Notes: My first ever writing attempt so don't flame me…. Reviews are mostly appreciated.

Summary: "…..Serves you right, don't you think so..? At least I don't go weeping like a mere child when you cheated." -- In a world where he thoughts love doesn't exist, he met Riku. The boy who taught him love, bask him with affection before breaks his heart.

Pairing: RikuxSora

Warning: Sexual themes reference, drugs usage and languages.

Disclaimer: How I wish I can own them…..

Chapter 1

Rain falls heavily, cleansing away the deadly sin of a world. Each droplets of water beautifully represents the humans grieves and pleasures. Down in the back alley of a booming club, stand a boy of 19 years old. His shoulder length silver locks were tied behind in a small knot. Green eyes blankly look straight as sorrow overwhelmed him. Tears falling from his eyes gone as the heavy rain wash him.

Standing there in front of him is the most heart wrenching sight. A relationship that for years he struggled to keep alive gone drowning in the drain as he watched his most beloved angel in the arms of other's, passionately revealed their hot love in the form of kissing.

Riku Marlstone hadn't meant to cry. Heck, in fact he'd never revealed what he felt.

Aimlessly he passes through the hazy crowded space, where body grinding against each other rocking along the loud music. Then, there at the edge of the space where stand a door with 2 bouncers guarding, he stop. The bouncer didn't ask for passes and such as he is known quite well as a 'regular' here. As the metallic doors closed, the roaming scent of alcohol and sex met him. Walls proudly stand against each other with numerous of doors stick to the wall. Moans and screeching running pass through these doors.

There at the end of the hall way stand a door with a bold silver '606'plate hanged. Practically like crashing the black door down, he stumbled in. There in the middle of the room, a good queen-size bed with black satin sheet carving it and dark brown comforter forgotten on the floor. Red brick cover the whole room's wall as he stand on the wooden floor. No window on the wall with another door at the end of the small room. The room was only lighted from the various neon on the walls.

Like a drunken man always does, he lock the door in a non-gently manner before he stumble to the bed. While on the bed sit a boy, a year younger than him, smirks as Riku practically jump on him, ravishing his smirking lips. "Sora….'' he sobs between their kisses. Sora smiles and pulls Riku close on top of him, wrapping his arms around the trembling boy's back. Alcohol reeks from him and Sora couldn't help but to let a small smile crept along his lips. Feeling the warm droplet of warm liquid of tears that he knows well falls on his neck followed by butterfly kisses. Kisses that almost desperately fall along his neckline, up to his jaw before sucking down to his Adam's apple. Almost like hungry babies sucking their mother's milk. He chuckled as he let out a low moan, enjoying such attention.

Then suddenly the frantic kisses stop, leaving only Riku laying on top of him.

Confused, Sora tightens his hold of Riku before questioning, "Riks…?'' no answers meet him. Smirking, Sora let out a sigh. "…..Serves you right, don't you think so..?'' By overlapping him, he laid his eyes on the trembling orbs. "….At least I don't go weeping like a child when you cheated." Sora smirks. Eyes twitching with full of hatred, Riku scream with a low growl that almost sound like a hissing sound, "Fuck you..!!"

Smirking he lay his lips on both of Riku's closed eyes, leaving butterfly kisses to his forehead down to his cheek. It amused him really to see Riku breaking like this and to go as far as getting drunk. "Done that remember?…" He whisper, breathing on Riku's ear before gently sucking those earlobes. Twirling his bubblegum tongue as he plays random dances on Riku's lobe, earning a deep moan from his tormented victim.

It was a stroke of miracle that he saw what had happen today. While lurking on the dance floor he saw the girl who stole his happiness, Nina, Riku's girlfriend with another man. Though anger burn deep within him, he ignore it, hoping Riku won't come across the sight, knowing how Riku adored and love the beautiful belle. It's painful to see Riku breaking down like this when usually, it was him who will react recklessly--getting emotional and stuff while Riku always with his cool and calm demeanor. That's how it always been since the first time they met back 7 years ago when Riku was 12 while Sora was 11.

You see, they had always been the best of best friend ever. They used to understand each other more than a wives understanding their husbands! Frankly, they lead quite a fucked up life. With no parents to love, Riku had always been under his brother's care. He was given no attention ever since. Of course with one of the biggest worldwide company left behind, money had never been a problem. He was practically bathed in money for more than half of his life that until at this one point in his life, he knew he's spoilt. But as he grows, he realizes it's not money that he yearns-- love. All he ever wanted is for his brother to just look at him and telling him how his brother loves and cares for him. Well it's not wrong to dream, right…?

Sora, he never had a father to begin with. Worse, his mother works at this one of the most prestigious prostitution house. Night after another, all sort of different men come over crashing their place. And before he knows it, he already loves every of those moments. Moments where the morning after when his mom gone to work, the men are all his. Ravishing and shatter his already ruined innocence.

That's when Riku, a boy who yearns for love met Sora, another boy who yearns for attention. They started as friends, and Sora was spoilt by Riku's attentions while Riku, spoilt by Sora's affections. Ended up, Riku spent most of his weekend at Sora's place. The only reason he don't go crashing there on the weekdays was only because Sora warn him not to as his mom will be home. Though the only reason was that his mom will only brings her men home on the weekdays then spending her whole weekend partying at her workplace. Not bothering to come home.

When both of them reached 14, Riku to confess his whole heart out to Sora, claiming he had always loves the younger boy. Immediately, Sora accepted him and they were inseparable ever since. Until one particular day, where Riku come across with Sora's weekdays little secrets when they were both 15. Still they remained as an item in a term of agreement.

Riku lock his gaze on Sora while the particular younger boy standing in front of him with his gaze locked on the 'Tatami' floor of his small apartment home. Sora holding both of the older boy's hand while sobbing. Riku sigh, staring at the mop of brown hair with eyes full of despair, sadness, anger and most importantly--betrayal. Opening his mouth, maybe to scream, shout, howler, cry or anything. But nothing came out only leaving him gaping like a fish. Finally tired of their deep pregnant silence, Riku choke out.

"….Why….?" tears already threatening to fall out from his trembling orbs.

He can see Sora stiffened by the sudden question. Still the boy hadn't look up to face him. Riku was about to give up and leave the younger boy there as he was presented with the tense silence but stop when he felt the younger boy tremble slightly before turn up to face him. Dark circle under his round and once innocent sky orbs, swollen and puffy as the cause of crying. He focused his eyes on Riku's seeking for the comfort he used to so much. Riku averted Sora's gaze by locking his eyes anywhere on the younger boy's face. Pale smooth tan skin, thin brown pair of eyebrows frowning, bony face that people always mistaken for anorexic or under nourished.

"I can't stop….." he whispered.

Confused, Riku shrugged off the younger boy's sweaty cold palms and ready to exited himself but stop when Sora caught his right hand. "…Don't go!" almost in panicky tone, the boy plead.

Riku knows well, usually boys his age would just walk off not bothering of the other party once they're hurt. But he will not, as those are such a childish and selfish act. If they weren't in this situation he would've laugh out loud at the similarity of him with his brother in term of maturity. Turn around he face the boy who broken his once ice-cold heart. He knows well, the boy should have a very good explanation. He almost gives in to the annoying tug at his heart to comfort the boy he loved. Sora's eyes were trembling, unfocussed as his tears falls like a broken dam. Sky blue orbs, glossy losing the shines it once owned.

Finally by using his free left hand, Riku held it up and stroke the boy's face. Wiping those tears that he himself not sure who inflicted it. Forcing a smile, he spoke in a soft tone as if a louder voice will break the frail boy. "I'm listening…"

Riku, prepared for any of the responds he may get. He will and try his best to understand his love even if it is the most illogical answers because one thing for sure as he look at the trembling boy-- he's not ready to let go. "Riks…I.…" Sora stuttered while Riku almost flinch at his nickname.

"I'm.. addicted…to it…" addicted? As in for sex…? Was he not enough? They've done it numerous of time though he had to admit it he's not the best at it, but still--

"They… I.. it's.." Sora look down before he finally look up at the confused Riku chocking the most unexpected answer "…. it's the drugs…" he whisper, having Riku to strain his ears just to catch his phrase. Hiding his face behind the tears wet bang. Feeling ashamed. Now one of the few things that Riku Marlstone detests the most is -- junkies. He hated how they pathetically hurt others just to get high. He hated them for destroying their own life with no futures ahead. He hated the ugly sight that always met him every time he pass the alleyway where all these 'creatures' tainted his eyes. And here he was facing his lover claiming that he's one of the low creatures? He grabs the skinny boy's shoulder so tightly to the verge of breaking the trembling boy.

"Why??" he snapped.

Now it all makes sense. Always no appetite, skinny feature, dark circle under his eyes. How come he'd never take note of those things? How can he be so ignorant? He was betrayed in the form of the most deadly venom that instantly killed him there. He was betrayed again and again.

By opening his eyes, Riku was greeted with the most wonderful hang over ever. He groans while squirming his eyes shut, hoping to shut the world along. Then he feels someone stroking his hair. Opening his left eyes, he was greeted by a smiling Sora sitting with crossed legs next to his laying body on the satin's sheet. Closing his eyes, he leans in to the touch. Encouraging Sora to proceed.

"Come, drink this…"Sora whisper, holding out pills and a glass. Riku, opening his sleepy eye-lids and took the two offending items. After drinking them, he received a scowl from Sora when he leaves the glass laying on the bed ignoring the remaining water.

"I was dreaming.." Riku spoke, cutting Sora's attempt of babbling session.

Sora sigh and finally after removing the glass on the bedside's table, he lay on Riku's side. Stroking the older boy's long silver hair in a loving manner "What is it that you dreamt of..?" ask the younger of the two. Riku turn to his left facing Sora, laying his left hand on Sora's naked waist. Using his right hand's thumb and gently rub the pouting lips he loves to kiss. He sighs softly before lean in closer and capture Sora's lips for a kiss. Gentle and loving kisses were exchange between the two lovers, almost as innocent as their first's. Tongues battling but not for dominance, but rather seeking for the familiarity they both love and know so well. Sora wrapping both of his arms around Riku's neck pulling them closer, sighing between their kisses for he misses those loving gesture, misses Riku whom he rarely met. Finally they parted for good as they needed to breathe, slightly panting.

Smiling suddenly feeling shy all over again when Riku intently dropping butterfly kisses all over his face, covering from his eyes to his cheek to his jaw and finally on his forehead. Sighing, Riku pull him into his arm, having Sora leaning on his broad pale chest. Looking down to the soft brunette spikes, Riku drew a comforting circle gently on Sora's bare shoulder.

"I was dreaming….. Of our little agreement." Sora stiffen by the spoken subject. Looking down, trying to avert his betrayed lover's gaze. Biting his lower lips as he knows this is a very sensitive subject for them. Riku shifted and finally moving down, having faced to face with Sora. Riku stroke Sora's cheek with his thumb as he proceeds. "Do you still… remember them…? Sora…" Feeling their foreheads touches as the evidence of their closeness, Sora nodded. "…Fuck around as much as you want… But we can only love… each other.." he whisper. Annoyed at how vulnerable he sounds like. Feeling his heart clench as he spoke. "… And that's when you decided to cheat on me."

Riku clench his teeth and overlap the laying boy next to him. Eyes narrow as he feels anger bubbled up from within. "As far as I remember Sora, it was you who sleeps around with men!" Sora look up, sending daggers to the older boy above him. "At least I don't go falling in love with them!" He almost shouted, defending himself. Riku glare, feeling himself cold with pure anger. "Love…?!" he breath, "You dare talk about love when it was you being unfaithful, having empty sex while giving yourself to others!! What do you expect me to do?! Being a fool like dogs loyal to their master?! I'm a human Sora! I need someone to love me and only me! Not someone to broke me and giving cheap empty promises!"

Feeling himself trembled by such statement, Sora whisper brokenly "You don't understand…" tears already threaten to fall. Unexpected of this turn of event when just a moment ago, they were practically on cloud nine and now everything was practically on war. Riku scoff, grabbing a fistful of Sora's dark lock, ignoring the painful voices from the boy beneath him and sneer "Oh sure, I understand. That you, a lowly scum of a slut that only know how to starve yourself and fuck around with men. That you, a selfish whore who only thinks of drugs, sex and most importantly yourself! A FUCKING whore who got no pride and dignity, selling himself for money and pleasu-" Riku was cut when a stinging pain slapping across his face. Letting go of Sora's hair he touches the pain spot. Shock cover all over his facial as he stare down at the trembling boy.

With a painful and heartbreaking expression, Sora stares up at him. Tears fall down heavily, matching the pouring rain. Sobbing with words left unspoken. The next thing he knows, he pushes Riku to the floor and rushed to the bathroom leaving him there. Slamming the door shut, he slide down. Sitting himself on the cold black marble floor. Leaning against the wooden door he cries, having the pouring rains outside from the small window of the bathroom blocking his crying.

Of course Riku won't understand. Yes, he lost his parents when he was 8 but at least he gets the idea of how it felt to be loved. While Sora left in the dark, clueless of what love is and yet yearn for it. His mom, only claiming him as useless child, a burden who ruined her once perfect life. He had been giving himself to all those men ever since he was 6 because that's the only way he can feel at least needed and secure. It can't be help that most of the men are junkies, giving him the taste of the sinful drugs that soon he found addictive.

Then there's a knock on the door. He ignores it. Feeling more tears falling down. Selfish, heck he stopped taking drugs and was trying to focus all on Riku, pushing his addicting need aside. And the next thing he knew, Riku was telling him of how he had fallen deeply in love with some Duchess's daughter when Riku was 16.

"I'm sorry…" he heard Riku whisper from the other side of the door.

Sorry? No he's not. Someone who is the second in command of the 'Marlstone's Empire' and marvelous academic background can't be sorry for a low scum like him.

Riku of course being one of the best and smart kids of the most prestigious college in the country can achieve almost anything in this world. Him, only know how to read a few things and basic counting that's all. While Riku have the world acknowledgement, he doesn't even have an id card as his mom don't even bother to register him for citizenship when he was born. Where else could he work when he don't even had an id card? When Riku owned Benz and Porsche to drive around the town, the only thing he own is only a pair of worn canvas shoes to take him from places to places. How can he be dumb enough to even dream of being with Riku? How can he even have the hope to be loved?

How was he to survive if it weren't for the owner of this club proposing him to work here, with a great payment and a place to stay? Riku, vowing to stay with him forever neglected him just because of a girl. Is it so hard to confess he had enough than to give him false hope? With no sense of security, he crawls back as what he was. Seeking comfort out of others like what he always did as a child.

"Sora.. Come on, open up the door…" Riku's sad voice taking him back to reality, shattering his haze.

Leaning his feet up to his chest, Sora cover both of his ears with his palm. 'Don't speak…' his mind screams. '..don't speak for I will crawl back to you if you do…' sniffing Sora feel himself tremble. Like a mantra he repeats in his mind 'don't speak don't speak don't speak…..' over and over again in his head. Wishing that somebody up there to have mercy on him.

So how was it for a first attempt? Nice? Not? Let me know.