what world he was in Alec's blush was always the same. "Fine... pick me up at eight." Magnus smiled and out of habit went to kiss Alec but he put his hand on Magnus's mouth stopping him. The confident smile was back on his face making shivers go down Magnus's spine.
"How about we have that date first and then we will see about a kiss." Magnus frowned and Alec grabbed him by the shoulders turning him around and leading him to the door "So see you at eight" He said shoving Magnus out into the hallway winking before shutting the door.
Alec Pov- The second Alec closed the door he was jumped by his siblings demanding answers. "Are you crazy Alec? Dating a Shadowhunter is against the law you'll be killed" Jace yelled shaking his brother. Alec rolled his eyes and shoved his arms off of him "I don't see the harm in a little date, besides he said I was beautiful and smart."
"People tell you that all the time Alec but you don't go out with them. What's so special about this guy?" Alec shrugged before walking to room sitting in front of the mirror making them follow "I don't know I just feel something different with him. Besides my life has become too routine I need some fun."
They looked at each other before looking back at him "Is this some kind of Mid- century life crises? You could always go on a retreat or steal a car. Anything but date a Shadowhunter especially a member of the Bane family" Jace argued. Alec looked at them giving them both a 'leave it, and leave me alone' look.
Isabelle and Jace looked at each other again before shrugging and walking out knowing better then to get to much into Alec's business. Alec watched them leave before looking into the mirror wondering what makeup would look good and what he should wear. Alec started wearing makeup not too long ago in the late 1960's. That was the time he first discovered he was gay and wasn't ashamed to show it either.
Alec has been in many gay rights movements including the biggest one The Stonewall Riots in 1969. He liked feeling like he was a part of history, that his none ending existence made a difference in every century he must live in. Gay rights, race equality, the Holocaust, he was there for it all and had a part in it. There was war and unfairness with Downworlders and Shadowhunters but he chose to ignore it and helped Mundanes instead. Alec thought they were beautiful and broken just like him.
This Shadowhunter Magnus Bane was different from the few hunters he has gotten to know. He seemed sweet and kind but what really got Alec's attention was the understanding in his eyes when he yelled at him for calling him Alexander. That was a hard name for Alec to hear and Magnus had a look that said 'I understand, I hate my past too.' He had the sadness of immortality in his eyes which was impossible but Alec swore it was there. He just had to see how a Shadowhunter could have that look in his eyes so he accepted the date.
Alec has dated many men over the years and most of them were mundane, pretty simple but he didn't know what to do when dating a Shadowhunter. Were there differences? Were the differences huge? What if Magnus Bane was just trying to make a joke out of him like Jace said?
Alec has had his heart messed with many times and he thought he could tell who was genuine and who just wanted something from him. He wasn't innocent, he used people as well and felt no shame in doing so. When you live forever one sided declarations such as 'Till death do us part' had no meaning to him. Death would always come and he would always be parted with.
Magnus Bane was no different, he was a Shadowhunter, a mortal with a life span shorter than the average mundane. Even if this date wasn't a joke and Alec fell head over heels for the man it wouldn't matter. Magnus would die and once again Alec would be left behind. Alec picked up his makeup bag and started looking through his eye-shadows thinking about the way Magnus has said his full name.
'Alexander' it rolled off his tongue like the name was a precious treasure to him. Him saying it gave Alec shivers but it also filled him with a heated rage that he couldn't control. That name wasn't precious to Alec, in fact it was far from it. That name was a heavy chain on his heart that pulled him down and trapped him in his past.
Alec didn't enjoy thinking about the past, his mother was raped by a greater demon and he resulted out of it. They knew what he was after they seen his eyes but they chose to ignore it and live like nothing was wrong and he was their perfect child. But then Isabelle was born and she was supposed to be their second chance. It turned out mom was raped again and Isabelle, like Alec was a Warlock.
Unable to handle the shock of it they went crazy and tried to kill them both. Isabelle was only a year old by time her demon mark shown and Alec was four. He was so young yet knew that he had to protect his sister. He managed to get her and himself out before catching the house on fire killing their parents.
Alexander was the name those parents gave him and they spat it like it was venomous in their mouths, that's why he hated being called Alexander. Still not a lot of people even knew that Alexander was his real name, he had come up with the name Alec in the 1800's when he met Jace. He was Alexander and Jace was Jonathan both names that they both hated. So Jace said he would call him Alec because it was shorter and easier to say. Alec agreed and in turn gave him the name Jace.
The special names bonded them and they have been friends ever since. In 1989 Alec had told Jace he loved him and Jace just laughed and said 'trust me, you can do better than me.' That shocked Alec at the time because Jace has a personality that made it appear as if he thought no one was better than him. Alec learned in that moment though that it wasn't true, Jace has self-doubts and he knew Alec couldn't really feel that way forever.
Alec later discovered he only wanted to avoid the goodbye part of I love you. If he was with Jace they could be together forever and he would never have to say goodbye. Alec shook his head of all the thoughts of his past before looking at the clock, it was six thirty plenty of time to prepare for his date. Whatever happened tonight Alec was ready for it, good or bad.
Confident Alec is a Sexy Alec ;) I hope you all liked this. it's one of my favorites.