Hey everyone! It's been a while. I've been having a great deal of trouble with Survivor but I'm trying! I am still working on it I promise, but after watching this movie recently called What Maisie Knew and this idea just had to be made into a Twilight fic. I'm sorry if y'all are upset but I promise a new chapter to Survivor will but up soon! Please enjoy and review!
Disclaimer: I do not own any parts of Twilight or What Maisie Knew!
Rated T: Language & just to be safe!
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As I heard little feet fading down the hallway I slumped against the counter and let my head fall into my hands.
I didn't know this was what my life would have been like at 21.
It felt like I was a single mother and the poor little girl wasn't even mine.
But, damn, I loved her like my own.
I couldn't help but look into those big, sad, brown eyes and not want to cry. But Hilly was the most pleasant, beautiful, well behaved child out there.
She was never a burden or a bother, she was simply there.
She was there when you needed a hug, when you needed someone to talk to, when you needed to feel needed, when you needed to feel loved.
You could always count on Hilly.
Such a beautiful human being should never be cursed with the life Hilly lived.
A mother who could care less about her but acts like she was the love of her life.
A father who was a disgusting man whore who only loved money and nothing more.
And lastly, a nanny who wanted nothing more than to steal her away and hide her from anymore pain and neglect.
Tanya, Hilly's mother, was a 'Rock star' if you could even call her that, who always seemed to be on tour, needed in the studio, or 'too tired' to 'deal with Hilly'.
Jacob, Hilly's father, was a, well no one really knew what he did for a living... But whatever it was caused him to travel 50 out of the 52 weeks in a year.
It was pathetic.
But to make it all even worse, the two hated each other but continued to be married.
As if Hilly's life wasn't hard enough she got to listen to them both scream at each other on a daily basis, which was why she always ended up in my bed by the middle of the night.
"Hilly," I called just as dinner finished. I instantly heard little feet on the hardwood floors.
She was the most advanced 6 year old I'd ever met.
She had chocolate brown hair, hazel eyes, and a smile that could capture anyones heart.
She was a peanut, no more than 55 pounds, if that.
"Yes, Bella?" She asked quietly, standing in the doorway.
"Ready to eat, sweets?" I smiled at her.
She gave me a toothy grin and climbed into her high stool at the counter.
Her parents were no where to be found, but it was always better that way.
Dinner was always the same, I'd make something she loved, she'd tell me all about her day at school, we'd decide what movie to watch after her tubby, and what book to read before bed.
It was our little routine.
Just as she finished her dinner the front door slammed open and the screaming began.
"Hills, why don't you go get ready for you bath?" I said brushing her bangs out of her eyes. They were constantly in her line of vision, but of course her mother never took her for a hair cut and I was not allowed...
"Okay," She whispered before getting of the chair and going to her room, avoiding her parents.
"This is my apartment, Jacob! You can leave because there is no way in hell I'm moving out!" Tanya screamed from the living room.
"Fine! I'll leave and take my kid with me!" Jacob shouted back, my stomach dropped at the thought.
No one was taking my Hilly away.
"Fuck you, Jacob! Do not threaten me with that shit," Tanya sneered.
"I'll do whatever the fuck I want you stupid bitch!"
I'd had enough.
I quickly loaded the dishwasher and went to find Hilly.
I found her in her room, playing with her toys, as if nothing was happening rooms away.
You'd never know she was affected by the fighting if she didn't cling to you once you picked her up.
I put on my happy face and tried my best to distract her from the rest.
"Tubby time, tubby time, it's Hilly Willy's tubby time," I chanted making her beautiful laugh fill the room as we went to the bathroom.
"Get undressed while I fill the tub, okay?" I asked closing the door and turning on the light.
She just nodded and began taking her clothing off.
Once the tub was filled she hopped in and played with her toys.
She was quiet most of the bath so I just left her alone, not pushing her to talk when she didn't want to.
"You love me right, Belly?" She asked using her personal nickname for me.
"Of course I do, Hilly," I said as my eyes filled up. "I'll always love you, no matter what," I said kissing her wet hair.
"Good, because I love you," She said going back to her toys.
She broke my heart with the simplest things.
Just looks she gives you shows you how much she'd been through in her short 6 years.
Once her tubby was done, we took time to pick out her pjs. I held up two options and she picked her favorite.
That night she chose butterflies because they were my favorite.
We chose our movie and book then camped out in my room.
Her parents didn't come to see her once.
I fell asleep that night with a little girl I couldn't call my own snuggled into my chest.
Hilly woke me up the next morning by planting a kiss on my cheek and then moving to get out of bed, thinking I was still sleeping. I quickly grabbed her and pulled her to my chest before her feet hit the ground.
A happy squeal left her lips, followed by a laugh.
"Let's get you ready for school, Hill bug," I said rolling us both out of bed.
"What do you want for breakfast?" I asked once we got to the kitchen.
"Lucky Charms are fine," She answered.
As she ate I got myself ready for the day.
Showered, dressed, applied makeup, and was all ready before Hilly was even finished.
The life of a nanny.
"Lets pick out your outfit," I said wiping her face off and setting her on the ground.
"C'mon Hilly," I said frustrated. "The yellow skirt or the purple skirt," I said for the hundredth time, holding two different skirts out for her to choose.
She just kept looking at the two.
"Yellow," She finally answered.
A yellow skirt with a white tshirt and these brown combat boots she wore everywhere.
I have a pair almost identical to them and she told me she wore them because she wanted to be like me.
My heart melted everytime she told me.
"You look beautiful," I smiled. "But we have to go!" I said after clipping her hair back.
Once she was at school it was my job to run errands, go food shopping, deal with an arrogant Jacob, pep talk a hung over Tanya, clean the apartment, pick up Hilly, help with homework, do laundry, cook dinner, and start Hilly's night routine all over again.
The only reason I was still there was because she brought me true happiness and I would have been nothing without her.
Life got boring when Hilly was at school.
I only had her. No family, no friends, and definitely no boyfriends.
No life at all.
Hilly ran into my arms as soon as the school doors opened.
"How was school, Hill bug?" I asked as we set out for the short walk home.
"The usual," She said looking down.
"Whats wrong?" I asked.
She just shook her head and didn't say another word the rest of the afternoon.
I was clueless as to what to do.
"What would ya like for dinner?" I asked after she finished her homework.
"I'm not hungry," She barely whispered.
"Are you sure, doll? You have to eat," I said feeling her cheeks and forehead for a temp.
Nothing was out of the ordinary.
"I had a lot for lunch," She lied. I'd packed her lunch, it was the same amount of food and snacks as always.
But I just let it go.
Once Tanya got home from the studio she barged right in with a maintenance man behind her.
"Change them as fast as you possibly came," She barked at him before going to the fridge, pulling out a bottle of flavored vodka, and chugging half the bottle, no lie.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"Jacob moved out," She sneered. "And on top of that I got served today. The fucking bastard is trying to take Hilly away from me," She almost screamed.
I let her have a moment to seethe before telling her exactly what was running through my mind.
"Wherever Hilly goes, I go," I said before walking to Hilly's room.
I needed my Hill bug.
"Hilly?" I asked tapping on her cracked door.
She looked in my direction and the look in her eyes made the unreleased tears fall down my cheeks.
An alarmed look crossed her face, the first sign of emotion I'd seen all day.
"Can I have a hug?" I asked, holding back sobs.
She ran over to me and wrapped her little arms so tight around my neck it was almost hard to breathe but it was the only thing that felt right.
She was my baby and if she left so did I.
I could never lose her.
"Please don't cry, Bella," She whispered into my neck, still holding on. "I won't be sad anymore, I'll be happy so you can be happy. I don't want to hurt you like I hurt mommy and daddy," She said with tears in her voice.
"Hilly Rose Denali!" I said pulling back to look into her eyes. "You do not hurt me. You can be sad whenever you feel sad," I said wiping her cheeks free of tears. "I just wish you would tell me what's wrong,"
"Do you remember Mikey? The boy in my class?" She asked after taking a deep breath.
I nodded not knowing where this was going.
"Well today during craft time Mikey told me my mommy and daddy don't like me and wish they never had me because you take care of me," Hilly confessed.
"That's not true, Hilly. Your parents love you the best way they know how," I said trying to figure out how to make this work. "They have me because they need extra help and I can't imagine not being with you everyday!" I said trying to show her how much she meant to me.
"Are you sure?"
"I'm positive, sweetheart," I smiled kissing her cheek, earning one back. "But I have to tell you something," I said.
She just looked at me.
"Your daddy, he isn't living here anymore." I said waiting for her reaction.
"So no more fight?"
"I hope not,"
"Are you staying?"
"I'll be wherever you are," I promised.
She just hugged me again and I wanted to cry.
She really was my everything.
"C'mon Hill bug, lets get a tubby than watch a movie!" I smiled trying to lighten the mood.
"Okay!"
Even though we did the same thing every night, it was my favorite part of the day.
After finally settling into my bed Hilly was exhausted.
She was half asleep before her head hit the pillow.
"I love you, Belly," She said before a light snore left her body.
"God I love you too, Hilly," I whispered before hugging her closer.
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